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In: Mrs Lion Comments, Ruined orgasm, Spanking

Lion got his punishment spanking last night for interrupting. What he didn’t expect, however, was the return of the punishment stool.

At a certain point in his whomping, he rolled away. I told him to get his butt back and he complied. However, he kept doing it. I asked if I needed to start over. A few times when he rolled away he told me he’d had enough. I disagreed. Finally I told him he was getting more swats than he would have because he kept rolling away. He managed to stay still.

I made his rosy butt sit on the punishment stool for four minutes. It seemed like a long time to me but it went by quickly. Of course, it wasn’t my sore butt sitting on a scratchy welcome mat. I’m sure it felt like an hour to Lion. He asked if his butt was pock-marked. It wasn’t.

The punishment stool was not the only surprise Lion got last night. I edged him over and over again. At some point I decided I was going to do a ruined orgasm. I think I’ve only ever done that once or twice on purpose. The trick was to hit the sweet spot between edging and orgasm. I managed to do it. When he recovered a little he said he thought I might be able to do it again. I didn’t want to even if he could have. Once is enough for me.

I don’t have a reason why I gave him a ruined orgasm. I guess I just wanted to see if it really does keep him horny. This morning, when he sent me the morning email, he had “Day 1” on it. It wasn’t really an orgasm. Does it reset the clock? We couldn’t decide. It’s really only a guideline anyway. A good way for me to keep track of his wait. Not that it matters how long he’s waited, but it’s nice to know. “Oh, look at that. It’s been eleven days. Huh.”

When we play tonight, barring any distractions, we’ll see if he’s still horny or if the clock was reset. I don’t have any predictions.

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In: Mrs Lion Comments, Spanking

I finally gave Lion the play spanking I wanted to give him when his allergies were bad. I wasn’t sure he wanted it and he wasn’t sure I wanted to give him one. Once we stopped second guessing each other I told him to roll over.

I admit it wasn’t one of the longest spanking. It certainly wasn’t one of the most intense play spanking. What it was, was the (I hope) beginning of many more play spankings. We’ve gotten off track in a variety of ways lately. We haven’t played much. I haven’t punished him much. I haven’t made him wear panties or diapers much. The Icy Hot… I’m not even sure where the Icy Hot is. But since we started off our journey with spanking, I think it would be very symbolic to re-start our journey with it.

We have all the parts for our waxing operation. We still have to make more room for all the parts to come together. When we do I suspect the table will be used for more than just waxing. If it’s the perfect height to reach Lion for waxing, it stands to reason it’s the perfect height for spanking, anal play, etc. Who knows? It might even get used as an actual massage table sometime.

I don’t know if I had any aha moment, but I do think I feel closer to Lion when I give him a play spanking. Although I do massage his balls when I jerk him off, it’s not quite as intimate as when I rub his buns or kiss them in the middle of a spanking. Last night I was actually leaning on him while I swatted. Not like putting all my weight on him. Just leaning slightly. I don’t know if he felt any closer to me or not. I just this minute realized the feeling.

Even if I snuggle with him after a punishment spanking, I don’t feel that close. He’s usually upset and isn’t interested in being close. I get it. I just want him to know that the punishment is over and all is forgiven even if he isn’t ready to forget yet.

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We should have played last night. We didn’t the night before. Just after dinner, my stomach decided it didn’t like something. It really didn’t like it.

I was able to snuggle with Lion a little while later and tried to get him interested in more than just snuggling, but it was a no go. It was two days after an orgasm so my guess is that he really needed some play to get hard. He’d asked if I could give him a maintenance spanking. I agreed but then the stomach thing happened.

He asked for a spanking tonight. Assuming things go okay tonight, he can have one. I know he wanted a maintenance spanking but I still “owe” him a play spanking. I wonder if it matters to him which kind of spanking he gets. I think I’d rather give him a play spanking. We haven’t done that in a long time.

Of course, he’ll take whatever he gets. He has to. But he would certainly enjoy a play spanking more than a maintenance spanking. He hasn’t done anything to deserve a punishment spanking so, unless he does something between now and then, he’ll be getting a play spanking.

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In: BDSM, Lion's Journal, Spanking

Thursday night Mrs. Lion teased me with her mouth. She’s gotten expert at knowing when I am close to coming. She’s very confident that she can keep me on the edge using her mouth. In the past, she often went too far and I got an unplanned orgasm.  Soon after the teasing, I was back in my chastity device again.

We seem to be back in  our old routine. There’s some comfort in that for me. I’m still not all that happy about being caged. But when I’m wild, I’m not too happy about that either. That suggests my feelings aren’t really related to the device. Sure, wearing it is inconvenient and sometimes a little uncomfortable. But I’ve been dealing with that for years.

We’ve basically stopped playing. We were very active, doing something at least a couple of times a week. When the maintenance spankings stopped, we stopped any sort of BDSM. I’m not unhappy that those spankings aren’t coming at least twice a week. They are genuinely hard to handle. I accept that they are a valid form of training for both of us. Since she started doing them, her intensity has gone up and my ability to accept the spanking has improved. Perhaps when I don’t need punishing in a week, a maintenance spanking can allow our training to continue.

One of the key components of BDSM play for me is that I’m aroused when it takes place. When she used to give me a play spanking, she made sure I was hard and excited before she started. Many times I stayed erect through almost the entire spanking. I had fun. The same was always true for other play as well. I’m not claiming that’s a requirement for BDSM play. But for the play to make sense at least one of us has to be enjoying it.

For example, if Mrs. Lion enjoys seeing how many painful clothespins she can put on my balls, then it doesn’t matter if I’m aroused or not. She’s having fun. If she enjoys it and I’m aroused too, then we are both having fun. My point is that if neither of us is having a good time, why do it?

It bothers me when Mrs. Lion does things to me out of a sense of duty. It makes me feel guilty and an little sad. I know that the bottom always has the most fun. Even with a sexual sadist topping, safe play is often more work than recreation. I’m sure pro doms enjoy their work, but it is work nonetheless. The same is true for Mrs. Lion. I’m sure she would rather play on her iPad than torture me. I hope she will still have fun playing with me. I’m greatful for her efforts on my behalf.