My Turn to Snooze

I’m not sure why I was so tired last night. I thought I’d been sleeping better. I worked my normal hours, came home with lunch to share with Lion, fixed a problem with our back door and snuggled in to get warm with Lion and watch TV. Unlike Lion I knew I was falling asleep and I was fighting it. I lost. I woke up long enough to discuss dinner with Lion. Then we both snoozed. The next time I woke up, Lion had dinner in the oven.

After dinner, Lion snoozed. I got out the butt plug I talked about yesterday and when he woke up, I asked if he wanted to play. He was cold, tired, and his shoulder hurt. We decided we’d wait a day. Today we’ll try to play earlier. I just remembered I told him I’d make him wear panties today if I can remember where I put them. He conveniently left them on the bed one day rather than putting them in his dresser because he “didn’t think he’d need them”. He was right. He doesn’t need them. He’ll never need them. But sometimes I want him to wear them. My want trumps his need. I’ll search for them as soon as I’m done writing.

Other than unpacking, I’m not sure what the day has in store for us. At some point I will shove the butt plug up Lion’s ass. I still want him to start out slow with anal training. I haven’t been consistent with it and it will take some time for him to loosen up. I know he thinks we can make it all the way to fisting in no time, but I have my doubts. First of all, as I’ve said before, I’m not sure I really want to fist him anymore. I’ll definitely train him to take larger dildos, butt plugs and to be able to manage pegging, but I might not fist him. Sometimes the journey is better than the destination anyway.

I’m considering anal training as not only an exercise in power over Lion, but also a time for closeness. I think it’s very intimate to shove your fingers inside your partner. [Lion — Right! I feel the same way. Fisting is probably less a power demonstration than a form of supreme intimacy.] Isn’t it similar to having a penis inside a vagina? I guess I forgot how close we can get while doing it. Hand jobs and blow jobs may have become somewhat mechanical lately, but anal training takes time and care. This is a very sensitive area and one that is not necessarily used to attention. At least not the attention of an invading object. Nope. We’ll take our time and enjoy it. [Lion — at least one of us will.]