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In: Edging, Female led relationship with discipline, Sex

Lion listened to me yesterday, like a good boy. He brought in the laundry from the camper and washed all the clothes. When I got home I was supposed to go out to get the food in, but I had a few other more pressing things to do. I decided we could do it today instead. Lion offered to do it. I said I would. I didn’t ask or tell him to do it, but if he does it he won’t get in trouble. I know he’s trying to help. I just didn’t want him to do too much or think it was all on him to clean out the camper yesterday. Because he was a good boy, he earned his play session.

Throughout the day Lion told me he was horny. He told me a few times last night too. Rather than be upset at his announcements, I was happy. I like having a horny Lion. And he’s only been really horny in the past week or so. Boy was he horny! It’s fairly rare that he gets that hard. I mean he gets hard, but when the head really stands out he means business.

I edged him a few times. He was really frustrated. Then, as I was just holding him, he started bucking. I’m a sucker for this. Most of the time, Lion just lays there. I do all the work. It’s nice when he puts some effort into it. I’m not saying every time he starts bucking he’ll get an orgasm, but the combination of a super hard Lion and the bucking made me allow him to come. Somehow it’s sexier to me when he works for it. I even got a little turned on by it. That’s definitely a good sign. We’ve been waiting for signs of life in that department.

I’m sure many of you think I’m giving Lion too many orgasms. Too bad. It’s my decision. He’s my toy and I can play with him however I want. The only thing that matters is whether we’re having fun. I’m going to speak for Lion when I say we’re definitely having fun.

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In: Lion's Journal

While we were on our vacation trip, Mrs. Lion kept me unlocked. In the five days we were away I got used to being able to pee standing up and the other benefits of a wild penis. Tuesday night as bedtime approached I realized that I wasn’t looking forward to being locked up again. When Mrs. Lion brought out the cage and handed me the base ring, I mentioned that I really enjoyed being wild. I asked if I had to put the cage back on. Her answer was a simple, “Yes.” This may seem a small thing to you, but for us this is a sea change. Her simple, “Yes,” sent a powerful message to me. I wasn’t wearing a chastity device because I want to. I’m wearing it because Mrs. Lion wants it locked on to me. My opinion doesn’t count.

Her post yesterday also reflects a major change. She’s decided that if I don’t do exactly what I should, I don’t get any teasing that night. By extension, no playing means no possibility of orgasm either. Punishment may include spanking or other things as well, but she made it clear that I remain locked up for the night, perhaps longer, without any sexual attention. While she didn’t articulate this last night, I did not receive any play because I told her I was tired. Now my behavior directly affects sexual attention I might receive. Mrs. Lion still has the right to withhold play even if she doesn’t feel like providing that attention. We’ve always had that. But now I lose sexual attention of any kind if I displease her. I am not very happy about that.

Up till now, punishment has been restricted to spanking. The spankings hurt like hell, but after the pain recedes I knew that I would get some teasing and edging. I hate the pain, but sexual pleasure would come later. Now, that pleasure will go away if I disobey. I don’t like that a bit. Of course that’s the idea. It doesn’t mean I like it or want it. It means that if I want that sexual pleasure I better do what I am told; period. Mrs. Lion is fond of telling me at the moments when I object that this is what I wanted. Yes it was. Though right now it may not be.

She’s right. That is what I wanted. I liked the idea that I could stop if I was unhappy with things. Tuesday night I really wanted to remain unlocked. I was thinking that I could tell Mrs. Lion that I wanted to stay wild for my Wednesday job interview. I wanted to give her reasons not to put the cage back on. This is a first too. I have always been excited about getting back into the chastity device after a few days’ release. It was different this time. So was Mrs. Lion. She made it absolutely clear that I was back in the cage. Yesterday, in her post, she announced that any time I disobey her it will result in the loss of play at least for that night, perhaps longer. We hadn’t discussed this. Generally she does run things past me before enacting them; not this time. She wrote that I have to learn to be submissive. I can’t argue with that.

I had originally planned on writing about moving punishment closer to the offense. My thought was that a painful spanking given close to the offense would make it much easier for me to associate the consequences with the crime. I was also thinking that most of the stuff that gets me spanked are small offenses. I was thinking that the rather trivial nature of the offenses may make our FLM more like BDSM. I don’t think that way now. So far I have written in the context of Mrs. Lion learning to discipline and become more dominant. I haven’t written in terms of me learning to become more submissive. Of course, as she wrote, we both have to learn our roles. I think she is learning more quickly than I. Nobody asked for my opinion, but here it is anyway. While I hate the idea of losing  sexual attention, I don’t think Mrs. Lion should abandon spanking as punishment. It’s effective. After reading a draft of this post, she clarified that small infractions like interrupting would still result in a spanking, but disobedience would cost me at least one night of play. I can’t argue with that. Well, I never could; it’s not part of my role.

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In: Female led relationship with discipline

Yesterday was a long day of driving. Lion remarked several times while driving that he was tired. He also said it several more times after we got home. Neither of us felt like doing anything more than taking showers and watching TV. Just before bed I brought out his cage. He grumbled a bit about no play for a poor Lion. I said I thought he was tired. He said he never told me that. Apparently I was hearing things all day.

We basically just parked the trailer, leveled it, plugged it in and walked away. Normally we bring all the food and laundry into the house, but we were just too done with it. This morning I told Lion that he doesn’t have to bring everything in by himself. He has an interview today and I’m sure he’s got other things to catch up on. I don’t want him to feel the whole burden is on him. He said he’ll do what he can. Let’s see if he listens to what I told him. If he’s exhausted and his back hurts when I get home then a tired, sore Lion doesn’t get played with tonight either.

Yes, that is a bit of a change for me. I just decided that he controls whether we play depending on how well he listens to instructions. Admittedly, when I told him he doesn’t have to do everything it wasn’t a direct order not to do everything. I didn’t want him to feel pressure. I also don’t want him to do too much to the point that he’s very tired or hurts his back. But now I have changed things up a bit. I gave the example of bringing in either the food or the laundry and I will do the rest. I’d like him to do one or the other. If he chooses to do too much, he will pay for it not only by being tired and in pain, but also by not being able to play tonight. The reward for listening is playtime. The punishment for not listening is no playtime. Definite parameters. He should appreciate the black and white of it.

I think that’s probably at least part of the problem. I don’t think in black and white terms. I’m more laid back about plans. Lion normally does the laundry on Monday. Last week he waited until Wednesday so he could make sure we had all the clean clothes we needed for the trip. Good thinking, but it confused me a bit since he’s usually a stickler for details. That may actually be part of the problem with our leak in the trailer. Why was the hose even hooked up the way it was? Because Lion thinks it’s easier to have everything done a certain way so when it’s time to perform a certain task, he can just flip a switch and off we go. I think the hose should only be hooked up when that certain task is ready to be done. We never discussed it (because I just thought of it), but he doesn’t do things the way most people would. He goes above and beyond. “It’s simple,” he’ll say. Perhaps if you have an engineer/computer mind it is. For me it’s just one more valve that needs to be kept track of and with my memory that isn’t always easy.

I have been trying to be more specific for him. It just takes longer. I have to stop partway through the sentence to translate “that cabinet over there” to “the cabinet to the left of the microwave”. Suddenly I sound like I have a stutter. It’ll take some time. I’m trying to rewire my brain. It’s ok though. Lion is trying to rewire his brain to be more submissive.

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In: Lion's Journal, Male Chastity, Sex

We got home last night around dinner time. We weren’t hungry though. By the time we got somewhere we could have lunch is was almost 3pm, so we watched some TV and had a small bite around 9. I’ve been uncaged the last five days. I’m writing this on Tuesday night. Per my rules, I am naked but still uncaged. Mrs. Lion has assured me that this condition will be corrected tonight. On Monday night, after a surprisingly strong spanking (for fun: hers), Mrs. Lion edged me once. She tried again, but I just wasn’t staying hard. This is a fairly new occurrence. I generally lose my erection after a ruined (or full) orgasm, but stay hard when teased or edged. The cause is most likely my worry over our current situation. I had an interview last week, but the hiring manager still hasn’t completed interviews due to the holiday, so no answer yet. If this latest change isn’t situational, it may be part of a more general change.

Even though I have been uncaged, nothing has changed in my sexual behavior. I am not getting more erections nor am I inclined to do any illicit playing, even in the shower. True, it’s only been a few days since my last orgasm, but normally I am very interested in coming by now. I could be conditioned away from informal arousal. Wearing a chastity device for eighteen months is bound to have some effects on me. I seem to have learned that I don’t own my arousal and am close to unable to get turned on without Mrs. Lion providing direct stimulation. This wasn’t a goal either of us expressed before or during my enforced chastity. As I think about it, I shouldn’t be surprised.

The big question in my mind is where is this leading? Will I permanently require my lioness to directly stimulate the penis before I can get erect? Is this something she wants? I’m very sure she has no intention of training me this way. But my arousal and ejaculation does belong to her. It seems the penis is now truly her toy and not mine. I can see that many guys would consider this to be the most desirable outcome of enforced chastity. I’m not sure I do. But I’m also not sure I don’t. The fact is that I have no choice. This conditioning wasn’t planned. It just happened.

Of course, I might be wrong and most of my problems with arousal are caused by the financial problems we are having. Some of this has to be due to my worry. But a lot of it is the result of a pattern we have maintained for a year and a half. In that time I have either been physically unable to stimulate myself due to the chastity device, or under direct supervision where playing with myself would be greeted with punishment.  Even now, sitting at my desk without a cage, and writing about arousal, I have absolutely no desire to play with it.

This doesn’t upset me at all. After thinking about it for a while I realize that this is exactly what I asked for and what Mrs. Lion has enthusiastically embraced. This un-submissive lion has very submissively surrendered even the ability to get hard without his lioness explicitly wanting it hard. I’m either discovering my true nature or I’m the poster lion for behavioral conditioning.