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When I suggested that Mrs. Lion give me broken orgasms (ruined orgasms) instead of full ones, my thought was that I could maintain my rather frequent ejaculations while reserving the big “O” for special occasions. In my mind it was a way to accommodate what Mrs. Lion likes with a way to give me something to look forward to over a long period of time. So far, I’ve had two broken orgasms: one over a five-day wait and the other after six days.

The adoption of broken orgasms hasn’t changed the rhythm of ejaculations that Mrs. Lion has established over the last three years. I imagined that I would get more opportunities to ejaculate. I haven’t. I’m fine with that. Something else changed. Mrs. Lion always disliked giving me broken orgasms because she knew I didn’t like how they felt. To her, a broken orgasm was a mistake. Now that we have adopted broken orgasms as our standard for semen release, she doesn’t have to worry about giving me one.

Aside from additional peace of mind, Mrs. Lion also knows that if she pushes me too far when she edges me, it’s no longer a big deal. It’s just an unplanned ruined orgasm. Good for me. It certainly isn’t a mistake or anything to feel badly about. This has liberated her to push me much more when she edges me. Instead of stopping to let me recover when she sees I am close, she keeps going. It feels to me like she wants to see just how close to a broken orgasm she can get. She can get extremely close!

It’s a little surprising to me that pushing me that much further has a lasting effect. Aside from the expected frustration of being oh so close, I’m also much hornier all night and the next day as well. I find myself having erections (like now, as I write this) just thinking about how close she gets me. On Saturday night (last night, since I’m writing this on Sunday) she got me extremely close to ejaculating more than once.  I’ve had frequent, spontaneous erections since.  I don’t usually get hard while writing a post.

I like this turn of events. I suspect that the cause isn’t simply that I’m being frustrated more acutely when edged. I think it also relates to the broken orgasms as well.  I’m not sure of the physiology, but I suspect that my semen production increases when I’m only partially drained. A broken orgasm doesn’t permit my body to expel its full load of semen. During the male arousal cycle, semen is moved into a space created when the penis becomes erect. This semen is what ejaculates when the male orgasm begins. More semen moves into that space and is ejected as the orgasm continues. This goes on until the supply is exhausted.

In a broken orgasm, only that first supply of semen is ejaculated. Since the stimulation is stopped so early in the process, the muscles that propel semen out don’t get fully triggered. That’s why it oozes instead of squirts. In my case, once I have stopped oozing, Mrs. Lion milks the rest of the semen from my penis, squeezing it out like toothpaste from a tube. This action is not arousing to me at all.

I suspect that the semen-producing mechanisms in my body are stimulated to go into higher gear. I think it is because my ability to become aroused and ejaculate remains since I still have a supply of semen. Apparently, we males, are capable of erection and ejaculation as long as we have a supply, no matter how small, of semen. It seems to me that the broken orgasm cycle combined with daily edging keeps my sexual systems in higher gear. The normal refractory period during which a male can’t get aroused and ejaculate, doesn’t occur. I’m ready to go almost immediately after the broken orgasm.

Some Eastern religions practice semen retention. Male orgasm is discouraged except for reproduction, but sex is fine. He is supposed to stop just short of ejaculation. I suspect that most of the time there is some ejaculate; a broken orgasm. In my experience, edging alone doesn’t seem to stimulate semen production the way our broken orgasm appear to. Actually, it’s too soon to know if the increase of semen is just a hormonal coincidence. Since Mrs. Lion appears to have no intention of going back to regular full orgasms, the extreme edging and broken orgasms will continue. It will be interesting to see if my ejaculate continues at a higher-than-normal volume.

 

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In: Edging, Mrs Lion Comments, Ruined orgasm

I have a very horny Lion. I’ve gotten quite good at edging him and leaving him wanting more. Ironically, it was his own doing. He suggested having more ruined orgasms and fewer regular orgasms. I was sure how I felt about that at first but it turns out the idea was very liberating. Now that I don’t care if he has a ruined orgasm, I can push him closer to the edge. Did I go too far? It doesn’t matter. It’s just a ruined orgasm. Oops!

I’m wondering if men who say they’ve waited months and sometimes years for an orgasm have actually been getting ruined orgasms along the way. I know everyone is wired differently, but I can’t imagine a man waiting years for an orgasm. I also don’t understand men who say they don’t care if they ever have another orgasm again. Of course, I don’t understand why Lion loves bondage or being spanked in any capacity, so I’m absolutely no authority on sexual perversion.

In the past, Lion has said a ruined orgasm is unlike a regular orgasm in that he could be ready to go again in an hour or at least a short time. He’s also said that a ruined orgasm takes the pressure off and, in that sense, is no different from a regular orgasm. I have no idea which is correct. Perhaps they both are. Maybe it depends from one ruined orgasm to the next. The only thing I’m sure of is that the few times I was taken to the edge and left hanging, I was pissed. Can women have ruined orgasms too? Or, because many of us have multiple orgasms, maybe it’s not possible to have a ruined one.

What I do know is that it’s gotten more interesting to edge Lion since his ruined orgasm suggestion. I can go as fast or as slow as I want. I can let him rest a minute or go right back at it. He was always at my mercy. There’s just a little more mystery about it now.

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In: CBT, Mrs Lion Comments, Ruined orgasm

Last night Lion suggested that if he selects the blindfold plus another choice from the Box O’Fun, I shouldn’t tell him what that second choice is. He will, after all, be blindfolded. He shouldn’t know what’s coming. I sort of like his knowing what’s coming. But I do understand his logic. It makes sense. From now on, we’ll do it that way when he picks the blindfold.

The next idea, however, is all mine. I’m going to remove Icy Hot and and menthol rub cards from the box. They never seem to work out well. The Icy Hot that did nothing for my knee almost made Lion want to chop his balls off. Last night’s blue menthol “fun” didn’t end well. I tried to menthol his cock. He couldn’t feel it there. When I put it on his balls it was too much and he had to wash it off.

Things didn’t go very well at all last night. Even his ruined orgasm was almost ruined. How do you ruin a ruined orgasm? It almost turned into a full orgasm. He was too horny and I was overzealous. Ironically, I had thought about giving him a full orgasm but decided against it at the last second.

What I’ve noticed from the last few ruined orgasms is that Lion has produced a good amount of semen. It’s like he’s having a full orgasm. In the past, even his full orgasms haven’t produced consistently. Maybe he finds the prospect of a ruined orgasm as sexier than a full one. Maybe I’ve just been pushing him harder to the edge. Maybe he’s just in a hormonal period that he’s prone to produce more semen. No idea. All I know is I like it.

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In: Ruined orgasm, Edging, Lion's Journal

Ever since I wrote about adding broken (ruined) orgasms to our lives, there’s been a change in Mrs. Lion’s sexual play. I’m not sure she planned it, but the change is very noticeable to me. Since my broken orgasm last week, Mrs. Lion has been pushing me within inches of ejaculation when she edges me. She gets me so close, at the time I’m positive she’s going to let me ejaculate. Alas, she doesn’t.

She does this over and over. Just when I’m sure that she’s finally going to give me a broken orgasm, she stops. It’s been a very long time since I’ve been pushed this hard. She starts as she always has, teasing the underside of my penis until it start to grow. Then she masturbates me at a steady pace. It usually takes a while for me to get excited enough to start feeling those little twinges of oncoming orgasm. She knows just when I reach that point. She then varies her speed, pushing me closer. She slows down, stopping entirely and just gently rubbing my “spot”. My excitement grows near the point of no return. Then she starts jerking me again, moving fast, just the way she does when she wants me to come. I’m ready! Then she stops.

After that first buildup, she is more teasing. She gives me five or ten strokes and stops. She rubs my spot and stops. She masturbates me very slowly. I’m ready again in no time. I’m almost there. It’s too late! I’m sure of it. She stops. It wasn’t too late. I’m breathing hard and oh, so ready! She keeps this up over and over. I have no idea how many times she does it. My mind is focused on just one thing: an orgasm. She expertly plays me like a musical instrument.

I think the reason she is pushing me this hard is that she no longer worries that she will give me a broken orgasm. She confirmed this in her post yesterday. After my post about this subject (Link), she agreed to give me broken orgasms instead of full ones. I will get a few full orgasms, but the majority of my ejaculations will be from broken ones. This agreement removes pressure from her to either edge me or give me a full orgasm. We had previously agreed that broken orgasms are unpleasant and should be avoided. Now, they are my standard release.

That means if Mrs. Lion pushes me too far and I end up oozing semen, it’s no problem. It’s just an unscheduled release. I have no expectation of a full orgasm. I’m not going to be disappointed. The broken orgasm is now just a more intense form of edging. So, if I ooze, no harm, no foul.  We haven’t tested it yet, but after a broken orgasm I will remain as horny as I was before it occurred. That means the next night, edging, or even another broken orgasm is possible.

It’s easy for Mrs. Lion to avoid giving me a full orgasm. So there is never a risk she will go too far and accidentally give me one. Since a broken orgasm is part of her edging repertoire, she can refine her edging skills with absolutely no risk of disappointment. I suspect that after a broken orgasm, she can probably keep going and edge me again or give me another.

When I suggested this change, my intention was to offer a way to add ejaculation without full orgasm. I hadn’t realized that by making broken orgasms a regular part of sexual play that edging could become much more intense. The idea that giving me a broken orgasm disappointed me and made me unhappy, apparently made Mrs. Lion more cautious about how close to the edge she pushed me. Now all bets are off and she goes as far as she wants. If I get one, a broken orgasm feels like a reward. I never consider it an accident. Only Mrs. Lion knows if she meant it or not.