I know it’s a bad idea, but I let Lion off the hook for his “just because” spanking. If I do it tonight, it will just throw off Thursday’s spanking. We’ve just been so tired. Lion has been snoozing a lot. I don’t normally snooze, but getting through a workday has become incredibly difficult. By the time I get home, I’m wide awake and able to deal with the energetic puppy but then the physical tiredness kicks in. If I can get the dog to sleep all the way through the night, we might feel better. I have two theories on our exhaustion. One is that we might have a mild case of COVID, but it doesn’t make sense that the only symptom we have is fatigue. The other is that the puppy makes just enough noise overnight, so it invades our sleep even if it doesn’t fully wake us up. She thinks we’d all do better if she was allowed to sleep in bed with us.

Since we’ve been tired, we haven’t been playing. I didn’t break out the bondage gear as promised. Pulling it out of the packages might have been all the activity I could muster. Still, about 9:30, Lion asked if I wanted to snuggle. When I did, he scooched over and said he was subtle. I guess I shouldn’t have been too surprised. He’d taken a few naps. His battery had to be at least a little recharged. Once I ventured far enough, I found a hard weenie. Nice!

I gave him the first part of a handjob. I tried to mimic how he did it when he masturbated for me. That’s the reason I wanted him to do it all those years ago. Where does he grip? How fast does he move? Even though I’d been giving him handjobs all along, I wanted to see what the expert did. After all, he’s the one who knows what feels best.

I got him all riled up and then left him hanging. Nope. I didn’t try to get him to the edge. I got the motor warmed up and left it idling. He was disappointed. Hey. It’s my prerogative. My weenie, my decision. Nothing says I have to try for the edge every time. It’s not like I haven’t done this before. I get it. He wanted more. He usually wants more, but I’m the mean old Lioness who never, ever gives him orgasms. The nerve!

This morning I was wondering if I should have told him no last night. We had an experiment where he would ask for sex, and I was supposed to say no. Every so often, he does it, and I say no. He usually doesn’t phrase it as snuggling, though. I didn’t want to deny him anyway. We haven’t been doing anything, and I wanted to play, even if it was just a bit. I may go a little further tonight. Hint, hint. [Lion — Oh boy!]

Lion’s new cuffs

Shhh. It’s a secret. Rather than tearing things apart (the puppy is doing a good job of that all by herself) looking for restraints, I decided to buy some more. I reasoned that you could never have enough. So I went on Amazon and found some wrist and ankle restraints. Actually, I think they’re for an exercise machine, but they looked like they’d work. I also bought some straps with ratchets to secure said restraints to the bed. The ones we had are red. The new ones are bright green. I guess that’s so you don’t lose your Lion once he’s tied down.

I haven’t told Lion I bought them because we’ve both been so tired. He nods off more than usual. I even nod off, and I don’t usually do that. Darn puppy. It’s like having a baby: three o’clock feedings and diaper changes. I want to be snuggled. I want to play. She needs to figure out the difference between day and night, just like a baby.

New straps.

The reason I bought restraints is that I know myself. I’ll say I’m going to look for the restraints, and I won’t. It’s easier to buy more. When they came the other day, I was prepared to show them to Lion. A whole bunch of snoozing later, I decided it wasn’t meant to be. Tonight I’ll bring them out and tell him he’s being strapped down. If he’s tired, he can just snooze in that position.

Last night I gave Lion a choice between having his “just because” spanking or pushing it off till today with two minutes added to the timer. I don’t know if he pushed it off because he was tired (he kept saying he was tired) or if he thought I wanted to push it off. I would have done it if he had chosen last night. I wasn’t that tired. Tonight is just as well. I get to add two more minutes of whomping time. Of course, I can swat for longer than 12 minutes. I may go for overall redness and some bruising. That should wake him up.

I was thinking about Lion’s impending doom on the spanking bench tonight, and it made me wonder if there should be a difference between punishment spankings and maintenance (just because) spankings. We decided they should be the same, but I’m not so sure. Hear me out.

In either case, Lion is “making” me spank him. I should technically be just as annoyed at having to give him a punishment spanking as I am to give him a maintenance spanking. (It annoys me because I don’t like hurting him, and it gives me another chore to do.) Initially, I was thinking I should be more annoyed about a punishment spanking because he’s actually done something to earn it. He broke a rule, dammit. Now I have to punish him. However, now I’m wondering if the maintenance spanking shouldn’t annoy me more. He didn’t do a damn thing, but I still have to spank him. Sheesh!

The whole purpose of just because swats were to get me used to spanking him and to improve my technique. I think it’s probably working. I’ve been concentrating on the overall redness, but I can just as easily go for red and bruising. The only question is whether punishment and non-punishment swats should be the same. Well, it’s my question. Lion is happy with them being the same.

I guess, in the overall scheme of things, it doesn’t matter if they’re the same because they can never truly be the same. One session might result in a red Lion butt all over. The next might produce a bruise and an inability to sit without some discomfort. Apparently, I’ve answered my own question. Do me a favor and remind me when I rehash this topic in the future. It will save us both a lot of time.

I just spent a few hours mowing the lawn and adding fencing for the dog. After I put the last connector in for the fence, I realized I blocked off the area needed to park the truck beside the camper. Oh, well. Not a big deal. I can live with the truck being in the driveway. Lion, however, pointed out that the car needs to live there while we’re off camping. Damn. That’s a job for next week. It would just annoy me right now.

We didn’t play last night. Dinner was very filling and then the dog needed attention. It was 9 before I got anywhere near Lion. He said he wasn’t horny at that point but he had been earlier. So today we’ll get an earlier start. It may even be before dinner. I’m not promising. If I promise then something usually interferes. There are many things that could interfere. Let’s not tempt fate.

I hope Lion enjoyed his mini vacation from just because spankings. They are set to resume tomorrow night. We’ve both been so tired, he hasn’t been breaking rules and, even if he had, I wouldn’t have caught him. I don’t think I’ve regressed. I’m confident that I can pick up a paddle and take up right where I left off last spanking. Although, Lion said I was a little too high last time. Being too high or too low can cause problems. I don’t want to hurt Lion. I need to swat him right in the chubby cheeks. Or that would be true if Lion had chubby cheeks. My goal is anywhere between the top of his crack to just below his cheeks. Normally I don’t have any trouble limiting myself to that area. I think I was overcompensating for Lion’s suggestion that I hit higher.

Many years ago, I used to cane Lion. That has an even narrower target area. It made me very nervous. I don’t know how much it would hurt him if I strayed outside the safe zone, but I didn’t want to find out. I know there are people who don’t abide by Lion’s small target area. I’ve seen videos of canings that go down onto the thighs and up onto the back. Either they’re doing it wrong or Lion knows he doesn’t want to be hit that far from center. I’m just glad I can’t hurt him as much by spanking him.