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It has been somewhat difficult lately to get Lion’s motor running. It’s partly my fault. Since I don’t want sex for myself, I guess it makes it less exciting for him. The truth is, we never really had much foreplay. I’d spank him or tie him up or whatever and once he was ready, I’d ride him or suck him. It’s very similar to the way it is now. It’s not like we ever did any role playing or rose petals on the bed. Every so often, he’d roll over and finger me or lick me instead of me playing with him. I have to say, it always bothered me that he wouldn’t let me reciprocate. For example, if I was over him and he was licking me, he didn’t want me to suck him. It never seemed fair. I wanted something to play with too.

I’m not sure what I can do to make things better. I feel bad that he’s not as turned on. I thought about “letting” him give me orgasms just to keep him interested, but I think that would annoy me. He worries about my doing things he thinks I don’t want to do but wants me to have orgasms I don’t really care about. I’d much rather play with him and give him what he needs. I just have to figure out a way to convince him he’s not taking advantage of me.

After I was done sucking him last night, he said he was sure I was going to give him an orgasm. Nope. I want him to beg for it. I know he won’t actually beg, but I want him to sweat it out. I want him to be so frustrated he can’t stand it any more. I’ve been too easy on him lately. He takes a long time to get horny and a long time to get to the edge and what do I do? I give in at the first sign of an impending orgasm. No more. He wants 4.0 around for punishment. He’s going to get her for play too. (Did you just hear him gasp?)

I think he’s definitely due for a longer wait. He needs to be super horny again before I’ll give him an orgasm. He’s gotten soft in more ways than one. 4.0 can cure that.

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In: Sex

My post about getting it up drew some interesting comments. One in particular by Julie, a fellow blogger, and author brought the most significant issue into focus. The challenge for me is psychological, not physical. Like her, I’ve found that I get very hot writing about sex. When things are going well here, telling you about what we did turns me on all over again. I also get very aroused writing sex scenes for a book. I don’t jerk off when this happens. I save the energy up for my next playtime with Mrs. Lion.

The problem is that my new novel, Hacked!, doesn’t have all that much sex in it. The story is more of a thriller. Of course, there are some hot scenes–at least they make me hot. There aren’t enough of them to fuel my sex life. The Journal only gets hot for me to write when I discuss recent sexual events. Porn has very little appeal for me. I get hot picking images for the blog but watching videos rarely get a rise out of me. I also find most reading material unarousing. There are exceptions. Julie’s blog can often turn me on.

Am I a porn snob? Maybe. I prefer interactive sex, even on an intellectual level. Perhaps I need a female pen pal with similar interests. Years ago, I was on Compuserve. It offered a chat room/private chat feature. In those days, sexual conversations were called compusex. Now, of course, it’s cybersex. I read about it in New York’s Village Voice. I had a computer and modem, so I decided to try it.

It was easy to find a woman who wanted to chat. Even back then, I could write pretty hot stuff. I would type a paragraph that lit the Internet on fire. I made myself hard with it. The woman typed back, “MMMMMM.” That’s it, a bunch of capital M’s. I tried with someone else. She was lazy, so all I got back were lower-case m’s.  It wasn’t worth the effort. I’m pretty sure that my words wet a few desk chairs but did nothing for me.

I’ve realized that I have a pretty high standard for a text that will give me a stiffy. I’m not a snob. I need imagery that can reach inside me. That’s tricky. Not many women can do that. I don’t understand what magic it takes or why I’m not as easy as most guys. It isn’t aging. I’ve always been this way. I think that communicating to arouse your reader requires focus on what will turn him or her on. If what you write also turns you on, so much the better. Most of what I read on the Net is aimed at stroking the writer’s ego or turning him or her on.

Reading hot stuff is intended to turn you (or me) on. Writing it is intended to make my reader wet her pants. It may be words on a screen or in a book, but it is foreplay just the same. That may be what makes it difficult to respond easily to Mrs. Lion. My sex is just that: sex. It’s all physical. I’ve been thinking about this. Maybe why masturbation can get old is that there is no sexual context. It’s just physical stimulation. Sure, fantasies can fuel it. Let’s face it, great masturbation isn’t as good as meh two-person sex.

Mrs. Lion works hard to find ways to make sex exciting for me. She’s very good at it. But like Julie said in her comment,

” I get hottest playing with my blog and all the accompanying research and correspondence. Often I masturbate to certain thoughts thus conjured. Then I am quite aroused, and I bring that back to bed with David, and he doesn’t know what hit him.”

It’s not that David isn’t a skilled lover. I’m sure he is. I think we have a psychological battery that needs to be charged. When mine runs down, I can’t get aroused. Being female, with a near-limitless capacity for orgasm, Julie can further rev her motor by masturbating. Unlike a man, her masturbation can actually build excitement and frustration that partner sex will satisfy. We males can’t go quite that far. But we can get hard and very aroused without ejaculating. This has a similar beneficial effect on actual sex later.

On Wednesday, the ice began to melt. I reread some of the sex scenes in the new book. I also got excited looking for images. Later, when Mrs. Lion wanted to play, I was ready. My battery had been partially recharged. I don’t know if enough pressure has built up for explosive edging and orgasm. I also don’t know exactly how to fix this recharging issue.

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It didn’t appear that my weenie was going to play well with me. I brought the rope around to Lion’s side of the bed, and he said, “Oh, you’re trying that again.” It sounded like he didn’t want his balls tied, so I said, “Would you rather have IcyHot?” Of course, he didn’t. When I wasn’t really getting anywhere by hand, Lion said he bet I could get him hard with my mouth. Challenge accepted!

A few minutes into sucking him, he was hard. Nice! I wasn’t sure if I could get him quite to the edge, but I was going to try. I stopped a few times to see if he was close. I wasn’t, but he said he was enjoying himself. Onward. I don’t know how long I tried, but eventually, I had sweat dripping from me. I had to stop. I think he was close. Dangerously close? Nope. Maybe tonight.

I may use the Magic Wand to get him going before I start sucking. And I should make sure the fan is on, so I don’t have sweat dripping from me. Between the Magic Wand and the fan, I should be able to get him to the edge at least once. Really close. Not just sort of close. He needs to be sweating. He needs to be humping air. He needs to be frustrated.

Lion agrees, even if he’d rather have an orgasm than be frustrated. I know he likes being frustrated sometimes. Not when I’ve just finished getting him to the edge a few times, but other times.

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In: Sex, Spanking

There are times I can’t seem to get turned on. This seems to be one of them. I’ve always thought that men aren’t supposed to lose interest in sex. I’m wondering if my actual interest is missing or a sexual key that needs to be turned. Sometimes, it’s getting spanked. Whomp my bottom, and my motor is jump-started. Other times, like now, a spanking doesn’t work. Odd, huh?

The other night, Mrs. Lion tied up my balls. That normally gets me really hot. Nope, it didn’t even get me hard. Her back has been bothering her, so I’ve hesitated to suggest anything that might hurt her. I also worry about suggesting something that usually works, like oral sex, only to end up soft in Mrs. Lion’s mouth. I know she will think it is her fault I’m not hard and horny.

This worry doesn’t help the situation. Nothing like performance anxiety to further fuck things up. It’s a vicious circle. I spiral down until my stomach starts to churn when I think about sex. Even writing about it is making my stomach hurt. This is definitely not conducive to a rock-hard cock. None of this is Mrs. Lion’s fault. I haven’t found a way out. Suggestions?

podcasts

Ever since I discovered Amazon’s WordPress plugin, our posts are available as podcasts on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, etc. I’m also starting to listen to podcasts as well. I have gotten in the habit of listing to NPR news podcasts while I’m in the shower. I’ve also discovered “Unqualified,” Anna Faris’s blog. I’ve been a fan since I saw her on “Mom.” I like her work and how she looks. So, when I stumbled on her blog, I had to check it out. In each episode, she interviews some showbiz friends and then offers advice to listeners. That’s how the podcast got its name; Anna says she is unqualified to give advice. How’s that humility? Her interview skills could use some work, and editing is needed. Still, it’s generally fun listening. Yeah, I still have a crush on her.

Our podcast doesn’t use our voices. We let Amazon’s text-to-voice service read them. We don’t have the time to record and edit each post. Also, I don’t have a clue how to add a recording we make to the service. Well, I know what I would have to do. That process means even more of a time suck. I figure that the current podcast is more convenient for our readers than a stand-alone creative effort. We’ve been interviewed a couple of times. At least one of those is still around. Take a look at the right side of the page.

how about a spanking video?

One step past podcasting is making videos. One reader requested a spanking video. We have the technology to make one. We haven’t felt any strong motivation to do it. Aside from the spanking itself, we do have to figure out lighting and camera position. Assuming we decide to do it, is there any real interest in us doing this? Given the huge quantity of spanking videos out there, I am not sure we would find an audience.

I have been checking out some of the spanking videos online. Most seem at least a decade old. I found a few that I think are pretty hot. One of them appears to be raw footage.  It’s a bunch of spanking segments with the same man and some different women and implements. He starts with an unspanked bottom and ends up with what looks like a very sore bottom. You can see it here.

I’ve noticed that most of the OTK videos have the woman sitting on a folding chair. A folding chair? It seems flimsy for such strenuous activity. I wonder how many collapsed during filming. One other rather odd thing that almost all of the videos I’ve seen have in common: The men have red bottoms at the very start of the video. I wonder if that means they were spanked before the camera started to roll. If so, why?

Mrs. Lion won’t quit trying to get me hard and aroused. She likes to tease me and leave me panting and wanting more. She also likes to make me ejaculate. For reasons I’ll never understand, she likes how my semen tastes. Yes, she has made me eat it. I’m not fond of the flavor at all. The fact she does, saves me from consuming more. Whew!