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I didn’t write a post because I’m mad at Lion. That’s not what you’re thinking? Good. I’m not mad at Lion. We’ve been snowed in. Branches are down. The power has been going off and on. Our cable is out, so no internet. Thank goodness I was able to clean off the satellite dish for Lion’s TV.

Lion is also sick. Not just about the Super Bowl. He’s been having bad stomach pains since yesterday. We don’t think it was anything he ate. We don’t know what it is. Last night I was going to have him put the Jail Bird back on, after being wild so sore spots could heal, but he seemed so miserable I decided not to.

I braved the messy roads and slalomed through the downed trees for a doctor appointment. I now have a decent cell signal so I can finally write this post. I’ll head back home to nurse Lion back to health and maybe shovel more snow.

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In: Lion's Journal, Sex

Apparently, I poked a hornets’ nest yesterday. I mentioned to Mrs. Lion that her bathing habits suggested to me that she was more interested in how her friends at work perceived her than I. I said that if you combine that observation with her statements in a post the other day about all sex being for me, there might be reason for me to believe more was going on.

In her post a few days ago, she discussed how it could become boring providing me with teasing and sex. In what felt to me like suppressed anger, she discussed the bad old days and my lack of initiation. In my mind, the implication was that her lack of interest in sex was less a generalized problem, and more my failings with initiating. The post made more than one mention of the fact that sex is all for me. So, it’s my conclusion that the lack of reciprocity and the repetitive nature of masturbating me, is boring to her. No wonder there is little motive to take those extra showers.

Her post yesterday gave her side of this conversation. I was surprised she wrote about it. I don’t doubt that she has found reasons not to bathe. I don’t have a problem with skipping a day. I do it too about once a month. Unless she has a vaginal infection, there is no objectionable smell after the weekly two-to-three-day hiatus. My comment wasn’t really about showers. It was about a behavioral pattern that when combined with her stated boredom with giving me sex, worries me.

I know she isn’t going to run off with a younger, more aggressive lion. But it feels to me that she could be happier. I’m starting to feel like a chore. I’ve known from the start that all this edging and jerking me off were for me only. She’s made it clear here in the blog as well as in conversation that she does this because she wants me to be happy. I feel like a house guest who has stayed too long. My hostess is too polite to ask me to leave, but the enthusiastic reception is no longer there.

This is not a criticism of how she treats me. She is a wonderful disciplinary wife, and a fantastic cock tease. I appreciate that. But it doesn’t feel very good when I start to think too much. I don’t know what our next step is. I wish I did. But I want you to understand what all these allusions are about.

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This afternoon, Lion said he’d been awake at 4 am and he was thinking about my post in which I said sex is all about him. He’s noticed that, on the weekends, I will go a day or two without showering. I’d never do that during the week, even if it meant getting up extra early to take one in the morning. He wonders if that doesn’t show that I don’t care enough to get clean for him. Interesting theory. Sometimes Lion doesn’t shower for a day or so, but I’ve never thought that he doesn’t care enough to get clean for me. I just figure he’s tired or doesn’t feel all that dirty. Different perspective, I guess.

I read somewhere that showering every day is bad for you. Your body has essential oils that work together to keep your skin working well, and showering every day washes away those oils. The same goes for your hair too. I know my hair gets greasy if I don’t wash it every day, so when I’m going to work, I shower. On the weekends I tend to let it go because I give my hair/body a break from the soap. I have no idea if the articles I’ve read are valid or not, but it seemed like another interesting theory, so I’ve tried it. And, yes, I’m lazier on the weekends.

Does this mean that I am telling Lion he’s not worth it for me to be clean? I wasn’t doing it for that reason, obviously. It never even crossed my mind that he would think that, just as it never crossed my mind that he was not showering to send me any hidden messages. One question I have is, am I dirty enough to repel Lion? When he asks me if I’m taking a shower (because he wants to run the dishwasher and doesn’t want it to rob me of water), I ask if I need one. In other words, do I stink? And he usually says I don’t. So, is it a perception problem? Whether I stink or not (or whether he stinks or not, for that matter), is it an issue of perceiving that I don’t care enough to wash? What if I rinsed off with a washcloth? Would that count? What if he didn’t know I rinsed off with a washcloth? I could be completely clean, except for my hair, without taking a shower. Does that count? And what about the nights of the week when I do shower? We tend to play after we’ve each had our showers. Does that not count because I’m showering for work? I guess it depends on how far you take the theory.

One other reason I don’t shower on the weekends, aside from laziness and having a break from soaps, is that I read another article that suggested that an unshowered woman has a more musky, pheromone-y scent and that can help turn a guy on. Granted, this reason may be more far-fetched than the other one, but what do I know? However, some weeks ago, Lion said I smelled different and I should see a doctor. He also said he could tell his ex-wife was pregnant because she had a different smell.

Apparently, my unshowered self does not reek of pheromones. It just reeks. Fair enough. Showers all around from now on.

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Applying lion gravy. It’s very hot and spicy.

I’m  curious about hot stuff. You know, things like Icy Hot, Ben Gay, and other menthol and capsicum products that make me burn miserably when Mrs. Lion applies them to my nether regions.

I had the bright idea that I could make custom heat, designed to be perfect for torturing me. This isn’t as crazy as it sounds. The commercial products are really not meant for the way she uses it. So I logged into Amazon and got going.

First, you need the heat. I found pure capsicum oil. This stuff is liquid fire! Handle it with extreme care. Seriously! A tiny bit left on your finger can burn any part of your body you touch. Wear nitrile gloves at all time when handling it. Also, it is an oil, so it doesn’t just wash off. You need to use soap and lots of water if any gets on your hands.

Next, you need an oil so you can dilute the capsicum. I chose coconut oil. Mrs. Lion and I found a liquid version for the purpose. Finally, you need containers to hold the end product. I found some nice, blue, two-ounce dropper bottles. Since the bottles come in sets of two, I decided to make two strengths of heat.

Before getting to the chemistry lesson, it may be helpful to explain why I embarked on this seemingly-masochistic project. One of the lowest energy ways to torture your male partner is to use safe-but-painful chemical agents on his penis and balls. Most of the over-the-counter muscle ache preparations are blends of various creams with the active ingredient being menthol. The maximum legal amount of menthol (in the US) allowed in these products is 5%. The cream base for most of these is washable.

Any 5% menthol product, when applied to balls, penis, perineum, or anus will provide about fifteen minutes of intense burning sensation. If too intense, washing with soap and water will reduce or eliminate the pain. There are a couple of products that add capsicum to the mix. These products are a nuclear solution. Most are incredibly painful and the pain lasts for much longer. Unlike the menthol products, washing will usually have no effect on the sensation.

These products shouldn’t cause permanent damage. Of course, like any products applied to the skin, a “patch test” should precede wider application. A small amount rubbed into a little square on the balls is the way we do the testing. Most of these products take anywhere from five to fifteen minutes to produce the desired results. Wait at least a half hour to make sure there isn’t any allergic reaction. Hating the burn doesn’t count as an allergic reaction. That’s what the stuff is for.

Capsicum can cause injury if it is improperly used. Anything you do with this stuff is at your own risk. I am not advising you to try this.

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Lion Hot Sauce These are the needed supplies to make custom hot sauce.

Now back to the lab. Capsicum, full strength, is dangerous to apply to any sensitive skin. It must be diluted before use. I wore nitrile gloves (latex is dissolved by oils). I filled the 2-ounce blue bottles almost to the top with coconut oil. Then, I used the dropper that comes with each bottle to put three drops in the “Hot” bottle. I held my finger over the bottle (don’t put the dropper back just yet. It has capsicum sticking to it), and shook it to mix in the capsicum. I then found a finger on a glove that wasn’t wet with capsicum and rubbed a very small amount into a little patch on my balls. Then I waited.

Capsicum takes at least fifteen minutes to begin working. Eventually, I felt the warming. I waited another half hour. The spot was very warm, but not really burning. So, I added two more drops of capsicum to the bottle. That made it five, in total. I repeated the patch test on another spot on my balls. Fifteen minutes later it was starting to burn. It wasn’t horrible. It shouldn’t be. After all, I only used a tiny amount. It was clear to me that if Mrs. Lion put some on a larger area, I would be wishing I never had this idea. I carefully washed out the dropper, returned it to the bottle, labelled it and declared success.

Since I have two bottles, I figured that I might as well give Mrs. Lion a stronger solution. I put seven drops of capsicum in the second bottle of coconut oil. I repeated the patch test with this version. Fifteen minutes later, it was burning! I was very glad I only added two more drops of capsicum. My balls were still painfully burning an hour later.

Please note that we are talking about 5 or 7 drops of capsicum to two ounces of coconut oil. This is powerful stuff. The coconut oil is easily absorbed by the skin. If anything, it magnifies the effects of the capsicum. Bathing does not usually relieve the burning. The only antidote I have ever heard about for capsicum is milk. I’ve never tried it.

People have different levels of sensitivity to this stuff. That’s why patch tests are essential. Another critical factor is level of arousal. When Mrs. Lion has me extremely aroused by edging me over and over, the burning feels very mild. As soon as the arousal starts to decline when she stops playing with me, the burn comes back full force. It can bring a guy to tears.

Using this stuff requires experimentation. Mrs. Lion usually starts by painting a narrow “racing stripe” from the base of the penis all the way down to my anus. She uses very little of the material. Then she waits. If my response isn’t as intense as she intended, the racing stripe gets wider with a more liberal application. After each application, she rubs the stuff into my skin. When she did her “racing stripe” with a strong menthol rub, you could actually see a red stripe from the penis all the way into my ass. The burn felt like it covered a much wider area than the actual application area.

Capsicum is very different from menthol. It is sneaky. The burn grows very slowly. There is no sensation for a while; quite a while. Then it gets going. The intensity builds up slowly over several minutes. When it reaches its maximum, it just keeps burning for a long time. The effect fades slowly. I felt the extra-strength lion liniment for more than an hour after application.

It’s a good idea for the top to wear a nitrile glove while applying. You only want this stuff where you aim it. Accidentally rubbing your face will result in a very unpleasant surprise.