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In: Mrs Lion Comments

Last night Lion and I talked a bit about things he would like to do more often. He said it was difficult to come up with a list on the spur of the moment. He also said he is reluctant to make a list because it would be like a menu for me to pick and choose from. Well, duh! What does he think I’ve been doing all along? I’ve generally been doing things he’s taught me. I didn’t know any of this stuff beforehand. The only things I came up with on my own are the Velcro and the nail polish, and those are really just extensions of bondage and frilly panties.

What’s the big deal if he gives me a menu anyway? So he tells me what he’d like more of and maybe what he’d like less of. Does that mean I’m always going to follow the menu? Sometimes I can go a-la-cart and sometimes I can go for the secret menu items. Sometimes I take his idea and twist it in a way he never thought of. I don’t usually blindly follow the herd. I just want to make sure I’m not forgetting something he really likes to do. We have a lot of toys and sometimes all the paddles start to look alike when some are sting-y and others are thumpy. Some toys are better for X and others for Y.

He has offered to help me figure out how to use something if I am clueless. I may need some help. On the other hand, I can probably research online like he wants me to. I’ll putter around the dungeon and come up with my own ideas. They won’t necessarily be ideas Lion likes. Oh well. He had his chance. [Lion – Spoiler alert. Actually, my post tomorrow talks about what I might like.]

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In: Lion's Journal, Male Chastity

In one week it will be our second chastiversary. For a couple who had almost no sexual contact in December 2013, we managed to start, build, and sustain enforced chastity for two, whole years. Most of the credit has to go to Mrs. Lion. Since we began living together, she has been willing to do anything that makes me happy. Over the years she’s given me wonderful gifts; some she had to borrow money to give me. The greatest gift is her love. She still has no interest in sex for herself, but she works hard to make sure my sex life is both fun and frustrating.

I wish I could do something to revive her libido. I miss hearing her sounds of pleasure when she comes. I miss so many things we once shared. She is a great lion rider. When she rode me for her orgasms, she would face me. That position gave her the most direct stimulation. It also gave me the least. I really liked that. Now when she rides me it is reverse cowgirl with her facing my feet. I get the most stimulation that way. All this sexual reminiscing is not meant to make my lioness feel badly or for her to have orgasms whether she wants them or not. It’s just very pleasant memories.

Two years of enforced chastity has changed us. I’ve learned that my orgasm is not the point of  my penis being stimulated. I am very  happy to have non-orgasmic sex. I’ve also learned to growl less, not interrupt as much, and to make sure that I ask permission before just running off and doing something. I’m not very good at any of those things, but I think I am making progress.

Mrs. Lion has learned a few things too. She is more assertive with me. She even yells at me sometimes. She’s not afraid to use spanking as a way to assist my memory, though I think the spanking part is more my doing than hers. I do think that she has grown stronger with me. I love to see that progress even if it does cost me some freedom.

What I like best about our two years with enforced chastity is the way my lioness and I have grown even closer. We talk more; we laugh more; we touch and snuggle more. Through the hardest times our closeness continued. I know we are inseparable with or without enforced chastity. I think it is easier and offers more opportunities for growth if we continue. Truthfully, it doesn’t matter what I want. Mrs. Lion has the key and has made it very clear that things will not be changing. Sometimes in the middle of the night I wonder if I really want to continue. Then I remember it isn’t up to me and I go back to sleep.

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In: BDSM, Mrs Lion Comments

For some reason I thought today was the 6th. Lion probably wishes it was the 6th. We didn’t play last night so I don’t know how horny he is, but I’m pretty sure he’s ready for another orgasm. It takes very little to convince him. As you can see by the “countdown to Lion orgasm” chart on the right side of the screen, he gets to come tomorrow. Not today. Today is the 5th. Poor Lion.

I’ll have to think about what I can do for/to Lion tonight. We’ve been trying to figure out what caused his sore. It may have been a pinch, although that usually results in a bruise. He thinks something scratched him. When I suggested it might have been the Velcro, he deemed it too dangerous to play with. Nice try, my pet. The Velcro stays. I’ll just have to be a little more careful. Needless to say, I won’t be using it tonight. Lion was getting tired of CBT anyway. As if it matters what he wants…

However, I do want to take a step back and maybe together we can do a sort of inventory of ways to play. I get caught up in the same old, same old most of the time. It’s no wonder Lion’s tired of CBT. It’s my go-to thing. Yes, I know I can spank him and restrain him and why don’t we all just lapse into a coma doing the same things over and over and over and over. I need to mix things up a bit more. Tonight we’ll talk about it and come up with some ideas. It doesn’t have to be regimented. I don’t want to do CBT on Mondays, spanking on Tuesdays, etc. We just need to get out of the rut we’ve been in. It’s mostly my fault. I do the easiest stuff more often.

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In: Lion's Journal, Sex

This is the time of year when I just have to force myself out of bed in the morning. It’s dark, rainy and cold. I feel my age and find myself worrying about how much future I have left. Enforced chastity is very much a kink that deals with the future. It’s all about the next orgasm. Of course, living in the moment is possible as long as I don’t include sex in the moment. Well, I can include it as something that’s not going to happen until the appointed date.

It’s odd in a way that I even have that thought.  I think more about sex than ever. When I could get off anytime I wanted, sex for me was just a fleeting thought now and then. Yes, I saw women who were sexy and speculated about them naked. But I never really put any thought into the next time I would get off. Why should I? All I needed was my left hand and some privacy.

Things are completely different now. I know that sex on demand is no longer possible for me. For some reason that fact causes me to think about getting off much more than before enforced chastity. It isn’t as though I don’t get sex. Mrs. Lion is very generous about giving me orgasms. It’s just how I react to being caged. Before starting enforced chastity, the idea of being locked up in a chastity device would turn me on. So, when I thought about being unable to get hard, I got hard. Now that I am locked up, I think more about getting off. What can I say?

Many years ago when I first learned about enforced chastity, I was more surprised at my reaction to it than I was to the idea itself. I had never considered that there such a thing as enforced male chastity. As soon as I discovered it, I had to learn more. Now over 15 years later, I am locked in a chastity device.

Logically, my reaction makes no sense. Well, actually it does. I also get turned on by bondage. Tie me spread-eagle to the bed and I am hard before the last cuff gets fastened. Something about losing control turns me on. Not being able to have sex makes me want it more. It’s like saying, “Don’t think about chocolate cake.” What are you thinking about? You get the idea. I’ve been turned on by this from childhood. Long before I had any idea what was happening, I would get hard thinking about being tied up.

It could be that enforced chastity has that same appeal. My penis is helpless; trapped inside a steel cage. No matter how much I want to be hard and to come, the cage prevents it. That is hot, isn’t it?