Sex (Page 176)

(Friday, October 24, 2014) Last night Mrs. Lion teased me. She edged me several times. It was big fun. Afterward, I was horny. That is a change! My status for yesterday has my horny level upgraded to a four! I even had an erection this morning. Things are looking better. I can’t claim to be tree-humping horny, but I am interested in an orgasm. It’s been almost a week since my last one, so I’m still not up to my usual level of arousal.

I know that Mrs. Lion plans some sling time for me this weekend. She wrote that I will be out of my cage. That should help me enjoy it more. I know she has a full dance card of activities planned. It should be fun. While she was teasing me, I got the image of her putting those tiny dollhouse clothespins on my penis (image). In the past, Mrs. Lion took pity on me and only used two. They really hurt! She may need to stuff a towel or something in my mouth if she chooses to use them again while I am in the sling. I definitely need to be restrained when she puts them on. It’s been a few years since she used them. My memory of the pain has dimmed, but I am very sure it was nearly unbearable. The idea always was to build a ring of them around the entire head. I can’t imagine how hard that would be to handle.

A good question is why I suddenly thought of that as I was being stimulated? Is it something I want? In the cold light of day I can’t claim to understand how that cropped up. What’s more interesting (and I thought of that last night too) is if this is so horrible, why am I fully erect? Wouldn’t I lose my erection in the face of all that pain? Clearly, as you can see in that image, I am fully aroused. Make no mistake, those little devils have a very tight grip. You can see that too in the image.

We haven’t done any anal stretching in a while either. I see that is on the agenda as well. Once thing I learned is that if I know there will be significant anal activity, it is a good idea to use a disposable enema before starting. This isn’t to make things “cleaner”. It makes the process much more comfortable. Put delicately, if there is fecal material in the lower colon, any insertable over a few inches will bump into it and force it backwards. That is what often hurts during anal play. If the path is clear, then things are much more comfortable. If Mrs. Lion gives me some warning I will clear out before we hit the sling.

It always helps me to anticipate a play session and to prepare for it. If we will take some pictures, I like to be sure I have no stubble or hair in front or back. Of course I want to be squeaky clean. Most importantly, I want to be aroused and ready to come if I could (which I can’t and probably won’t during the session). The more aroused I am, the more sensation I can enjoy. I think that is true of all of us. Which is easier to handle, a spanking when excited, or one just after an orgasm?

A top/keyholder can make good use of this. A punishment spanking is much more effective if administered when there is no arousal at all. On the other hand, one for play will be much more fun if I am hard and close to orgasm. Stay tuned. If we do play in the sling, I’m sure you will get a complete report and perhaps some pictures.

No change in my general lack of sexual interest. Mrs. Lion teased me and brought me to the edge several times. It was fun. After she finished, she asked me if I was horny. I had to say that I wasn’t really. That’s odd since I was still breathing hard from the last edging. But it was true. I was perfectly happy to go back into my cage. It was fun to be teased, of course, but it didn’t make me just need to come. It was an interesting feeling. One minute I just wanted to come so badly, the next I was happy to go back into the cage.

I don’t really understand this. In the past (pre-enforced chastity), if I didn’t feel horny I didn’t have sex. Now, Mrs. Lion teases me regardless of my interest at the moment. Obviously, my interest can be stimulated. It wasn’t difficult for her to get me hard and on the edge. So my responsiveness was not affected. What was?

It seems that the best way to describe this state is that I am not particularly interested in orgasm, but available nonetheless — sort of opportunistic horniness. Maybe this is more typical in other mammals; no real overt interest in sex unless some stimulus (female in heat or her scent) is presented. In my case, no real interest in sex until Mrs. Lion played with me. When she finished, even though I didn’t come, the interest went away.

Since this is new, it worries me a bit. Maybe it is work pressure and other real life stuff getting in the way. I’m not sure. I am glad that Mrs. Lion continues to arouse me regardless. I hope that I return to my old, horny self very soon. While this is easier, it isn’t what I want.

This is an example of the sort of unforeseen issues that can crop up with long term enforced chastity. So far, most of the work in adapting to chastity has been Mrs. Lion’s. She has had to integrate her new sexual role into our life as a couple. I have been able to live a longstanding fantasy with few issues. It’s always easier to be the one controlled. My greatest task has been learning to accept my lack of control.

Loss of interest was never on my radar screen. I expected to remain in a state of continuous heat brought on by Mrs. Lion’s continuing teasing and my inability to orgasm. My challenge is to be obedient and accept my waits with grace. This new situation will take some adapting on my part. I don’t think the enforced chastity caused it, but it doesn’t make it any easier to ignore.