lion in his collar
This is Lion’s new collar. It is purple with his name embroidered into it. It should assure he won’t get lost. His tag has his name and on the other side has my phone number to call if he is naughty.

The days tend to blend in together around here. I can’t remember when things happen. I think it was Friday when Lion got a package in the mail. Since we couldn’t find his leather collar or his red nylon collar, he’d ordered a purple nylon collar with his name on it. He also ordered a matching tag. He wore it for a few hours Friday night. In the past he’s had to wear it whenever he is home. He’s even had to sleep in it. And I remember at least one time making him wear it to the store. At this point, he needs to get used to it again so I’m not making him wear it for very long.

Last night, Lion was difficult to arouse again. He asked if we could wait till today for his orgasm. I said we could. Then he said maybe we could try later. Also okay. After about an hour he wanted to snuggle. My hands were wandering while we snuggled and Mr. Weenie seemed to be waking up so I asked if he’d like to try again. Apparently the snuggling did it. When I got him fully aroused I was debating whether I should edge him a few times or just go for gold. Given his false starts lately, I didn’t dare push my luck. Lion said there wasn’t very much semen but that could be because I didn’t edge him. It may also be because he had a ruined orgasm the other night. I told him it didn’t mean he was broken. He disagreed. He doesn’t know why he’s having so much trouble lately. I think I might know.

First of all, he worries about things a lot. I understand he’s worried about his job, but sometimes he does it when he doesn’t have to. Second of all, he worries that he’s broken a lot. If he keeps thinking he’s broken then it stands to reason that he will be broken. Mind over matter. If you keep thinking, “I hope I’m not broken. I hope I’m not broken” then it’s easy to psych yourself out and be broken. Lion is not broken. He’s a worrywart. Stop stressing yourself out, man!

Here’s a tip that worked for me when I still cared about sex. If I was having trouble getting to the promised land (as Lion puts it), I would stop thinking “when the hell is this orgasm ever going to happen” and start thinking “this man will do anything for me and I’m so lucky to have him”. It sounds corny, but it worked. Lion just needs to think about how wonderful I am. Shouldn’t he always?

I had Lion all tied up. His hands were connected to his collar. His balls were stretched out with a rope. The Magic Wand was working its magic. And I pushed him just a little too far.

Damn.

It wasn’t an obvious ruined orgasm. He didn’t gush. He didn’t get soft immediately. I was able to suck him for a little bit before we decided he needed a break. Time to recharge. I deferred to Lion to tell me when he’s ready.

An hour or so later we tried again. It was going okay, but then he lost it again. Just gone. I guess I broke him. Well, not broken. Ruined. I hate when this happens. I get so mad at myself. Why do I push it? Why didn’t I stop in time? Annoying.

Lion was wild Friday because he had a doctor’s appointment. I decided to leave him wild because he needs manscaping done. Of course, I thought he would be all relaxed and non-horny. Maybe he isn’t quite as horny today since I ruined him. I know I can trust him not to do anything. It’s not like I won’t be with him. We’ve got a lot of errands to run today. There shouldn’t be any time for him to cheat even if he was tempted.

We’ll try for his real orgasm again today. I would never make him wait if it was my fault he had a ruined orgasm. I’m hoping I can get him all the way today. If not, we’ll keep trying. I may have to put him in the sling to finish him off. Whatever it takes.

Lion was trying to guess when his next scheduled orgasm will be. He said Christmas day. Nope. Sorry. Buzzzzz. Wrong. It’s Christmas eve. I started that tradition last year and I see no reason to end it this year. He will get an orgasm as an early Christmas present on Christmas eve and then another one on Christmas day. In addition to that, he will have one New Year’s eve and another on New Year’s day. Out with the old. In with the new. I dislike the end of the year so I’ve decided to celebrate with my own tidings of good cheer. In the event Lion is unable to perform in any of these scheduled shows, I will be forced to find a stand-in. Just kidding, Lion. Geez! [Lion – I hope so. We are not looking for volunteers!]

I hope this list of pending orgasms doesn’t put undue pressure on Lion. I’m just trying to make the end of the year fun. What’s more fun than orgasms? I’m giving him something to look forward to. True, he has to wait thirteen days between tonight and Christmas eve, but he will be a very busy boy two nights in a row. Then he has a rest of a little less than a week before he gets busy again. I don’t remember what the next date is but I’m sure he has a decent rest period.

There may be some other surprises for Lion coming up too. I’m thinking red and green nail polish. Perhaps a candy cane blow job. It’s an interesting feeling when I brush my teeth and then suck him. I bet a candy cane would have a similar effect. What about a strategically placed mistletoe? There are quite a few possibilities. Who says Christmas can’t be fun for adults too?

Lion doesn’t immediately get hard when his hands are restrained. It took some Velcro and the Magic Wand to get him fully excited. I decided to mix the two sensations to see which would win and how he handled it. I was pretty sure the Magic Wand would win. Velcro does not stop Mr. Weenie. I even put all four strips of Velcro on him. He always says only the first strip hurts. I thought the vibrations would make the others hurt too. Bingo! Nothing like having a theory, doing an experiment, and having a concrete outcome.

After I removed the Velcro I edged him with the Magic Wand. As I stopped just short of orgasm, I moved the vibrator to his balls. He says it doesn’t affect his balls, but then again, he said a vibrator never affected him in the past. Things change. I’m not sure it really did affect him, but I didn’t want the vibrations to go away completely just because I stopped edging. I wanted the continuous sensation. Even though it wasn’t intense anymore, it was still in the neighborhood.

I did manage to sufficiently frustrate him again. Lion keeps telling me I can give him an orgasm if I want to. I know that. I don’t want to. I’m forcing myself to wait, too. I may not have willpower when it comes to food, but I’m trying to have some when it comes to giving him orgasms. I guess I’m on a sort of orgasm diet, if you will. Lion doesn’t mind if I fall off that wagon, I’m sure.