Maybe it’s all perception. Lion says I was horny last night because I was wet. To me, horny is when you want sex. I mean really want sex. For example, if Lion wasn’t caged, in the morning he would have an erection. Does that mean he’s horny? Nope. Lion is never horny in the morning. He doesn’t like morning sex. But he has an erection. But he’s not horny. Yet he tells me I must be horny whenever I’m wet.

Well, I think we have found part of the problem. My body is saying, “Let’s roll!” while my mind is saying, “Roll where?” If sex is mostly in your mind, we need to get my mind on the same page. When I say I’m horny I mean that my mind and body are thinking about it. My mind has sent a signal that Lion is a sexy beast and it would be really great to be with him right now and my body agrees. It’s not difficult for my mind to rally the troops and get my body on board. The opposite is more difficult. My mind is usually racing with a million different thoughts. My body has trouble flagging it down for a pit stop.

I’m not sure what the solution is, but maybe we’re on the right track with the scheduled orgasms. Maybe it will snap my mind out of it. In the meantime I’ll think sexy thoughts.

Lion is convinced that he is the reason I am not horny. He says he knows it and I know it. The thing is, I don’t know it. I think it’s all me. Something I am doing or not doing.

How can I be so sure? Experiments. Things that used to turn me on don’t do it anymore. Lion may not be able to masturbate, but I can. And it’s very difficult for me to turn myself on. It hasn’t been an extensive experiment. I haven’t tried that many times. And I know that masturbating isn’t as much fun as having sex with someone, but if I can’t turn myself on then what chance does Lion have?

Sure I eventually came by masturbating. That’s just the mechanics. Thats not the issue. I don’t get turned on like Lion does. Mr. Weenie springs to life almost immediately when he’s horny. Nothing seems to get me wet.

I think it’s probably age. There were times when I was younger that I was tree-humping horny for no reason. Driving down the road, at work, anywhere. That became a more rare occurrence over time. Yes, there have been times recently I’ve sent Lion an email telling him I was horny. Generally the feeling doesn’t last long. Usually not long enough to get home to Lion.

If anything turned me on it would be easy to tell Lion what to do. I’m as clueless as he is. One of the reasons for the orgasm calendar is to try different things to get my libido jump started. What if it doesn’t work? We’ll try something different.

But I want to be clear. This is not Lion’s fault.

I know I was just supposed to edge Lion twice last night. Well, I did do that. But then he had such a wonderful erection. I love the way his skin feels. Softness on top of the hardness underneath. And after I edged him once I started licking him and he was bucking into my mouth. We stopped just in time. I knew he was horny, but when he’s really horny he has a tendency to buck into me.

As I was snuggling him afterwards I was still admiring his cock. It was very hard. Maybe not as hard as I’ve ever seen it, but still very nice. And I wanted to keep playing with it. So I got between his legs and gave him some oral attention. When I asked if he wanted to come he gave me a quizzical look. I asked again and he said of course he wanted to come. I knew it was a silly question. Did I want to make him come? I sure did. One of my favorite things is to make Lion come whether it’s a scheduled time or not. I’m not sure if it’s more of a bonus for me or for him.

I still wanted to play a bit so I made him wait a few minutes. Apparently I let the juices build up just right. I got a mouthful of wonderful come. Sometimes it’s a good thing to play with your food. I love the way he tastes. I don’t know why some women refuse to give blow jobs. Oh well. To each his own. I will continue to give my Lion oral pleasure because it make me happy too.

Lion still has five days until his scheduled orgasm. Just enough time to get him really horny again. Perfect timing!

As you’ve read, Lion was ridden to orgasm last night. That was his surprise. Not much of a surprise really, but he’s always happy for a Lion ride. Actually I was thinking of surprising him with some play time for me and then an orgasm for both of us during a Lion ride, but it’s difficult to get both of us on the same page at the same time so I just went for his orgasm. I love the way he feels inside me whether I come or not. I know he loves it too. He was a very happy boy!

I got his buns very rosy as well. Toward the end he was yelling into the pillow. Success! He was not happy with my nubby paddle. It stings a lot. He prefers the thud of a flogger, which I also used. I’ll have to look for more thuddy things to whomp him with. My hand stings too but it’s a different sting according to Lion. I know I sure felt my hand stinging by the time I was done!

I didn’t try to leave marks on him last night. It was more of a slow build up. A sexy spanking, if you will. Designed to turn him on. It worked. As soon as he rolled over Mr. Weenie stood right up. I do owe him punishment swats for dropping things, but I forgot until we were ready for the show to begin. I knew I wanted the slow build up so I couldn’t very well start out with a bunch of hard swats. And I said I could just add them at the end but that seemed like it would ruin the mood. He’ll get his swats tonight. I’m sure he’ll do something else that requires swats. He can’t seem to help himself.

He really didn’t notice the date change yesterday till he read my post. I bet from now on he’ll keep better track of that date. Who knows when I’ll change it for no reason? Just trying to keep him on his toes. I know he’d never argue with my moving it closer. And he’d never turn down a bonus orgasm. He wouldn’t actually argue with my moving it further out either, if he doesn’t want it to move even further out. Poor Lion really is at my mercy.