Falling Asleep at the Wheel

We ordered pizza last night. It’s been a while. Even the pizza guy noticed when he brought up our information. It was very good, too. Not that it isn’t normally, but it seemed to have extra cheese on it and the cheese was extra stringy. Yum. Despite that, neither of us ate more than two slices. We have leftovers for lunch or tonight.

When I played with my weenie, I wasn’t sure we’d get very far. Lion made all the right purring noises, but he didn’t seem very interested. He was disappointed when I stopped so I kept going. Then, I heard the unmistakable even breathing of him sleeping. Nope. We didn’t get very far. That’s okay. It’s not a testimony of my skill at arousing him. He didn’t sleep well. I don’t think he snoozed at all while we were waiting for the pizza. He may very well have been interested in sex. He was just too tired.

We can certainly try again tonight. I think he slept better last night. He’s probably just as horny, if not more, than he was yesterday. If he falls asleep again, then we have a problem. No. It’s fine. Everything’s fine. One of the good (or bad, depending on how you look at it) things about sex being one-sided is that I’m not all revved up with no place to go. If I was horny and he couldn’t “perform”, there might be a bigger problem. I might be disappointed. Other than times when I’m looking forward to giving him an orgasm, he can’t really disappoint me. We still get to be close. We still get to snuggle. We still hold hands. There’s no loser in those scenarios. Lion may be disappointed in himself, but he doesn’t need to apologize to me. He does sometimes, but he doesn’t have to.

From his point of view, I can see apologizing if I’ve spent some time and effort trying to get him to the edge and he can’t make it. He still doesn’t have to, but I understand the reasoning. I don’t think I’ve ever given him cause to think I was upset. If anything, I feel like I haven’t done enough for him. I guess that’s what happens when neither one of us is selfish. Lion worries about the one-sidedness of our sex life. He absolutely doesn’t need to worry. I’m happy making him happy.