RodeoH Rider
As promised, I put the Silk dildo into the RodeoH and pegged Lion last night. Our position, with him laying over the bed while propped up on a pillow, was a bit awkward. His feet were together and I was straddling them. I’m not sure it would have made much difference if his feet were apart.
I’d assumed he’d be on his back propped up on the pillow. He chose to be face down. Next time maybe we’ll try the other way. I’m not convinced it would have been better. We’re in the experimental phase here. I’m sure we’ll try all sorts of things until we find something we prefer.
The RodeoH was okay. It was better for actual fucking. In terms of being able to see where I was aiming the dildo for insertion, it was worse. And I couldn’t determine how far I could pull out to be able to push back in for a deeper thrust. I assume that will get better as we do it more often.
Lion is already asking to go to a realistic dildo. I’ll have to see what sizes we have to determine whether we can easily segue from the Silk to realistic without too much trouble. Then I’ll have to figure out if I use the RodeoH or my hand to start out. Maybe we need to stick to the Silk while we practice different positions. If there isn’t much difference between the Silk and realistic we may be able to change with no issues.
After Lion wrote his post about his pegging, I snuggled in to edge him. He’s been very horny and very hard when I play with him. I decided to use the Magic Wand on him. At that point I was just going to edge him. And then I thought about giving him an orgasm. I was still trying to decide which to do when he started making his I’m-getting-close noises. I haven’t been making him wait long at all so I figured I’d let him come. Of course, he’ll take an orgasm any old time.
I Was Ridden In The Rodeoh
We both agreed that the experience was pleasant, if not orgasmic. Mrs. Lion commented that it was easier to fuck me. Her only challenge was knowing when she might have pulled out too little or too much. Practice makes perfect, dear lioness. I’m still processing my feelings. I absolutely feel fine about the experience. I just don’t know if I feel more submissive during or after being pegged.
There’s no question that I know I am submissive. Feeling Mrs. Lion’s dildo moving in and out of my ass makes that point absolutely undeniable. Julie, of Strict Julie Spanks, commented:
“I very much enjoy feminizing my man a bit before his peggings. Maybe panties slid down his legs, or banded around his ankles where he can see them as he’s fucked missionary. Or garter belt and stockings. A bra. A schoolgirl skirt flipped up. I mean, we really are reversing roles here after all, he should look the part at least!”
I reacted by thinking, “Oh, no! Not that too!” Julie’s written about some of her pegging experiences. Not only does she dress him as a female, she makes a strong point of reminding him that he is being fucked like a woman. Mrs. Lion never mentioned anything about feeling that we were reversing roles. I’ve never fantasized about being feminized. While being pegged, no thought of me being female, gay, or being fucked like a woman crossed my mind. I just thought about how I am learning to more easily accept anal penetration.
Being pegged is another way Mrs. Lion can demonstrate her dominance. It’s also possibly something I could learn to enjoy sexually. After all, she is stimulating my prostate. I don’t know what other guys feel, but I suspect that being pegged is more sensory than social. In my case, I don’t think of women as lower on the sexual/social totem pole. How could I? She’s in charge. So, being treated as a woman carries no stigma for me. I don’t enjoy wearing female undies or other clothing. I feel silly and embarrassed. Wearing panties to work adds an element of potential embarrassment.
I also don’t have any particular feelings about gay sex. If a guy likes penises, so what? It doesn’t say anything about him other than a preference I don’t share. So, a silicone cock that goes up my ass or into my mouth is something I wouldn’t do on my own. When Mrs. Lion asserts herself by dressing me in female clothing or pegging me, I feel her control of me. It’s another way she sexually dominates me.
It also felt pretty good last night.
Tired and Achy
I did attempt to play with Lion last night after he wrote his post. I managed to get him hard but we didn’t get very far because of his allergies. He’s been itchy and uncomfortable. I vacuumed and that helped but he didn’t want me to change the bed because I’d already done so much yesterday. It’s true.
We went to Costco. Lion still can’t lift things so it’s up to me to load and unload heavy things from the cart. The fridge needed to be cleaned out and he said it would be difficult for him to do so I did it. The freezer needed to be defrosted so I did it. I also took out a few bags of garbage. I was hot and sweaty by the time I got the freezer reloaded.
Lion cooked dinner and I washed the dishes. I was tired. I go to bed tired. I wake up tired. I go to bed achy. I wake up achy. Any activity I do makes me both more tired and more achy. Ironically, activity will help me be less achy. To a point. Obviously I can’t just keep moving 24 hours a day. And as soon as I stop the achiness sets in again.
A little while ago we got most of the stuff out of the camper. We put the food away and I’m in the process of doing laundry. There’s at least three loads of clothes to do. The towels and bedding can wait for another day. I need to change our bed and manscape the Lion.
We have to figure out dinner and there’s a football game on. And, yes, I’ll play on my iPad in between things. I’ll be tired and achy, but I’m always tired and achy and I don’t always feel like playing because I’m tired and achy. But we will play tonight because we didn’t play last night and the first commitment I made to Lion when we started enforced chastity is that I will play with him at least every other night.
Between now and tonight I’ll load up the RodeoH with the Silk dildo and I’ll be ready for Lion. Will he be ready for me?
Why I Want Regular Anal Penetration
As you read yesterday, we had a pegging session on Friday night. The smooth “Silk” dildo actually felt good during most of the time it was up my ass. I’m much more comfortable when Mrs. Lion moves it in and out. We were going to have another session last night with Mrs. Lion trying the RodeoH! strap on panties. That didn’t happen. We ran errands and Mrs. Lion defrosted one of our freezers. She was wiped out after that. So, no pegging.
She pointed out in her post yesterday, that we tend to go on again, off again with anal play. I think that one big reason we only do this in bursts is that it takes prep and extra time to do it. Most nights, Mrs. Lion just doesn’t have the energy to do anything that requires a toy. Weekends are often unavailable because she is tired and achy and just wants to user her computer or iPad.
I’m also pretty sure that inertia is the biggest issue. She (and we) tend to be critters of habit. Of course, it’s less about me in this case. I just have to accept an anal visitor. Mrs. Lion has to get the lube and the toy. Then it is her energy that pegs me. I just have to be there. The reason inertia is such a big issue is that there is no sexual pleasure in anything we do for Mrs. Lion. She does it because I want/need it. So, there is no direct, personal incentive. That’s the single biggest reason we have any problems at all.
It’s not fair for me to claim that what we have to do is give her more orgasms and that will cure everything. I do think she should have more. I think that for her, orgasms are no different than pegging me. They’re extra energy to expend. It’s hard for me to understand, but it’s the truth.
I would like pegging, or at least anal penetration two or three times a week. I want to learn to more easily accept our dildos and maybe eventually, Mrs. Lion’s hand. Why? I have no idea. It’s a challenge we set ourselves years ago. I like consistency. Regular anal play will keep my anus relaxed and perhaps allow me to accept more. Maybe I can learn to enjoy penetration.
