I’ve been so tired lately and I don’t know why. Last night I took a sleeping pill and it seems to have helped. At least, so far. There’s still a lot of day left and a lot to do. At least I won’t be sitting at my desk doing boring work today.

The sun in springtime around here always seems like a miracle. And to string a few nice days together so the lawn is dry enough to mow is certainly miraculous. We have to run to the store and then I’ll be outside “enjoying” the sun while mowing the lawn. Lion said I could stay inside and mow the lion if I didn’t want to mow the lawn. The difference is, of course, mowing the lion in not weather-dependent. And I reminded him that mowing the lawn is something that needs to be done. As much as he wants to be furless, it’s not a necessity. I need to make hay while the sun shines, as the saying goes.

I need to make sure mowing the lawn doesn’t wipe me out for the rest of the day. I’ve still got things to do to Lion. Last night I was able to edge him a few times. I got him started with my hand, then moved to oral action and then back to my hand. He thought I was going to give up after the oral fun. I guess I surprised him when I continued with my hand.

I was considering giving him an orgasm. I have no idea how many days he’s been waiting. Whatever it is, it didn’t seem like enough. The boy needs to be edged sometimes without getting an orgasm. What kind of message does it send to him if he can lounge about not getting to the edge and just get an orgasm? It’s true, we had our wires crossed for a few days and he might have gotten to the edge but I didn’t try. Maybe, and this is a big maybe, if I’d been trying and he couldn’t get there, I might have given him an orgasm as a sort of a trophy for making it to the edge.

But now he’s suggesting I do more work to jump start him. He needs to get past this “stuck” part. I don’t think he should have an orgasm until he proves to me that all this extra work is worth it. If I have to work harder then he should too. Maybe he should have to make it to the edge for three days straight before he gets to come. Maybe he should be punished if he doesn’t make it to the edge on any given night, assuming there’s no illness/good reason. Maybe he should have to do the dishes or be the maid for a few days. Nah. I just threw that in to see if you were paying attention.

If Lion wants me to take charge of getting him unstuck, I can do it. He just may not like it. Who am I kidding?

He’ll love it!

As advertised, I locked Lion into the Jail Bird last night. He seemed surprised. Hadn’t I said in my post that the best Christmas present would be locking him in the Jail Bird? I even said I wondered how long it would be before he complained about peeing in it or pinching. Oh well.

It turns out it didn’t take long at all for Lion to question its presence. He wondered how long it would be on. I told him approximately 24 hours. It wouldn’t be a long sentence. It was really only on there because he kept vigorously hinting that I could use either the Jail Bird or the locking cock ring. I figured since he probably wouldn’t be wearing any clothes, last night into today would be the perfect time for him to wear it. What bothered him about it was that he’s been unsteady on his feet lately. Whether it’s a medication thing or something else, he has definitely been wobbly. I’ve rescued him a few times from almost falling into the shower.

It’s a good thing I’m nice. I unlocked Lion again and left him wild. He thought I’d put the locking cock ring on. Nope. The cock ring didn’t seem appropriate. He’s made it clear that he wants/needs something locked on him. If I wanted him in the Jail Bird and he couldn’t do it then wouldn’t the cock ring be a sort of reward? I didn’t get the Jail Bird so he shouldn’t get the cock ring.

This morning Lion said he feels more stable. I could put the Jail Bird on if I want. It seems silly, but the moment has passed. I wanted what I wanted when I wanted it. Am I mad at Lion for not being able to handle the Jail Bird? No. I just don’t feel a pressing need to put it on him. Well, maybe it’s also a little bit of Lion-can’t-always-have-what-Lion-wants. Lets face it, Lion gets what he wants a lot. (Not that I don’t. It’s just not a sex thing.) Sometimes I need to remind him of who’s in charge. The Jail Bird, or the locking cock ring, will go on when I say.

I was waiting for my eyes to dilate for my eye exam when I remembered I hadn’t had Lion pick from the Box O’Fun. I thought about it when he was getting ready for bed and then promptly forgot again. Last time I made up little pieces of paper, wrote things on them, numbered them and told Lion to pick a number. I was thinking about doing that again when I decided I’d just select for him. What’s he going to do? Argue?

When I informed him of my decision, he said it was fair. What difference would it have made if he didn’t think it was fair? None. I made the decision. He has to live with it. That’s how it works, at least in our power exchange. If I made the decision to trade his car in for a VW, it would be a different matter. Besides, this is play. Lion should be happy with whatever I choose.

Even Icy Hot? Well, he wouldn’t be happy but he would let me do it. Tiny clothespins? Same. The bottom line is that I’m in charge of certain things and torturing him is one of them. That doesn’t necessarily mean I’ll be torturing him tonight. I might be doing something nice for him. I could have the Magic Wand on my mind.

Assuming we both feel up to it, we’ll take our first step toward normalcy tonight. We did snuggle a bit last night and Lion was horny, but I was tired. I’m going to do my best to be able to play with him tonight.

I let Lion cut the seal and go wild.I checked the number first.

But he’s going to have to send me a picture of the cage with the seal today. Then he can unlock himself, check a sore spot I noticed on my weenie before I left, take a shower, and lock himself back up. Of course, he’ll need to send me a picture of the new seal proving he’s safe and secure in the cage again.

That’s assuming the sore spot is not irritated. I do not want him in the cage with a sore spot. It will only get worse and I won’t be able to play with my weenie when I get home. And I want to play with him. Maybe not on the first night after traveling cross country, but I want a non-sore weenie.

We are down to four days till I get home. I can’t wait. Not that it’s not great to see my family but home is best. I know where everything is, the bed is mine and, most importantly, Lion is there. I miss him a lot.

[Lion — Mrs. Lion let me take off the cage this morning after I previewed her post. I usually shower in the late afternoon; then back in the cage.]