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Last night I think I surprised Lion by noticing that he ate before I did and he dropped some food. Normally he admits it before I realize he did it. He earned himself four swats. Since I “award” different amounts of swats each time, he’s never sure how many swats are coming or how hard they will be. I guess those four swats were especially hard because he squirmed a lot. Squirming sometimes earns him more swats, but I was just proud of myself for catching him last night so I didn’t add any.

As promised, I gave him his anniversary orgasm last night. Since it was a special occasion I don’t know if it negates his regularly scheduled orgasm for tonight. We’ll have to play that by ear. I did leave him wild for the night. He was happy to be wild.

This morning, while he was in the bathroom, I put the cock ring and the shock collar on the bed. We haven’t used the shock collar in over a month. I packed it away for one of our trips and never brought it out. He’s been talking about it lately so I decided he should wear it. Now he is safely locked in his cage and ready for a shock.

Actually he’s not ready for a shock. He never seems ready for it. So far, every time I have shocked him, even if he sees me push the button, he jumps. Sometimes he even lets out a little , “Hey!” This is why I laugh at him. Maybe if I use it enough on him I will get over the amusement value of it and be able to use it for correction.

Correction is difficult for me. I know he wants me to do it, but it’s not really in my nature to want to change his behavior. Even for things that really annoy me, like when he interrupts me. I’m not ready to set a goal for it yet, as I did for anal training. It’s just something I need to work on.

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Lion is a very difficult person to buy presents for. If he wants something he generally buys it. I have to be very creative. Many times I give him things early because he starts shopping for the thing I’ve already bought him. Other times it’s me that just can’t wait to give it to him. For our anniversary I had no idea what to get him. With all of our trips this summer, money is a little tight, but even if I had a million dollars I don’t know that I would have been able to figure out what to get him. Well, that’s not true. If I had a million dollars then there would be a Porsche in the garage for him. At any rate, I got him a sweet card and tried to think of something he would really like.

A few days ago it hit me. Love coupons. Now this may sound stupid and hokey and maybe it is. But now Lion is the proud owner of eight love coupons. Two each for an orgasm of his choice (blow job, hand job, being ridden, etc.), a 24-hour wild period, a scheduled orgasm being moved up one day, and an anything-he-wants-to-do day. Much different from the usual foot rub or breakfast in bed coupons, these are pertinent to his current “predicament”. Sort of a get out of jail free card. Lion liked them so much he said I may have found the perfect present for every occasion. Then he said I should have put an expiration date on them so he couldn’t save them up and use them at the same time. Uh oh.

His birthday and Christmas are coming up fast. Valentine’s day is right after that. Hmm…he could wind up with thirty-two get out of jail free cards. A whole month of Lion essentially in control. I have no reason to believe he would actually save them up. I’m not even sure he’ll ever use them at all. In our common sense caging, if he wants something he can ask for it, I will consider it, and then I will either laugh at him or honor his request. Sometimes I may even laugh at him and honor the request. The coupons are just a guarantee if he chooses to use them.

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Lion wants me to tease him until it is no longer possible for him to come. Without realizing it, I almost did it last night. What I was trying to do was break him and by that I mean make it so he could no longer get hard. I’ve done that in the past. I’ve read accounts of women turning their males into human dildos but I never thought of doing it. Maybe because I’m not a very horny person.

So I’ve agreed to do this to Lion to see if he likes the feeling. And I know he wants me to use him for my pleasure. The thing is, I’d feel bad using him like that. It’s very difficult for me not to reciprocate and I think knowing that there was no way for him to come, especially since I did it to him, would bother me a lot. When I ride him it’s for mutual enjoyment. I want him to come. I’ve never even been mad the few times I’ve been working toward my own orgasm and he came first. And that was when my libido was mostly intact.

I’ll tease him as much as he wants me too. And probably more than he wants me to. I’ll probably even use him as a human dildo if he really wants me to, but unless I get super horny (and Lion would love that) I don’t think this is something I’d initiate for my own pleasure. Making Lion uncomfortable is one thing; making myself uncomfortable is another. But I’m all for experimenting with it for him.

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Poor Lion thinks he’s at fault for my feeling lost when it comes to playing. I don’t think it’s his fault at all. I don’t think it has anything to do with my just doing it because he wants me to do it. I don’t think it has anything to do with my not getting anything out of it. Up until yesterday I had no idea what the problem was. But the more I thought about it, the more I think it has something to do with work.

Back in April we merged with another office and things went downhill. At the end of June it got worse. Almost every day I feel like I am banging my head against the wall. Most of us are unhappy and looking for different jobs. On top of the stress of working with coworkers who don’t seem to care anymore, I now have the stress of looking for a new job. I hate looking for a new job. Unfortunately, I’m sure I’ve been taking this stress home with me. It has nothing to do with Lion and everything to do with stupid work conditions.

Starting today, on the way home, I am dropping off my stress at the end of my exit ramp off the highway. He can camp out for the night in the woods. I’m sure he’ll be waiting for me there in the morning. Or maybe he’ll hitchhike with someone else. Sorry, unsuspecting commuter behind me. I’m going to do my best not to let him in our house anymore.

I will still adhere to Lion’s anal training and his six day wait. I want to do whatever I can to keep my focus. However, I’ll probably amend it to a five day wait given the fact that our anniversary is Friday. I can’t have an arbitrary wait time affect our celebrations. And maybe with the stress kicked out of the house, my libido will feel more welcome. Last night, Lion gave me some very large orgasms. Maybe I’m coming out of my doldrums already. I hope so. There’s nothing I want more than to make Lion happy.