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Lion is very horny. Very horny. I heard that a lot yesterday and last night. I heard it almost first thing this morning. He’s not being annoying about it; not grumbling. Just stating a fact and occasionally saying, “Buh, buh, buh.” That’s his version of “woe is me.” Of course, I’m helping him by teasing him every night.

When he was out of the room last night, I put my small bag of tricks on the bed. After he got settled, I pulled out some Velcro and ran a piece over his cock. I mean, my cock. He winced. He hates the Velcro. So, I gave him a choice: Velcro or a tiny clothespin on the head of his penis. He chose Velcro. Hmmm. Velcro or diapers today. He chose diapers. He really, really hates Velcro. So, I ran the Velcro over my cock again and put it away. Then I proceeded to tease him until he was almost incoherent. He wanted to come so badly. But no. It’s not time yet.

Poor Lion dripped precum for about an hour after I stopped teasing him. He kept telling me how horny he was. I responded with either “I know” or “Good”. When I say, “Good,” he usually says, “Humph.” It amuses me when he walks around saying, “Buh, buh, buh. Horny.” I don’t think he does it for my amusement. I also don’t think he really expects me to do anything about it. I think he wants to remind me that I’m keeping him in a constant state of horniness and he knows there’s nothing he can do about it. I don’t think he’s reached the tree-humping stage yet, but I’m sure it’s just around the corner. He has a few more days before an orgasm is even possible according to the schedule. We all know that 2.0 will do what she wants, but so far, having Lion desperate is amusing.

Now, about those diapers…. The rule of the day is that Lion will wear the diapers while at home. We need to go out this afternoon to do some shopping. He does not need to wear them while we’re out. He must wear a diaper after he pees and sit in the wet diaper until he has to pee again. Then he puts on the fresh diaper for that pee. And so on. After the initial diaper, he will always be in a wet diaper. He does not have to sleep in the diaper. I will decide when his diaper duty is complete. I’m fairly sure he doesn’t like the changing diaper rules, but it’s just one more case of keeping him guessing. One time I tell him he can pee once and wait an hour before changing. Another time he has to pee twice before changing. This time he’ll always be in a wet diaper. He never knows what I have up my sleeve. I like that.

[Lion — This may be another case of putting my own paw in my mouth. Even though I hate wearing a diaper, wearing a dry one isn’t particularly difficult; just a bit humiliating. I forget it is on when I am made to wear one. Wearing a wet one is something I can’t even pretend to like. I can’t forget it is there, even for a second. What makes all this very humiliating is that wearing a diaper, wet or dry, makes me hornier.  Mrs. Lion can make diaper wearing even more uncomfortable by making me wear it until I pee twice and then waiting until I have to pee again before changing it (she mentioned possibly doing this in an earlier post, “Diaper Scale”). I suspect doing that will make me hornier yet. I am sure that if I do this sort of thing all the time, the sexual excitement will stop. Apparently a gap of a week hasn’t dulled the turn on.]

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rhumba panties over diaper
Humiliating rhumba panties are waterproof pants worn over a diaper.

The other day Mrs. Lion wrote about diaper punishments with a fairly long list of degrees of severity that ranged from changing the diaper as soon as I pee to leaving it on wet indefinitely. One of our regular readers commented that the list seemed too complicated. Mrs. Lion said that no one needs to understand it but her. She pointed out that I don’t need to understand it either. I will be told what will happen when the time comes.  Of course, she’s right, I don’t get specific advanced notice of her disciplinary plans.

I was a little surprised too. Mrs. Lion isn’t usually a list maker. She also avoids specifics about punishments as well as other activities she employs for discipline or play. Yesterday, she wrote about her resolution to be more specific with me about her plans. Was this list part of this new leaf she is turning over? She hasn’t said.

I’m sure that some of our readers are wondering why a FLR / enforced chastity blog is discussing adult diapering. This practice is usually associated with adult babies, an unrelated kink. I’m not a bit interested in being an adult baby. It’s never been a fetish of mine. However, I did suggest diapers to Mrs. Lion a long time ago. The appeal for me was a combination of control and humiliation. It isn’t very different from how I initially reacted to wearing a chastity device.

Diapers and enforced chastity have a lot in common; at least in my mind. Enforced chastity is about loss of sexual control. On a more basic level, it is loss of access to my penis. I can’t even get an erection on my own. There is humiliation involved too. Wearing a diaper  feels humiliating to me. Some guys get the same sort of feeling by wearing women’s underwear. Maybe I share that kink too. Diapers represent a different sort of physical control and humiliation. There is some discomfort having to sit in a wet diaper. More than that, it is an unmistakable reminder that I am most certainly not in control.

When I first considered diapers, I got a sexual thrill thinking about having to wear one. When I am told to put one on, the sexual thrill is gone. The sense of humiliation is mostly gone as well. It only returns if Mrs. Lion reminds me that only a baby wears diapers and I have been acting like one.

Since enforced chastity and FLR are both about surrender of power, it isn’t too surprising that other, more symbolic forms of surrender appeal to a guy who is wearing a chastity device. How many keyholders have exchanged their males’ underwear for panties? I wonder how many, like me, end up in diapers once in a while.

A very big reason for these “extras” is that most of the guys wearing chastity devices are normal, well-behaved men. They don’t act out and they do the right thing without any “help” from a dominant partner. That’s true of us. Without rules that aren’t all that important, but represent changes I should make, there would be no need for discipline or control. That may be gratifying to our disciplining wives, but leaves us without the feeling of domination we want.

I need those silly-seeming rules and the humiliating, uncomfortable punishments. They fill the need that initially motivated our power exchange. Over time, that need doesn’t go away. For me it gets more intense. Those spankings, frilly panties, nudity at home, and diapers provide the dominant energy that fuels the more profound power exchange. Yes, I hate wearing a diaper, but I need the control it represents.

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Lion did, indeed, spend Saturday afternoon and into the evening in diapers. I was probably too nice to him, however. I allowed him to change once he peed. He didn’t have to sit in a wet, sticky diaper for any length of time. Of course, he felt the need to volunteer information about how diaper-wearing could be made worse. Of course, I know I could have, and probably should have, made his life hell for Friday’s nonsense. But I was just trying to show my displeasure with his behavior.

As Lion was rattling off the various stages of diaper discomfort, I started thinking I should have a diaper scale. You know, one being the least and ten being the most. Something like a one is just for fun or even a warning shot. Two might be for a slightly more egregious offense. For example, if I have Lion wear a diaper like I did yesterday and I allow him to change it once he pees, maybe that’s a one on the scale. So here is the list I just came up with. I’m sure there will be some changes to it as we implement it. In general, Lion won’t have to sleep in the diaper unless I specifically say he should.

  1. Diaper must be worn at home any time Lion would normally be naked. It may be changed after one pee.
  2. Diaper must be worn at home any time Lion would normally be naked. It may be changed after two pees.
  3. Diaper must be worn at home any time Lion would normally be naked. It may be changed after two pees plus one hour.
  4. Diaper must be worn at home any time Lion would normally be naked. It may be changed after two pees, but just before the next pee.
  5. Diaper must be worn at all times. It may be changed as soon as possible after wet.
  6. Diaper must be worn at all times. It may be changed after one pee plus one hour.
  7. Diaper must be worn at all times. It may be changed after two pees.
  8. Diaper must be worn at all times. It may be changed after two pees plus one hour.
  9. Diaper must be worn at all times. It may be changed after two pees, but just before the next pee.
  10. Diaper must be worn at all times. It may be changed by permission or when Mrs. Lion says so.

As you can see, it would behoove Lion not to piss me off too much. And I also don’t necessarily have to use it as punishment. It can be a training tool too. If I think Lion needs work on following directions, for example. There’s a lot to keep track of once he hits the two pees portion of the list. Keeping track of that hour might be difficult if we’re doing other things. And trying to do other things while in a wet, possibly saggy diaper will be difficult.

Lion loves structure. Here you go, my pet.

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diaper and painted toenails
Two of my least favorite challenges from Mrs. Lion, painted toenails and diaper wearing.

My libido seems to be returning. There isn’t a specific explanation for this, but the sexual weather vane is pointing in the direction of “horny”. It’s not that I’m sporting a chubby inside my chastity device. But I have those little feelings that usually signify an erection might be imminent. I’m also craving firm control. I haven’t felt this way in some time. I’m getting horny thinkingt about activities I know I hate. For me, that’s a sure sign I want action.

I know that there is a strong sexual component in my desire to surrender. It is certainly what ignited my desire to begin enforced male chastity, and later, FLR. I suspect that a lot of guys are like me. We are turned on by the idea of surrendering control of our cocks. The hardware is a big turn on. The fantasies are hot. I am lucky enough to be married to an amazing woman who was willing to play the game with me. So we played. And played some more. Somehow, during all that play, it ceased being a game. It became the way we live. The same thing happened with FLR. It started as a great turn on for me and is now the way we live.

Of course, you know all that. But here’s the thing: As an extraordinary life goes on, it can begin to feel routine. Those cool, FLR things that seem so admirable to others are automatic for us. The spark seems to fade. This is how things have been feeling to me. Mrs. Lion, a fledgling disciplining wife, is easily put off by my situational depression. Well, that’s  not entirely true. She wasn’t put off enough to skip punishing me when I interrupted her or got food on my shirt. So, she never faltered in her role. She has, however, been giving me space and hasn’t been pushing play or sex. That makes sense if the reason we play is for my entertainment.

What if some of the activities that I usually enjoy also entertain Mrs. Lion? What if she actually missed those things when, for one reason or another, we didn’t do them? What if she did them for herself, not me? Then it would be difficult for me to hide in my feelings. It would also mean that she would be letting herself look for other activities that she would like to try on me. That would be very cool.

I wonder if there aren’t things she isn’t doing that she would enjoy if she weren’t so concerned about how I would feel about them. We haven’t gone near diapers in ages, because, I assume, she knows I hate them. How does she feel about them? I hate her adventures with nail polish. Does she like doing that to me? I have no idea. We don’t talk about what she likes to do. We talk about how I react to things we do. I think it is time to find out what Mrs. Lion or 2.0 actually likes. I may hate the result, but I will love that she is doing things she wants. What do you say, 2.0?