Another Lion Adventure
I was very surprised when Lion said he wanted to come with me to see my daughter. As he said, he’s only seen her a few times and he’s never met my ex. At the very least it will be an uncomfortable weekend for him. I appreciate his support.
We’re definitely going through a tough time right now. I’m glad we have each other. There nothing we wouldn’t do for each other. No matter how bad it gets we’ll be together. It’s what we do.
I will continue to ask Lion if he wants to play each night. He can tell me no every night. I will still ask. I’m not giving up. Not that he is either. It’s just difficult to be interested in sex when the world is falling down around you. I’m doing what I can to help. It’s what I do.
Tomorrow morning we’ll set off on another adventure together. I love going on adventures with my best friend.
Riding The Waves
Happy weekend! We are off to visit one of Mrs. Lion’s cubs. She’s very excited about going. I don’t know her daughter at all. We only met a couple of times when she was six or seven. Now she is a teenager. I’ll also meet her ex for the first time. That will be interesting, perhaps. I just want Mrs. Lion to have time with her daughter. That’s the entire purpose of this trip.
As you know, this is a difficult time for us both. Mrs. Lion has been completely supportive and loving. I was very smart to grab her when I could! She keeps presenting me with the opportunity for some teasing. For the last couple of days I have demurred. I am writing this post on Friday afternoon, since we will be on the road on Saturday. At this point I am interested in some play. That doesn’t mean by the time we get into bed the interest will still be alive.
Being my keyholder puts Mrs. Lion on this emotional roller coaster with me. I’m grateful for her understanding and patience. One of the key lessons I am learning during these hard times is that we can continue FLM and enforced chastity even when other things are looming so large over us. A time like this is a true test of the strength of our love and our commitment to one another. It’s also a test of our commitment to FLM and enforced chastity. For whatever reason we are hanging on even with the ups and downs of my libido.
You’ll have to forgive me if I am making this post very short. I’m in one of those emotional troughs and find it hard to come up with much stimulating chat. I’ll do better tomorrow.
Doing What I Can
My poor unhorny Lion is still apologizing for not being horny. The only reason it bothers me is because I know he’s stressed and there’s not much I can do about it. I mean, I’m here for him. We can talk about it. We can snuggle. But I can’t fix the financial situation. I was thinking about actively looking for another job myself, but I think that would just add another element of stress to the mix. We don’t need any more stress right now.
What I’ve been trying to do is maintain a sense of normalcy. I ask him every night if he is interested in playing. If he says no I don’t push. There’s no stipulation that we have to play every night. The only rule I had was that I had to play with him at least every other night. That was my rule. Not his. Eventually we started playing every night, but there was never a rule put in place that we had to. There should never be any pressure on him to play. I’m not a fantasy mistress who insists that her toy be ready, willing and able when she says so. I know if I was horny and I asked him to give me orgasms, he would do it whether he was horny or not. I wouldn’t dream of forcing him to be ready to play when he’s not interested, anymore than he would do it to me. First of all, physically it wouldn’t work. And we’re not in the habit of forcing each other to do anything. (Although he does guilt me into things like going to the doctor, etc.)
I need to sit down and write out some Good Lion coupons for my pet. He’s been doing so much around the house since he’s been home. I need to do a better job of recognizing his efforts. I think giving him coupons is the best bet. I don’t want to just decide tonight he gets reward X. What if he’s not up for it tonight? He can use the coupon whenever he wants to use it. And he can have the fun of anticipating that specific reward. I know he loves handing the coupons to me. He does it with such flourish.
Most of all, I want a happy Lion. I’ll do whatever I can to make that happen.
The Secret Of Ruined Orgasms
This weekend we will be making an unexpected trip to join Mrs. Lion’s daughter. This is very exciting for my lioness. She’s been unable to cross the country to see her kids for a couple of years. It’s nice to see her so excited. My libido is gone again. It’s worry, I’m sure. However, Wednesday night I did have a ruined orgasm. Each time I experience a ruined orgasm, I immediately lose my erection. Mrs. Lion and I assume that means I am done for a while. It certainly feels that way to me. However, I keep reading that guys have four or more ruined orgasms in a row. I wonder if I can too.
My reaction after I get the feeling I am over the edge and Mrs. Lion stops stimulating me is a bunch of spasms. Usually, no semen appears just then. A few seconds later I wilt. At that point some semen drips out. If Mrs. Lion stops right after I cross that point of no return, there is very little liquid. As I get soft, my interest in more sex drifts away. What is the secret of multiple ruined orgasms? What are we missing?
Edging, on the other hand, doesn’t result in loss of erection. I may lose a bit of the almost-painful hardness, but I am at attention and ready for more. I expected a similar reaction to ruined orgasms. One of my online friends suggested that there is a technique involving waiting that allows multiples. What is her secret? Is there something I have to do?
Of course I truly dislike ruined orgasms. But the masochist in me wants to experience multiples. Edging isn’t a great deal of fun either, but it is way less frustrating. Orgasm control is a powerful form of domination. It doesn’t require a chastity device, though I like the continual reminder of who’s in charge that it provides. In a way, the chastity device is my fetish, but the orgasm control is all hers. Beyond the aesthetics of seeing me locked up, the device has no real effect on my lioness. However, I think she probably feels a sense of power controlling my most primal force. In a very real sense the ruined orgasm is the ultimate expression of this control. It takes my seed and at the same time reminds me of the pleasure I can’t have. That’s the ultimate in orgasm control.
