Trying The New Release
Mrs. Lion’s announcement of her new Lioness 2.0 release brought me some mixed feelings.The first is happiness. Lioness 2.0 promises to supply the control and discipline that I have been asking for since we began. In fairness, Lioness 1.0 had evolved through interim releases that brought considerable control and painful discipline into my life.
The big difference now, as I see it, is that in the past Mrs. Lion made changes because she knew it would make me happy. I realize that the entire reason we are pursuing enforced chastity, FLR, and domestic discipline is at my request. But now, while I am credited for starting all this, Mrs. Lion has apparently decided that the way things happen going forward won’t be a response to my wishes, but instead will be her own interpretation of what we are doing.
In other words, Lioness 2.0’s most significant feature is the understanding that I don’t feel controlled if I am the source of what she does to me. I may give her ideas, but what she does with them has no input from me. More significantly in terms of change, my reactions to her decisions and ministrations are not going to have any effect on what she is doing. Now that is real control.
If I have things right in terms of her new approach, I will be aroused when I think about my loss of control and will be sorry when she goes into action. That has certainly been the case with spanking. It’s hot to think about, but miserable when she gets going. I am a much more careful lion than I used to be. Those spankings really hurt a lot. If she adopts the newer concept of administering a group of swats then waiting before the next, she will be able to go on much longer. The longer she swats, the more likely I will feel the results the next day.
She sent me an email yesterday that in the shower she was thinking about extending my orgasm date. Her shower idea was that if I don’t do a proper job giving her an orgasm, then I will have to wait longer. When she sent the email, she wrote that she wasn’t sure she was ready yet for her next orgasm. I have a feeling that little detail won’t stop her from making me wait longer if she wants.
She only delayed my orgasm once before. It was a one day delay as a punishment. I really hated it. Unanticipated change upsets me, waiting longer to come is a little like being made to wait for Christmas presents until some time after the big day. While I like to pretend that waiting is no big deal, right now I am nearly insane with the desire to come. Even if she does post-orgasm torture to the head of my penis, I will be happy to get the orgasm. In a way, I’m looking forward to that too.
I don’t know if other guys have similar feelings. Things I absolutely hate when they are happening, turn me on when I think of them with a little distance after the actual pain. I think that it is less that I am a masochist than I am turned on by Mrs. Lion’s raw power over me. I think she realizes that I really hate those things she does, but I like the control over me that it shows. I have a slightly different sense of punishment. I like that she wants to modify my behavior to make me a better lion; or if not that, her lion.
While it is a lot of work for her, I benefit emotionally and behaviorally when she is strict and demanding. As a former dominant, finding the right balance for both of us is a difficult task and requires a lot of trial and error. I think that Lioness 2.0 understands my underlying emotional reality.
Based only on my own experience, taking the control and exercising it brings her closer to me. You don’t have to love authority and power to build intimacy by asserting that control. As my vulnerability and blind acceptance of her control grow, I expect she will find increased intimacy and closeness to me.
To Be or Not To Be (Caged)
I edged Lion last night and made his horniness much worse. I put clothes pins on his boobies and balls. I made him squirm. It’s good for him to squirm once in a while. Then, as we were getting ready for bed, he said sometimes he doesn’t want to be in the cage anymore. The conversation when something like this:
Lion: “What would happen if I said I didn’t want to be in the cage anymore?”
Mrs. Lion: “We would discuss it.”
L: “Why?”
Mrs. L: “Because there may be a valid reason for not wanting to be in the cage anymore.”
L: “Mrs. Lion 2.0 should say, ‘Suck it up, Buttercup.’ “
Mrs. L: “You don’t see anyway there would be a valid reason for not being caged?”
L: “It shouldn’t be because I don’t want to be in the cage anymore.”
When Lion asks this question I usually realize way too late that he wants the “suck it up, Buttercup” answer. My mind immediately goes to wondering what a valid reason would be for unlocking him for good. Hint: it’s not because Lion wants a wild weenie so he can take care of business on his own. On the way to work this morning I was thinking of valid reasons. What if he got a job that had him going through security/metal detectors? What if poor circulation reduced blood flow to his favorite organ? What if he decides he doesn’t want to be my Lion anymore? I’m sure there are other valid reasons, but my commute is only 30-40 minutes long and that’s all I came up with. My point is that there may come a time when the cage has to go. It’s not a decision that will be taken lightly by either of us.
In the spirit of Mrs. Lion 2.0, however, I’ve decided that the statement, “Mrs. Lion 2.0 should say, ‘Suck it up, Buttercup.'” will be met with a punishment. Telling me what I should or shouldn’t do is not acceptable. A more appropriate statement might have been, “I was expecting you to say…” Mrs. Lion 2.0 should say what Mrs. Lion 2.0 says and not what Lion thinks Mrs. Lion 2.0 should say. Lion can offer suggestions and ideas, but what should happen is not up to him. Lion can tell me what he hopes will happen. In limited circumstances he can tell me how he would have done it when he was in charge. He can even say what he should have done or should do. But there will be no more “shoulds” directed at me.
For those of you keeping score, Lion now has two things on his punishment list. He dropped food on himself last night and he “should-ed” me. I wouldn’t want to be his buns around 8 pm. Poor Lion.
New Features Announced For Lioness 2.0
Mrs. Lion has turned a corner. She correctly observes that she is prepared to give me what I asked for all along. She wonders how I will like it when I get it. I wonder as well. Of course, the world is waiting to learn exactly what this latest version of the lioness includes. A few features have been revealed. For one, she is much less interested in how I feel about wanting sex. Her post yesterday discussed that she wasn’t even tempted to get me off even I told her I was very horny. It should be noted that I didn’t ask to be unlocked, but she told me that she knew I wanted stimulation.
A second, more frightening feature was hinted at last weekend. She had me in the sling and put a long piece of peeled ginger root up my ass. It truly burned. I let her know. She was unmoved and left it in until I told her the effect had worn off. She then used some menthol rub (like Ben Gay) on a couple of spots on my balls. That burns a lot! Again she was unmoved and kept me restrained until after it peaked. It’s clear that when she administers painful stimulus, she means business. I know that both “treatments” were rather mild. The rub was old and not put on liberally at all. The ginger burns, but to date hasn’t been horrible. Lioness 2.0 let me know she was only previewing the true depth of that feature.
In her release announcement, she told us that she was no longer taking direction or requests from me. She said the new lioness would listen, but was not inclined to follow up on what I want until she had time to consider it and then give it her own twist. I had often said that forcing someone to do what they want done isn’t control; it’s service. Lioness 1.0 was very service oriented. Lioness 2.0 isn’t.
Apparently, lioness 2.0 is more interested in her own orgasms. I’m happy with that new feature. I wonder if a reduction in my number of orgasms is part of this new sexual look and feel. She kept me in my cage when I gave her an orgasm the other day. She later mentioned that she hadn’t planned on unlocking me at all that day. She did, however, and edged me more than a few times. It’s clear that lioness 2.0 doesn’t feel that I need to be out of my cage just because I provide her with orgasms.
She revealed one last feature so far: She has added the shock collar back into our lives. I wore it all day on Sunday. Yesterday, we made a trip to Ikea. Before she left for work in the morning, she told me to have the shock collar on (around my balls) and to be sure to remind her to take the remote control. Seems like this device will get a lot more use. It does make it much easier for Mrs. Lion to correct me on the spot and saves the trouble of remembering and offense for the next punishment day. It’s too soon to tell, but I think it will keep me much more attentive.
We can expect more information about the latest lioness release in the next days and weeks. Lioness 2.0 prefers demonstrating new features rather than announcing them. Poor lion.
Mrs. Lion 2.0
Last night was not Lion’s night. He didn’t get in trouble or anything. He just didn’t get played with or edged. Unless you count snuggling with me getting ever so close to the cage without unlocking it. I played with his balls. I played with his boobies (and oh does he hate that I call them his boobies) but I didn’t unlock him. He was very horny and why didn’t I just unlock him already and give him the orgasm he wanted! Because I’m mean. Mrs. Lion 2.0 is mean. Mrs. Lion 2.0 doesn’t care what Lion wants. Except that Mrs. Lion 2.0 is giving Lion exactly what he wants. And he’s not at all sure how he feels about that.
Obviously, he’s glad I’m finally taking charge. But what will I do next? He has no idea. That has to be scary for him. He knows I would never hurt him, at least not more than he wants to be hurt. But I will hurt him more than he wants to be hurt at that particular moment in time. The menthol rub I used on him over the weekend was long expired. It still had some kick left in it, but I need to replenish my supply. Maybe I’ll find some extra strength stuff. He won’t like that idea, but he will love it. I’m sure there are a lot of contradictions running through his mind, along with the recurring thought of “Oh, shit. What have I done?”
Yes, my pet, you may have created a monster. Frankenlioness. It’s alive!
