I was very surprised when Lion said he wanted to come with me to see my daughter. As he said, he’s only seen her a few times and he’s never met my ex. At the very least it will be an uncomfortable weekend for him. I appreciate his support.

We’re definitely going through a tough time right now. I’m glad we have each other. There nothing we wouldn’t do for each other. No matter how bad it gets we’ll be together. It’s what we do.

I will continue to ask Lion if he wants to play each night. He can tell me no every night. I will still ask. I’m not giving up. Not that he is either. It’s just difficult to be interested in sex when the world is falling down around you. I’m doing what I can to help. It’s what I do.

Tomorrow morning we’ll set off on another adventure together. I love going on adventures with my best friend.

My poor unhorny Lion is still apologizing for not being horny. The only reason it bothers me is because I know he’s stressed and there’s not much I can do about it. I mean, I’m here for him. We can talk about it. We can snuggle. But I can’t fix the financial situation. I was thinking about actively looking for another job myself, but I think that would just add another element of stress to the mix. We don’t need any more stress right now.

What I’ve been trying to do is maintain a sense of normalcy. I ask him every night if he is interested in playing. If he says no I don’t push. There’s no stipulation that we have to play every night. The only rule I had was that I had to play with him at least every other night. That was my rule. Not his. Eventually we started playing every night, but there was never a rule put in place that we had to. There should never be any pressure on him to play. I’m not a fantasy mistress who insists that her toy be ready, willing and able when she says so. I know if I was horny and I asked him to give me orgasms, he would do it whether he was horny or not. I wouldn’t dream of forcing him to be ready to play when he’s not interested, anymore than he would do it to me. First of all, physically it wouldn’t work. And we’re not in the habit of forcing each other to do anything. (Although he does guilt me into things like going to the doctor, etc.)

I need to sit down and write out some Good Lion coupons for my pet. He’s been doing so much around the house since he’s been home. I need to do a better job of recognizing his efforts. I think giving him coupons is the best bet. I don’t want to just decide tonight he gets reward X. What if he’s not up for it tonight? He can use the coupon whenever he wants to use it. And he can have the fun of anticipating that specific reward. I know he loves handing the coupons to me. He does it with such flourish.

Most of all, I want a happy Lion. I’ll do whatever I can to make that happen.

Today I’m a little excited. My ex and my daughter are heading cross-country and I’ll get to see them. Well, her, I don’t care about him. It’s been a few years since we’ve seen each other. Airfare being high, school and work schedules, our camping trips, all managed to keep me on the west coast and them on the east coast. They’ve decided to get in their RV and head out. I have few details about when they’ll get here or where they’ll be exactly. Last time they headed this way I drove seven hours each way to be able to see them (my younger son was along for that trip). While I’m not looking forward to another trip like that, I would do it in a heartbeat if a seven hour drive was all that kept me from seeing her again.

Lion is used to being the only “child” in the house. In the past, he’s acted a bit like a toddler when my kids came to visit. I didn’t pay enough attention to him and he got grumpy. Fair warning, my pet, I will not tolerate grumpiness, especially when she’s only going to be in the area for a short time. Of course she will get my full attention. He gets my attention all the time. I think he’ll manage for a few days.

Yesterday I realized that our spare bedroom is a disaster. Well, it didn’t just happen yesterday, of course. It’s sort of our junk room and catchall. Whatever we don’t know what to do with winds up in there. Needless to say, the bed is under a pile of crap. I started to clean it last night. There are toys everywhere. They’ll need to be squirreled away. Lion offered to help today, but I told him between tonight and tomorrow I’ll have it done. As I said, I’m not even sure she’s staying with us. I may need to go to her. This morning I think Lion has started cleaning. He admits he’s not very good at finding places for things that don’t have homes. That extra comforter, the extra towels for the camper, pillows, etc. I’m not really even sure what all is in the pile. It’s sort of a treasure hunt.

Lion will definitely get a reward for tackling the room. I’m not sure how much he’ll get done, but any help is appreciated and I know how difficult it is for him to do. When we moved he told me he was horrible at packing an unpacking. Holy cow! He wasn’t kidding! He had trouble putting things away in his own home office. I figured he should at least be able to put pens and pencils away. Nope. So I definitely know how difficult this is for him. Since he hasn’t been super horny lately, and I gave him a ruined orgasm by accident last night, I don’t know what the reward will be but I’ll come up with something special for him.

He also changed the beds in the house and camper yesterday, and washed all the sheets and towels. He was a busy boy. He needs a few rewards. Maybe some time in the sling. When he made the bed in the camper he installed his restraints. I think he needs some time in those restraints. I can do that whether he’s horny or not. That will give him something to look forward to for the next trip.

Tonight is punishment night and he’s gone a few times without any punishments. I thought I had him the other night for forgetting to remind me of maintenance spanking night, but it was me who forgot. He’d told me in his first email to me that morning. Silly Mrs. Lion. Of course, then I forgot to give him the maintenance swats for the second time in a row. Maybe I should get some sort of punishment for being forgetful.

Saturday night I gave Lion an orgasm. It was the first time he’d been horny in a while. I’m not even really sure he was horny until I started sucking him. He tells me my oral skills are quite good. I’m glad he likes it. I like doing it for him.

Now the question is where to go from here. Do we continue business as usual? I’ve said I don’t want to force him to get excited. I don’t even know if forcing him is possible. Whether it’s a cyclical problem or a worry problem, there’s an issue that can’t be solved by snapping my fingers.

When we get home I’ll ask him how his wildness affected him. Was it something he liked in general? Is it fine just for travelling? In the past I’ve used it as a reward. Does he still see it as a reward? Not the travelling part. He will continue to be wild for travel. But is it a reward if I decide on a Wednesday night that he can be wild until Thursday night? I’m not suggesting we put chastity on hold. I just want an accounting of sorts. I’m checking in.

From my point of view, Lion will remain caged, things will continue as they have been. Minus the unhorny Lion, I hope. But even if he is still not horny, we march on. Full speed ahead. Each night I will offer him attention. It might not be in the form of an edging. Maybe he just wants to snuggle. That’s fine. Maybe he’s not up for anything. That’s fine too. As long as he realized I won’t give up. I’m with him no matter what.