Not much is going on in the sex or discipline departments here. I have been suffering from a lower intestine issue for over a week now. I saw the doctor last Friday. He prescribed some industrial-strength anti-diarrheal pills. They work but have potentially serious side effects. The doctor wants a stool sample. I just can’t bring myself to try to get one. If the problem persists today, I will find a way to do it. The cramps are horrible.
Obviously, I haven’t been horny. Right now the last thing on my mind is sex. I’m being very careful to follow my rules. A spanking would be most unwelcome right now. This brings up an interesting (to me, at least) question: Should Mrs. Lion spank me if I break a rule while I am sick? In one sense, it seems cruel to beat me when I am getting cramps. In another, there is no physical reason not to punish me if needed. About a week ago Mrs. Lion showed mercy when I forgot to set up the coffee pot. I asked her to excuse me and she did.
She didn’t seem comfortable letting me off the hook. Since I asked, she agreed to forgive my forgetfulness. In retrospect, I’m not sure it was the right thing to do. Unlike sex and BDSM play which are definitely optional, punishment isn’t. If I felt unable to prepare the coffee pot, I could have asked Mrs. Lion to do it for me. Simply forgetting is something else. A tummyache shouldn’t affect my memory, should it?
On the other hand, it does seem cruel to spank me when I am under the weather. I suppose the decision whether or not to do it can be partially based on how hard I am trying to be good. When we first started our FLRD (Female Led Relationship with Discipline), I would have argued that punishment should be administered regardless of the situation. I tend to be pretty extreme when proposing something.
Now, after several years of FLRD, I have mellowed. Punishing me makes sense if I am taking advantage of the situation. That sort of behavior can’t be tolerated. If I am trying hard and miss now and then, Mrs. Lion might excuse me. Of course, she is the sole arbiter of that. No matter what I suggest here, she alone decides when I need to feel her paddle. So far she has been very kind to me. I am grateful and I am working hard to justify her mercy.