Male Chastity Journal

I did attempt to play with Lion last night after he wrote his post. I managed to get him hard but we didn’t get very far because of his allergies. He’s been itchy and uncomfortable. I vacuumed and that helped but he didn’t want me to change the bed because I’d already done so much yesterday. It’s true.

We went to Costco. Lion still can’t lift things so it’s up to me to load and unload heavy things from the cart. The fridge needed to be cleaned out and he said it would be difficult for him to do so I did it. The freezer needed to be defrosted so I did it. I also took out a few bags of garbage. I was hot and sweaty by the time I got the freezer reloaded.

Lion cooked dinner and I washed the dishes. I was tired. I go to bed tired. I wake up tired. I go to bed achy. I wake up achy. Any activity I do makes me both more tired and more achy. Ironically, activity will help me be less achy. To a point. Obviously I can’t just keep moving 24 hours a day. And as soon as I stop the achiness sets in again.

A little while ago we got most of the stuff out of the camper. We put the food away and I’m in the process of doing laundry. There’s at least three loads of clothes to do. The towels and bedding can wait for another day. I need to change our bed and manscape the Lion.

We have to figure out dinner and there’s a football game on. And, yes, I’ll play on my iPad in between things. I’ll be tired and achy, but I’m always tired and achy and I don’t always feel like playing because I’m tired and achy. But we will play tonight because we didn’t play last night and the first commitment I made to Lion when we started enforced chastity is that I will play with him at least every other night.

Between now and tonight I’ll load up the RodeoH with the Silk dildo and I’ll be ready for Lion. Will he be ready for me?

As you read yesterday, we had a pegging session on Friday night. The smooth “Silk” dildo actually felt good during most of the time it was up my ass. I’m much more comfortable when Mrs. Lion moves it in and out. We were going to have another session last night with Mrs. Lion trying the RodeoH! strap on panties. That didn’t happen. We ran errands and Mrs. Lion defrosted one of our freezers. She was wiped out after that. So, no pegging.

She pointed out in her post yesterday, that we tend to go on again, off again with anal play. I think that one big reason we only do this in bursts is that it takes prep and extra time to do it. Most nights, Mrs. Lion just doesn’t have the energy to do anything that requires a toy. Weekends are often unavailable because she is tired and achy and just wants to user her computer or iPad.

I’m also pretty sure that inertia is the biggest issue. She (and we) tend to be critters of habit. Of course, it’s less about me in this case. I just have to accept an anal  visitor. Mrs. Lion has to get the lube and the toy. Then it is her energy that pegs me. I just have to be there. The reason inertia is such a big issue is that there is no sexual pleasure in anything we do for Mrs. Lion. She does it because I want/need it. So, there is no direct, personal incentive. That’s the single biggest reason we have any problems at all.

It’s not fair for me to claim that what we have to do is give her more orgasms and that will cure everything. I do think she should have more. I think that for her, orgasms are no different than pegging me. They’re extra energy to expend. It’s hard for me to understand, but it’s the truth.

I would like pegging, or at least anal penetration two or three times a week. I want to learn to more easily accept our dildos and maybe eventually, Mrs. Lion’s hand. Why? I have no idea. It’s a challenge we set ourselves years ago. I like consistency. Regular anal play will keep my anus relaxed and perhaps allow me to accept more. Maybe I can learn to enjoy penetration.

I don’t know about other households, but pegging has gotten popular in ours. For a long time Lion has enjoyed taking things up his ass. It’s usually been butt plugs but over the years we’ve messed around with pegging. At one point I had the idea that I’d like to fist Lion and we worked toward that for a while. Like so many things, we strayed away from pegging, went back to it, strayed again, and now we’re back to it.

Although I suppose I’ll change my mind as we go along, I’m less interested in fisting Lion now. For this incarnation of pegging, I don’t have any goal in mind. Sometimes I think that’s my demise. I set a lofty goal and then it seems unattainable so I stop. I know Lion is interested in taking larger dildos but there isn’t a set goal involved. We’re not saying that by December he should be at the 8 inch dildo with the rippling veins. Nope. We’ll discuss things as we go along. Right now I’d like him to get used to the movement. He’s very comfortable taking the smooth dildo. Our next move might be to a similar sized lifelike dildo.

Lion would also like me to use the RodeoH. I guess we can try it this weekend. I was never comfortable in the old strap on. The angle was never right. We’ll have to try some different positions.

Last night we tried pegging again, but our mattress is different from the one in the camper so it was more difficult. His butt was lower and I had trouble finding his hole. After we were done I suggested using a pillow to prop him up off the mattress. Duh! Neither of us thought of that while we were struggling. That’s okay. Live and learn.

We snuggled for a bit, I got my weenie hard and then I sucked him. He was very hard and very horny. I got him to the edge quite a few times. At least twice I almost went too far. Not far enough if you ask Lion. He was hoping for an orgasm. I almost always give him an orgasm when I use my mouth. Almost always. For the rest of the night he told me how horny I made him. Good. That was my plan.