I spent some time looking on the internet for things to spice up our sex life. Granted, it wasn’t a long time, but what I discovered is that we already do (or have done) a lot of it. It’s not that I don’t think I could learn anything. I’m not stupid enough to pronounce myself a BDSM genius. I just didn’t see anything interesting. I think the problem is that we haven’t been doing anything lately. And what we’ve been doing tends to be the same old, same old.
Lion has still been sleeping a lot and my sinuses have kicked into overdrive in the past few days. Whatever cold thing I had is still hanging on. I’m tired but not sleepy, if that makes any sense. When Lion was snoozing yesterday, I tried to join him in slumber, but it just didn’t work. He can fall asleep at the drop of a hat. However, when it comes to bedtime, I’m out like a light and poor Lion spends hours watching TV. Whatever it is we’re going through, it’s definitely not conducive to sex.
At this point, I’m a little annoyed at feeling yucky. I’m also annoyed at being the one who does most of the cooking. It’s not Lion’s fault. He feels horrible too. I think work, and its stressors, and home, and its stressors, are getting to me. So when Lion says we didn’t play long, or he stills needs to be waxed, I want to scream.
Lion is a very appreciative person. He thanks me for making dinner. He thanks me for playing with him. I know it’s not his fault he doesn’t feel good any more than it’s my fault I don’t feel good. I’m not trying to Lion-bash although I know he’ll see it that way. If anything, I’m finally speaking up and letting him know I’m stressed. It’s my fault for not speaking up sooner.
I guess it’s ironic that when I’m sitting downstairs writing about doing most of the cooking, Lion is upstairs making soup. I think we both need to curl up in some nice soup today. It will take a lot out of him and he’ll probably snooze a lot later. That’s fine. We both need to do whatever we can to feel better. Maybe we just need to get back to basics. Some nice snuggling with no sex required would help.