Teeny, Tiny Baby Steps

Two hours. That’s how long it took me to dig my way out from taking a week off work. That’s actually not as bad as it could have been. I did stop by last Wednesday to do a little work since no one else can do most parts of my job and there were things that could not be allowed to build up for too long. While Lion was doing his mega-interviews, I threw a load of laundry in and headed to work for an hour. So, yeah, it could have been worse. I guess it’s nice to know I’m truly needed around here.

As I handed Lion his cock ring to put back on last night, I was thinking about a post he wrote a while ago. In it he said he wanted me to get to a point where I put the ring on him rather than handing it to him. To me, it seems more powerful if I hand it to him. I’m telling him it’s time to be locked up again. If I equate it with the dog, is it more powerful if I have to drag her into her crate or if she listens when I tell her to go into the crate? I could just hand him the cage and tell him to lock himself up, but I like the intimacy of putting the cage on. Sometimes I even give Mr. Weenie a goodbye kiss. The ring is difficult for me to put on and take off, and having him do it proves that he has to do as he’s told.

In his post this morning, Lion says he would like me to make more of the decisions. It will be difficult, but I’ll try. I have a feeling neither one of us will be happy about it. He’s not used to not making decisions and I’m not used to making decisions. It will take a lot of resolve for both of us. Given the fact that I don’t really care about making the decisions, any push back from him will make me less likely to make them. Then he’ll be upset that I’m not making an effort and I’ll be upset that he’s thwarting any effort I make. I’m not abandoning the cause already. I’m just laying out the possible pitfalls and highlighting our uphill battle. Actually I’ve been thinking of a plan for some of my decision-making. I’ll have to hash out the details, but at least I’m thinking about it. That’s a step in the right direction.

Lion said he doesn’t want me to take things over all at once. I think there’s little chance of that anyway. We tend to do things in baby steps, especially power things. When it comes to power, I usually use half-baby steps. I know that drives Lion crazy, but in my case I’m more like the dog being dragged into the crate.

What do you think?