I am spending most of my time taking practice FCC tests for my ham license. My scores are good, and I’m hopeful that I will pass my tests on Friday afternoon. It isn’t so much that I have a compulsive need to become a ham as much as I think the process of being licensed is good for my brain. It’s being forced to acquire a lot of new information. This sort of activity is important if I want to keep what wits I have as I age. I’m also sure that being set up with radios that are independent of the cell towers is important when disaster strikes. Every single natural and man-made disaster has found ham radio operators a big help in saving lives. We live in a relatively unpopulated area subject to wildfires, earthquakes, and the occasional volcanic eruption. Add to those hazards the occasional flood, and you can see the benefit of being prepared.
All this new hardware and knowledge acquisition help distract me from the reality that I can’t get hard without help. A lot of the stuff that we have enjoyed becomes much more difficult when I need to give myself a $10 injection to get hard. Spontaneity is a thing of the past. Anything that requires me to be hard has to wait for me to inject Trimix and wait the ten minutes or so it takes for my erection. I find this very disappointing. Add the high cost, and you can see that we have very limited opportunities for sexual fun.
Maybe we need to bring back activities that don’t depend on a stiff weenie. The shock collar doesn’t care if I’m hard or not. Nor does it matter if I’m aroused when we play spanking games. For that matter, anal play doesn’t require a stiffy, either. On the occasions that I do inject the Trimix, my erection will last an hour or more (We haven’t gotten to the optimum dose yet, so we don’t know how long it will be hard). Since that boner doesn’t require much maintenance–I’m hard whether I’m aroused or not–Mrs. Lion can use that time for fun and games.
The challenge is going to be building new habits to replace the old. Maybe we need the dreaded Box O’Fun again. I always depended on being aroused for fuel to get me through more difficult play. I’m not sure exactly what will happen now. Does my loss of the ability to get hard also mean I am unable to be sexually aroused? Do I have to be hard as a condition of arousal? I don’t know. I’m not even sure how to find out. I suspect that an erection is necessary for arousal. However, with the injection, arousal is not necessary for an erection. Interesting, no?
Very interesting questions indeed. It feels like you’re on the cusp of finding that perfect dose that gives you real rigidity for two hours. I hope (and conjecture) that when you experience this perfect tumescence, any misgivings will evaporate and you’ll become as mentally aroused as is your phallus. I honestly think sporting a prideful erection is going to do it for you. I’m cheering you on
Thanks for your support! I agree that once the erection is nice and firm and lasts a while, I will find myself very aroused.