Lion’s latest wait was six days. We hadn’t really been doing much in those six days to make him hornier. I spanked him a few times, trying to figure out over-the-knee positions. I teased him a few times. He’s been reading a lot about spanking and that tends to get his motor running. It’s been sort of a slippery slope lately. He said he feels some pressure to perform and that may be making it more difficult to do so. He suggested he should be spanked if he couldn’t have an orgasm. Apparently, that would give him more incentive. I agreed but added the option of telling him when I didn’t want him to have an orgasm so he didn’t have a punishment hanging over his head. Now he’ll get spanked if he doesn’t have an orgasm when I want it as well as if he has one when I don’t want it.
He wasn’t sure if he was horny last night. That’s fine. I wasn’t sure if I wanted him to have an orgasm. While we were both deciding our preferences, I sucked him. There was no pressure on either of us. At some point, we both decided he should have an orgasm. Afterward, he said when I asked him if he wanted one, I’d already activated the launch codes and he really, really wanted one. Good thing I was in agreement.
Later on, he started talking about comments we’ve been getting on our posts. He says I should answer them. I do appreciate them. I just don’t know what to say. Here’s a suggestion to try XYZ. Wow. That doesn’t sound like me at all. Maybe I could do X, but Y and Z are not appealing. The thought that crossed my mind is that Lion has people to talk to about what we do. They understand what he wants. They are gung-ho about it. Yes, yes. I put on a skin-tight catsuit and dig my stilettos into his scrotum for fun. That’s not me.
This morning, I was thinking I need something like AA or Al-Anon to talk to people. Hi, my name is Mrs. Lion and I spank my husband. I guess what it boils down to is that I feel like an outsider. Maybe even an imposter or a fraud. I do things to Lion but I wouldn’t consider myself one of “them”. Not that there’s anything wrong with “them”. Sometimes Lion says there’s something wrong with certain people he sees on TV. There was a group of people who throw parties for their pets. He thinks they’re weird. I usually point out that he’s in no position to call anyone else weird. I’m pretty sure the pet party people would think he’s weird for wanting to be spanked and have his orgasms controlled.
Sometimes I feel like I’m in limbo. I’m somewhere between normal and weird. But who decides what’s normal and what’s weird? You certainly can’t ask the normals or weirdos. They’ll say they’re normal and everyone else is weird. [Lion — We’re normal, of course. Those dog party people are weird! What we do hurts no one but me. It supports our marriage. Above all, it shows how much you love me. I don’t know how much it caught on, but the DWC was a kind of spanking support group. One of the things that make stuff like that fail is that most of the people who want to join are guys who want to be spanked instead of women wanting support and technique tips.]