I finally got to use my new paddle. Granted, it wasn’t a full play session. I just wanted to get a feel for it. I made Lion’s buns rosy and then stopped. I didn’t want to swat too hard since I hadn’t started out slow. It wasn’t a punishment after all. It was more of an introduction. Paddle, meet Lion’s butt. Lion’s butt, meet Paddle. I think they’ll be good friends.

Yesterday, Lion told me he didn’t mind if I tried to play with him even if he didn’t think he was interested. I thought that would be an added pressure on him so I’ve been holding off. That’s not to say that I haven’t tried to play with him and been unsuccessful. In those cases he’s usually said he wasn’t sure if he was horny. When he says he’s not really interested, I haven’t been trying. After the swats I decided to try. He was definitely interested.

I have to say, last night was probably the first time I really realized how much power I have over him. Sure, I know I can usually get him excited with very little effort. But, for whatever reason, it just hit me that I quite literally have him in the palm of my hand. I can’t say that really changed anything. I didn’t suddenly become a better top because of it. If anything it just made me happier knowing that I can make him feel so good.

After I edged him a few times I gave him an orgasm. Immediately afterwards he asked, “Why did you do that?” I wasn’t sure if he was disappointed or not. I don’t know why he would be. He wasn’t. He just wondered. I told him I did it because I can. There really was no other reason. It wasn’t because I wanted to taste him. He’s had very little ejaculate lately. I just wanted to do it for him. Well, it was a little bit for me. I love making him come. It’s difficult to describe. It’s one of the few times I can be selfish and also have it benefit him too.

I know Lion worries that things are one-sided with us. He really doesn’t have to worry. As long as I can give him orgasms, I’m happy.