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Don’t get me wrong. I’m thankful that I can get erections on demand. Sure, they’re expensive, but like a Kardashian divorce, they’re worth it. We have to get used to the process needed to produce one. It’s hardly romantic. When Mrs. Lion wants me hard, I have to fetch a syringe, alcohol wipes, and boner juice. Then I have to prepare the injection and give it to myself. Then we wait ten minutes or so for the drug to work. One reason my most recent experience didn’t end in orgasm was probably my preoccupation with this clinical process.

There’s something sad about needing to do all this just to get hard. It doesn’t feel very manly. Maybe I can rationalize this as a form of chemical male chastity. After all, without an injection, I’m unable to do anything sexual. Nope, it doesn’t feel the same as being locked into a male chastity device. It just feels like I am broken. That’s tough for me to accept. There’s nothing cool or sexy about it. If I want to get hard, I have to shell out twelve bucks for the drug and then give my penis an injection. I wonder if it’s worth it.

This isn’t just my problem. Mrs. Lion has to adapt to this new, synthetic sex. It isn’t all bad news. For one thing, my erection lasts about two hours. She loves CBT, and that long-lasting woody gives her a lot of time to torture me. No matter what she does, I won’t be able to get soft. The drug takes that out of my control. If she is interested, it does offer some unique opportunities for BDSM play.

All that aside, I have to come to terms with what it means to be impotent. Sex has always been a big deal to me. Losing the ability to get hard is a big blow to my male sexuality. I can’t help but wonder if it isn’t nature’s way of telling me to give it all up. I don’t want to, but I’m not willing to destroy myself either. I hate being in this position.

Oh well, at least I can get hard. I’m happy about that and happy that Mrs. Lion continues to enjoy me even if my boners are chemically induced.

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We drove to the compounding pharmacy on Tuesday afternoon. My doctor had prescribed Quadmix as my new boner drug. She said to start with .30 ml. After my shower, I injected the dose. Within ten minutes, I had a real erection (click Here to see it). It wasn’t as hard as I’ve been when really aroused, but it was definitely hard enough for insertion. It felt different. It seemed thicker even though it wasn’t rock hard. It also hurt a little. It was a sort of ache. I don’t know exactly how to describe it, but it was a little uncomfortable.

Best of all, it lasted a long time, a little over two full hours! It slowly softened until it was a little shorter and floppy. It remained thick and half-mast for over two more hours. That was fine. As long as the full erection fades before four hours, all is well. My doctor nailed the dose! We’re going to try it again to be sure that we get similar results. Mrs. Lion sucked me for a long time. It felt great, but I couldn’t get over the top. We’ll try again next time.

I’m so relieved that we finally got results. The Quadmix is more expensive. It is $75 more than Trimix for a 5 ml supply. If I stay at .30 ml, I will get sixteen boners for that money. That comes to $12.50 a boner. That’s not too bad. I can average a little over one dose a week for the 90-day life of the Quadmix. I wonder if we might want to back off to .25 ml and see if the boner is less painful but still hard and long-lasting. I’m very relieved that we have something that works.

a copyright violation?

The Male Chastity Journal is copyrighted. Any use of our posts (or parts of them) without permission is a violation of our copyright. We are always happy to let other bloggers quote us without asking our permission. However, something very new happened that seems a little fishy to me and some others. Google created the giant data store for ChatGPT, the artificial intelligence chatbot. They included the full contents of about million-and-a-half websites. Our blog was one of them. According to a tool supplied to show sources for the AI program, 39,000 tokens were taken from our site. These tokens are blocks of text used in the model.

Does Google have the right to use our website without permission? Does it have the right to go through millions of books, all copyrighted, as well? This is a brand new question. The G4 dataset, that’s the one we are in, is being used for creation of many different models. Google is making money from this dataset.

I suspect that Google’s reasoning is that it is taking in so much data that it isn’t really violating anyone’s copyright since no single source’s content is being directly reproduced. I’ve been thinking about this. Isn’t this case similar to when recording artists take samples from other people’s songs? I’m not sure that’s true. Google will argue that if they had to pay every copyright holder whose content they included, it would be too expensive to develop any AI chat models.

Obviously, no one as small as us can afford to challenge Google and get a legal ruling on the use of our content by AI dataset builders. Maybe we need something like ASCAP that represents songwriters. Content users pay a license fee, and the fees are fairly distributed to the songwriters. Or, perhaps we content creators are supposed to donate our work to advance profit-making AI. At the very least, shouldn’t we get a chance to opt-out if we want? I’m not upset that we are included. I just wish we were asked first.

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My ED doctor has prescribed a different drug for me to inject, Quadmix. This new drug includes the same three that are in Trimix, but adds one more, Atropine. The new drug relaxes the long muscles in the penis–who knew they were there? This mix is considered the most potent boner maker. I’m sure that the blend I’m getting is one of the weaker mixes. Hopefully, it will work. My first dose is supposed to be .30 ml.

I’m going to try it tonight after my shower. I’m writing this post on Tuesday afternoon. I have an unrelated doctor’s appointment at three. We’ll pick up the Quadmix after that. When we get home, I’ll shower and try the new drug. Maybe it will do its magic, and a nice, firm, long-lasting boner will result. I’m hoping for an insertion-grade erection that lasts at least an hour. Stay tuned for results.

I suppose that needing a drug like this is a very strong form of male chastity. I can’t masturbate or do anything else sexual without getting my injection of boner juice. Control my supply of the drug, and you control my ability to have sex, no hardware needed. While it isn’t a formal rule, I always ask permission to get an injection of the medication. Mrs. Lion has full control of my sexual abilities. We haven’t discussed this as part of her power to control sex. It isn’t necessary. She’s controlled that for the last ten years.

The fact that her sexual control is deeply embedded in our relationship makes it more difficult to write about male chastity. It isn’t a novelty for us. I haven’t masturbated in ten years. We couldn’t stop if we wanted to. She is in charge, and that’s that. It isn’t a fantasy for us. It doesn’t even feel sexy to me. It’s just the way we live. I wish it did feel newer and sexier. It’s a little unfair that the novelty has worn off. I still like it and I’m glad we started all those years ago.

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It amazes me that so much medical research has been done about boners. Since I’ve been trying to restore my penis to its former glory, I’ve discovered that medical science is on my side. It turns out that my Trimix injections are just the tip of an erection iceberg. I’ve been gradually increasing my dose from .10 ml to 4.5. I haven’t had any improvement in quality since my .30 try. It turns out that there are more powerful versions of Trimix that may inflate my stubborn penis. If that doesn’t work, there are other drugs to try.

I’m grateful for the huge amount of research that has produced this sexual miracle, but I’m also surprised that similar science isn’t available to women. It’s true that there are two drugs available that are supposed to improve the female libido. They are Flibanserin and Bremelanotide. These drugs aren’t approved for post-menopausal women. I wonder if Mrs. Lion’s doctor would let her try one of them. Beyond them, the usual advice is to seek counseling or try hormone therapy.

In fairness, the male problem the drugs solve has nothing to do with libido. All they do is provide mechanical help to get an erection. Sexual arousal isn’t needed. Once the penis is hard, the man can have sex whether he is aroused or not. The opposite is true of a woman. She can have sex whether or not she is aroused. The drugs for her are designed to help her enjoy it. There are no drugs to help a man have an orgasm.

Maybe women are getting the better deal. Also, it has to be much more difficult to develop a drug to get someone aroused than it is to find a way to inflate a limp penis. I know that feminists complain that more research is devoted to getting men hard than to getting women hot. They claim it is because the majority of drug companies and research scientists are men. I think they are wrong. For one thing, the boner-producing science has been the result of unexpected consequences to other research. Viagra was originally a heart medicine. Its fun property was an accident. The penis injections were developed through hormone experiments. That’s not the point.

Erections are necessary to extract semen and sperm reliably. Despite the nonsense you read online, prostate milking does not produce sperm-containing semen. The only non-sexual method is pretty violent. An electrode is inserted in the anus, and a substantial current is applied. This will cause ejaculation. It’s so painful that general anesthesia is required. Muscles contract in a seizure-like way. The current needed can heat the electrode and burn the man. This treatment is used with paralyzed men who want to have children. Sperm can sometimes be collected from the testes via surgery.

Sexual medicine is a fairly new specialty. The urologist I’ve been seeing is such a specialist. I’m encouraged to learn that there are many other ways to help me get hard again.