I spoke with our dog, Daisy’s vet, yesterday afternoon. They ran all sorts of blood panels and did an ultrasound of her abdomen. They didn’t find organic problems with her. However, her hips are inoperable. She has very severe arthritis in both hips and knees. There is nothing to be done to fix that.
Worse yet, her pupils are unequal. That is a sign of brain damage or stroke. One of her seizures may have done damage. There is no point in doing an MRI since we have no way to keep her out of pain. This pain has been going on for some time. She did her best to hide it. Golden retrievers are people pleasers and are known for this. Her priority was to make us happy.
We had to make the incredibly painful decision to let her go. I’m her human. She decided I belong to her. When Mrs. Lion was friendly in bed, Daisy would come over to the side of the bed and nudge me with her nose. One night, when she was only a couple of years old, she gave Mrs. Lion a dirty look when she was too affectionate with me. Of course, Daisy loved Mrs. Lion too.
I don’t want to be selfish. I know that she will do her best to cover up her suffering if we bring Daisy home. I can’t live with that. It’s going to be very hard living without Daisy. I’m writing this on Monday afternoon. We will be driving to the hospital to say goodbye. I know it is the right thing to do. It would be horribly selfish to do anything else.
It’s hard to type with tears in my eyes. Mrs. Lion and I always said to each other, “I love you more than anything, except the dog.” It was a little silly, but in a very real sense, we meant it. Daisy was a member of our family. I know that dogs have no idea of death. She will finally be out of pain. She will live on in our hearts.