Lion has it in his head that I like it more when he’s not horny. I’m not sure where he got that idea, since I’m the one who’s been telling him he’s not broken. And I’ve been encouraging by unlocking him so I can hold my weenie even if he doesn’t want to get hard. Maybe he’s thinking if he really is broken, it will be okay because I don’t mind when he’s not horny.

It’s true that I told him it wouldn’t be the end of the world if he was permanently broken. It’s not like our marriage was built only on sex. There have been times in the past that he’s told me he’d be happy even if we stopped doing any BDSM. I didn’t think it was true, and sure enough, within a short time he wanted to start again. I know he’d miss sex. But if he isn’t horny anymore, maybe he wouldn’t. I’m not horny anymore and I don’t miss it. I’m very happy snuggling and holding hands. But that doesn’t mean I like when he’s not horny.

How am I supposed to give him orgasms if he’s not horny? I love his orgasms. As you know, not giving him an orgasm is often a struggle for me. Teasing and denial is almost as bad for me as it is for Lion. I know, I know. It’s not as bad. I said almost. I’m the reason his orgasm count was so high last year. I’m the one who caved in and let him come on a non-orgasm day. I’m the one who has arguments in my head as I’m teasing him. He has to wait another day. No, he doesn’t. Yes, he does. He’s waited four days already. We were going for seven. Too late.

I like when Lion is horny. I love making his situation worse. I love seeing my weenie standing tall and proud. Last night, Lion wasn’t horny. According to his email today, he’s back to himself again. I hope that means he’s horny again.

Today is the first of the year. I was talking to my son the other day. His birthday is a few days after Christmas. I asked if he was staying up till midnight last night. He wasn’t since he had to work the next morning. Then he said something I’ve often said myself about milestones: It’s just another day. Very true! If we didn’t have a calendar in front of us, we wouldn’t know when a birthday or the new year rolled around. It would be just another day. Do I feel any different today than I did yesterday? Just because the calendar says I’m another year older, do I feel older? Nope. It’s just a psychological thing. 2016 was bad for a lot of people. I’m not sure it was particularly good or bad for me. It just was.

As I write this, I’m wondering if I should be using January 1 as a milestone. It’s an easier day to remember than March 26th, for example. But maybe I should be using the date Lion first went into the chastity device. Our chastiversary, as I call it. I don’t know exactly what date that is off the top of my head, but it seems like a reset should begin then rather than January 1. [Lion — January 9]

What the hell am I talking about? Lion’s orgasms per year. Yesterday I said he had 57 in 2016. [Lion — I was wrong. It was 58] If it’s important to keep track, and I’m not entirely sure it matters, we need a starting point. Should it be from the beginning of the year or from our chastiversary? Up to now, it’s been from the beginning of the year and I don’t have a problem keeping it that way. I just now thought it might be better the other way. No real preference. Lion and I will talk and see which way makes sense.

Now, when I was working from a scheduled orgasm date, I had Lion set up with orgasms on Christmas eve, Christmas day, New Year’s eve and New Year’s day. He didn’t like the idea of two days in a row. No problem. Several weeks ago I scrapped the idea of a schedule. His last orgasm was Christmas eve. At that point, I decided he wouldn’t have another one until the new year. It would only be eight days or so. He could make it. And then he became “broken”. His interest in sex waned. Even when I can edge him, I don’t think he really cares if he has an orgasm.

A few days ago, my head cold went south to my lungs. I have a similar cough as Lion has been dealing with. I don’t think it’s hitting me quite as hard, but it’s still annoying. I just didn’t feel like playing with Lion last night. However, I never told him we wouldn’t be playing. He got upset.

I’ve never gotten upset when Lion doesn’t want to play or can’t play because he’s “broken”. I did get a little upset when we didn’t have our traditional cinnamon rolls on Christmas day, but only for a minute. What’s the big deal about having them the next day? Absolutely nothing. So what’s with Lion? He knew I was sick. He must have heard me wheezing and coughing. Why would he expect to play? I think it’s because his mind was still on the New Year’s eve and New Year’s day orgasms. Even though I’d given up on the schedule months ago.

The bottom line is that there was a breakdown in communications. Somewhere along the way, Lion didn’t realize I’d given up on the schedule or I didn’t realize he hadn’t. As well as we’ve been communicating, we still need to do more. I don’t think we’ll ever go back to the way it was, but clearly we slip up from time to time.

Maybe there’s a lot more reason for wiping the slate clean.

Lion likes to track his stats. As of last night, he’s averaging a six day wait and has had 52 orgasms this year. I don’t think he likes those numbers very much. When I gave him his orgasm last night with the Magic Wand, he asked why he’s getting so many orgasms lately. Ironically, the device that got us back together sexually, would seem to dictate that he get fewer orgasms. However, Lion is forgetting one little point: I am in charge.

The past few times I’ve given him orgasms, he’s immediately questioned why he’s getting so many. There’s a good answer for that. I want to give them to him. Some look on his face, or the urgency with which he’s bucking, or the lighting in the room, or the alignment of planets, makes me want to give him an orgasm. There’s no real reason. I just want to. And the best part about being in charge is that I can give him an orgasm whenever I damn well please.

Now some keyholders love to make their caged male wait a long time. Some males like to wait a long time. It works out well if both parties agree on how long a wait should be. Lion and I have never been about the long wait. His longest is 21 days. That seems excessive to me. We spent so much time not having sex, it seems a waste to make him wait very long. I can agree that a two or three day wait is pretty short. I should make him wait a little longer. But how long?

We’ve been back and forth about the length of time to wait. Lion says his optimum time is about four days. By then I guess he’s all recharged and ready to roll. I know a one day wait is fairly unreasonable. Lion can still do it, but it’s not easy. I think, since I stopped worrying about scheduled orgasm dates, I’ve been more liberal. I’m pretty sure if I looked at my calendar, Lion was not scheduled for all those orgasms. I tend to spread them out a bit more. On the calendar I generally try for a nine day wait, give or take. I know he has a scheduled Christmas eve and Christmas day orgasm, as well as New Year’s eve and day. That may or may not work out.

I teased Lion this morning that I’d have to refrain from any more orgasms this year if he wanted to keep his average low. Of course, he wasn’t saying he wanted a low average. He was just telling me what the numbers were. I know  he knows better than to look a gift orgasm in the … mouth.

Lion is a funny boy. When he’s locked up he wants to be wild. When he’s wild he wants to be locked up. When he’s denied he wants an orgasm. When he gets an orgasm he wants to be denied.

Saturday night, as you know, I gave him an orgasm. That would normally mean Sunday would be a day off. Lion wouldn’t really be horny. He would either remained caged or come out for some fresh air. So I unlocked him and he took a shower and cleaned the cage. Later on we snuggled and I asked if he was horny. He said he wasn’t really but my playing with Mr. Weenie felt nice. Then he asked if we could use the Magic Wand. This is Lion’s favorite non-Lioness toy. When it touches the sweet spot, Lion usually gasps.

I tried to match the Magic Wand to Lion’s thrust speed to see if I could get him to start bucking. Sure enough, he started with the tiniest of movements. He never really did get to the actual bucking stage, but he was thrusting. I thought “why not?” He loves his Magic Wand. He can have another orgasm with it. I edged him a few times and then kept going.

Afterwards, the silly boy asked what’s with coming two nights in a row and said I was ruining his average. Does he really want to come less often? I know two nights in a row can get tiresome after a while. When we first met, he wanted to come every night. And he did for a very long time. I teased him that if he’s worried about his average then he doesn’t have to come for the rest of the year. Uh oh. That’s over two months. That may not be long for some caged males, but my Lion is a bit spoiled. Some might say he’s more than a bit spoiled.

That’s OK. I like giving him orgasms. And I’m sure he appreciates them more than he worries about his average. Right, Lion? [Lion – Yes, Ma’am.]