No matter how many times I tell Lion I have masturbated in the past, he keeps writing that I have never masturbated. I don’t know why he has a mental block about it. My point is that it was never a very big deal for me. It certainly wasn’t like his masturbating. It wasn’t a daily/weekly thing. He has also gotten me off using his fingers. Maybe there’s another mental block. Is it because it’s an accepted practice for men to jerk off, but women don’t do such things?
I also wasn’t shocked that he masturbated. I had no idea how often he did it. I think there was more shock that he felt it necessary to do it because I wasn’t enough for him. And it was probably more guilt than shock. I think that was during the period I’d become lax in the hopes that he would initiate more. Clearly, it didn’t work. Still, it’s interesting he chose to masturbate rather than initiate.
At any rate, when I agreed to cage him, I wanted to know how he jerked himself off. Who would know how to get him off better than him? When I locked him up, I told him it was hands off from then on. I wasn’t shocked or upset or possessive. I just figured if he wanted to be locked up and have me control his orgasms, then he should keep his hands off the merchandise. Since I never thought we would maintain male chastity for very long, I never imagined he’d be trained out of masturbating. Recently, when he talked about the subject again, he pretty much insisted that I was possessive of my weenie (yes, I did call it that in terms of “the game”) and he needed to be locked up so he couldn’t even touch himself, lest he get himself hard.
He can probably pinpoint the exact post in which I said I didn’t care if he touched himself to the point of erection. I don’t really want to sift through thousands of posts. However, I did say it. He can adjust, tug, jerk, etc. as long as he doesn’t give himself an orgasm. If he wants me to be possessive, I can be possessive. If he wants me to lock him up so he can’t touch, I can do that. I have done it. If he wants me to want to lock him up, I can do that, too.
Having said that, I unlocked him last night to see if the horniness of yesterday afternoon extended into night. It did not. I said we can try earlier today. And I left him wild. He has made comments about preferring to be wild. When I had a little trouble locking him back up the other night, he said I don’t have to lock him up if I don’t want to. Is this a trap? Is he trying to see if I want him locked up? I know he likes the idea of being locked up. It’s similar to liking the idea of being spanked. Once it’s happening, his mind changes quickly.
Do I want him locked up? Non-game me doesn’t care. Game me: You bet! Keep your horny mitts off my weenie! Do I want him to masturbate? Non-game me and game me both agree we don’t want that.
[Lion — OK, I guess I was wrong about Mrs. Lion’s masturbation history. Yes, I’ve often gotten her off with my finger. She’s used her hand to get me off hundreds of times. I stand corrected. As for wearing the male chastity device, it has value for both of us. It keeps my paws off. That’s for Mrs. Lion. It also obligates her to unlock me regularly. That means she is much more aware of my sexual needs. That’s for me. Do I get tired of being locked up? You bet! There’s no physical reason to let me stay wild. I can wear my Jail Bird forever without any physical issues. Still, it’s nice to get hard once in a while.
The question of me jerking off is much more complicated than Mrs. Lion let on. Why is it so important to her that I don’t get myself off? We’re over five years past her wanting me to initiate. The last time we had vaginal sex was in 2018 (February). So, that initial reason is way in the past. I’m not asking for permission to do it. I worry that if I am allowed to do it, Mrs. Lion will feel less obligated to get me off. You know, just like past partners, “You jerk off and I’ll help.” Yuck! I’m not saying she would do that, but it is a concern.
Since I’m going on ten years without masturbating, It isn’t very important to me anymore. I’m just curious about what the big deal is.]
