Getting It in the End

I promise I won’t be this rough with Lion.

I have only vague recollections of Lion suggesting he use a dildo on me wearing a strap-on. I don’t remember his ordering a Rodeoh prior to the one we’re getting today. He says I showed no interest and that certainly sounds like me. Somewhere in my memory banks I remember a conversation about his using a dildo on me and I wasn’t excited by the idea. Of course, I don’t get turned on by much anyway, but a dildo would not be one of those things. It seems impersonal. I’d much rather have the real thing.

Lion says one of the appeals is that he won’t have an accidental orgasm. This may be the I-don’t-care-about-sex-for-me talking, but what’s the harm in that? I know I’ve grown very lax in making Lion wait. He’s gone through some rough patches lately where he isn’t much interested in sex. To counter that, I’ve given him orgasms when he is interested. Is that wrong? Lion doesn’t think so, of course. I’m running the show and I don’t think so. I suppose if I regain my libido and he’s in danger of having an accidental orgasm while trying to pleasure me then we can revisit dildos for me. Right now they’re just for him.

I’m pretty sure we gave away some dildos when Lion went through a cleaning phase. He decided if we weren’t playing then someone else should have some fun with all the toys that were just laying around collecting dust. When we moved from the east coast we bought two huge locking chests to transport the kink collection. We still have the majority of the stuff. But there are some very happy people where we made the donation.

I know there are more dildos around just waiting for me to find them. There are at least two in the trailer. Lion is anxious to get started with anal training. He wanted to start last night. I convinced him waiting a day wouldn’t kill him. He’s chosen the dildo we should start with. I made some suggestions but he’s sticking to his guns. The smooth purple one gets the start. I’m just trying to start small since we haven’t done anal in a while.

Last night I edged him quite a few times. I left him horny and frustrated. I figured a satiated Lion would be less likely to “enjoy” a dildo up his ass. Not that he’ll enjoy it but you know what I mean. He said I’d need some time to work up to having something in my ass too. Well, no. I didn’t. I don’t remember him taking it slow. Not that he rammed himself in there quickly. It was just like vaginal sex. At any rate, I’ll take it slow with him. I’m not in a hurry.

I’m sure we’ll have to experiment with positions too. We usually do it with him on his knees or him in the sling. Both positions are problematic with his shoulder. Maybe he can kneel on the floor and rest against the bed. Maybe some pillows under his butt will work. I have no idea how things will work with the Rodeoh. We never really managed to line up when I used a harness. Our first attempts at pegging will be just a dildo in my hand. Once we figure out how much he can take and how long he can take it we can add the Rodeoh into the mix.