As Lion said, we had dinner and a whale show last night. I never expected whales to be so close to shore. Today we’re on our way back home for a few days before our next trip.

Lion is confused about his all-you-can-come buffet. I haven’t been very clear. Because I don’t know what I’m doing either. I wasn’t prepared for Lion to  resist taking as many orgasms as he wanted. I guess I should have been. I forgot about the coupons he has squirreled away. So in a pinch I had to make a decision. Damn. Well I’m still deciding.

One idea was to give him an orgasm a day. Another idea was to give him none. Obviously, one a day is not feasible. He wouldn’t be able to handle that. Neither is none. I wouldn’t like that any more than he would. So it has to be somewhere in the middle. Yes, I’m deciding. And that’s just like normal. But only because he wouldn’t decide.

In the back of my mind I’ve been wondering why he couldn’t just decide. I do a lot for him. Couldn’t he do this? But I do understand his reluctance. He doesn’t want to be in charge. Even for this part. I get it. I mean, I don’t get it. But I get it. The problem, of course, is that now he has to live with my uncertainty.

I guess the short answer is that he’ll get more orgasms than he would have normally gotten, more than he would have asked for, but less than one a day. Clear as mud, right? Sorry. I’ll try to come up with a better answer.

view from table
This is the view from our table.

We are on our way back home today. Last night we had a celebratory dinner at a very good restaurant that looks out over the Pacific Ocean. Our table was directly in front of a window. Just as we were finishing our entree a pod of humpback whales spouted very close to shore. What an amazing way to end our last day here. I had a delicious Dungenous crab. It was a full two pounds.

I recently wrote about the fact that if I wait over a couple of weeks for an orgasm, even if I am edged daily, my interest in coming declines.

Apparently a lot of guys stay horny even if they have to wait a long time for release. Lucky guys, I should have said. Mrs. Lion has adjusted my schedule to assure that my interest and frustration stay very high. I’m lucky that she does that. Also, she likes making me come, so she has an incentive to keep my waits relatively short.

We both believe that enforced chastity isn’t about how long you can frustrate the caged male. For us, at least, it’s about sexual control. When Mrs. Lion announced that I could decide when I wanted to orgasm between July 15 and 31, she was surprised I wasn’t delighted. After I explained that I don’t want that power, she revised her gift. Now she decides when I will come during that time.

So what’s different from our normal lives? She always decides when I get to come. She told me that during the “gift” time period, she might give me more orgasms. She also said that she might not. OK, I’m not sure there is any difference. Perhaps she’ll explain the change.

I debated right up until the very end whether I would give Lion an orgasm last night. Part of me thinks I should give him more orgasms than he would ever ask for in the all-you-can-come orgasm buffet. Part of me thinks I shouldn’t give him any at all just to show him that he could have had all the orgasms he wanted and he blew it. So I edged him for a while by hand and then I moved down to one of his favorite positions and teased him orally.

And tease him I did. I got him so close I bet he was positive I would keep going. I wasn’t. I was still debating. He was so excited that any movement might have pushed him over. I was very careful. In the end I decided it would be cruel and unusual punishment to make him wait.

However, I still haven’t decided if he’ll get more orgasms. You know me, though. I love giving Lion orgasms. I’m not fooling anyone. He’ll get more. I doubt I’ll push him to have one a day or even one every other day. But he’ll definitely get more. Denying him orgasms also denies me giving him orgasms. That’s a sacrifice I’m just not willing to make.

Lion is also excited about his job. He has a start date. He has his first business trip lined up. And now we start the countdown to the start date. Two weeks at this point. We have to cut one of our trips short by a day so he can get back for his first day. Sadly, that first day of work is August first. Sadly because he unlimited orgasm buffet is set to end on July 31.

I wonder if he’ll have an orgasm on that last day to get him all ready for work. I think he can bet on that.

The Fourth of July had nothing on last night. After covering my balls with clothespins and then edging me numerous times, Mrs. Lion moved to oral attention and asked me if I wanted an orgasm. My answer was, “Nuh Huh!” She then gave me a very intense orgasm. It was wonderful. Coincidentally, yesterday was my “maybe” date. This is a very good weekend, indeed.

It’s been some time since I have looked forward to a date. While I was working under a contract, each passing day caused me dread. I worried that once the money stopped, I wouldn’t find work for months. Once, the contract ended, each day felt like a countdown to disaster. Now that I have a new job, each day moves me a bit closer to my starting date; tomorrow stopped being my enemy.

Now that my future is my friend, the prospect of my next orgasm adds a cheerful sense of anticipation. I wonder how other guys are affected by the length of time they have to wait for the next ejaculation. I know from my own experience that once the wait gets over two weeks, the sense of anticipation fades and is replaced by acceptance of the fact I won’t come. Of course, the edging continues and instead of making my need to come grow, it becomes its own happy sexual conclusion. I look forward to the edging without really thinking about having an orgasm.

Enforced chastity forced me to adapt to a condition that is very unnatural to most men. In the vanilla world, a guy will masturbate if he has no other sexual outlet. As he ages, without active stimulation from a partner, he will eventually just stop masturbating and thinking about sex.

I think that enforced chastity can keep the male sexual fires burning throughout his life. As his refractory time (the time between being able to come) grows, the edging bridges that gap with active sex that keeps him ready for ejaculation when he is able.

The power of teasing is immense. When applied consistently, at least in my case, keeps sex front and center for me. That’s pretty cool.