I think I may have tried to rush things last night. We started off with Lion on all fours. I used his clone dildo on him. Rather than stretching him, I wanted to get him used to the movement. He definitely needs more practice. It was difficult for him so we stopped fairly quickly.

Then we moved on to spanking. I started with my hand but I didn’t warm him up enough. Instead of getting him to his zone, it was painful. However, when he asked me to stop I kept going. Even if it’s painful I felt it was necessary for me to dictate when I stopped.

Although I flexed my muscle, so to speak, I consider the spanking to be a failure. I didn’t do what I wanted to do. I didn’t do what Lion needed. While it’s true that I am trying to train him, I am also trying to train myself. I need to be consistent not only with the amount of attention I pay him, but also the quality of it.

I’m not giving up. I’m sure I’ll get more training this weekend. Spanking in the sling is not the easiest, but it does offer wonderful access to his buns. We also have a spanking bench that hasn’t seen much activity in a while. I’ll have to correct that oversight. Sounds like another busy weekend for Lion. Too bad he has to wait till Monday for his orgasm.

I didn’t play with Lion last night. He was still basking in the afterglow of his orgasm the day before. Not that he wouldn’t have enjoyed anything I did to him. He just didn’t need anything urgently. Tonight is a different story. I’m working late but it’s a play night so I do have plans for him.

Actually I’m torn between using my new nubby paddle and plugging his butt. I could do both. I think it depends on how I feel later. If I have the energy I think he might get some red buns. A toasty tush. He always appreciates that. And it’s been a while.

The other night he said I could probably get the bigger Njoy plug in him. I bet I could, but it’s also been a while since he’s had a plug in there. I feel safer with the smaller one until I actually get him stretched a little more. So maybe he will get a butt plug tonight. And the rest of the week. And maybe on the weekend I can get him back in his sling for more of an anal workout. And then I bet he’ll be ready for the bigger plug. I know he’s thinking, “Yes, please!”

So tonight he will be a plugged Lion with a chance of red buns. I don’t think Mr. Weenie will be wild though. He had his fun on Sunday. He can wait another day or so to make an appearance. I’m hoping he appreciates the butt plug and spanking though. It’s nice when he tries to get hard inside the cage. Poor Mr. Weenie. Happy Lion.

When Lion and I first started playing I thought perhaps I would have a better understanding of why he wanted what he wanted if he did it to me. He refused because he was sure I’d then want to be a bottom and he wanted to be the bottom. Since I didn’t really want to be tied up or spanked in the first place I let it go. But I still wonder if I would understand him better if I had had the same experiences. However, if sushi and opera are any indication, experiencing it would not make me understand the appeal at all anyway.

At one point he did try electrical stimulation on me. I don’t remember exactly where he put the needles, in the area of the labia but it could have been near the clitoris. In any case, it had no effect. I remember feeling a tingling and then some stabbing pain but no excitement or pleasure. At the time he was somewhat annoyed it didn’t work. The other day when I reminded him of it he said it doesn’t work for everyone. Other than an errant nipple pinch while he was falling asleep and the occasional love tap on the behind, that is the extent of my being on the receiving end of play. I don’t have a need like Lion does to be tied up and spanked, but I do wonder if I’m missing something.

On the other hand, there are millions of people who watch American Idol or Dancing with the Stars. I don’t understand that either. Figure skating. I don’t get it. Am I just perpetually in the dark about things that give others pleasure? Possibly. So perhaps Lion is correct when he says that I just need to do unto him what he wants me to do. Don’t think. Just do.

I need to get meaner or, as he calls it, more strict. I need to understand that he’s asking for it. I am only doing what he wants. What other catch phrases can I use as my mantra? This will hurt me more than it hurts you. No. Maybe not that one.

Whak A Mole paddle
The Whack A Mole paddle is walnut with hardwood half spheres located all over. The spheres should make a good impression on my butt. Click the image for purchase information.

Yesterday, Mrs. Lion’s post was about  my orgasm. It was very good. After eight days, I was certainly ready. She mentioned that she was concerned about feeding me lube along with my semen. She used a silicone lube that actually needs very little liquid to achieve its purpose. It’s also non-toxic, so it would have been safe to feed to me. Not that I’m complaining. I don’t like the taste at all, but eating semen feeds my kink to feel controlled.

Also yesterday, a package arrived with a new paddle. The Whack A Mole walnut paddle is a nice, mean-looking toy. It’s made by Cane-Iac, a small mom-and-pop treasure chest of spanking implements. Their prices are fair (shipping is high, but fast) and the quality of their products is good. I expect that Mrs. Lion will report on her test drive, when she gives it a try. I’m not sure that the balls will add more sensation. I know I will find out. Mrs. Lion likes paddles that have the extra dimension of “nubbies” as she calls them.

In my post yesterday, I talked about refining punishments for me. I’m afraid that Mrs. Lion saw that as dissatisfaction on my part with her domination of me. Nothing could be farther from the truth. She has been amazing. I love how she has embraced enforced chastity and has evolved her style to be more and more effective.

She has a problem being “mean”. She and I have very different understanding of that term. To her, teasing me the day she extends my wait is mean because it will make me want an orgasm even more. I see it as a sensible action for a top/keyholder. The same is true about longer and stronger spanking for punishment. Well, she does have a point that I will absolutely hate it if she adopts my suggestion, but I don’t consider it mean. I see it as a way to train me to be accepting of whatever she sends my way.

I have to admit that I am pretty used to getting my way. I think that is the main reason I was so upset by that one day extension. After seven days of waiting, I just didn’t want to wait any longer. Today is the second day of my new wait. If she added a day now, I probably wouldn’t be very upset. I’m not desperate to come. Probably at the end of my scheduled wait, I would be upset, but not this early. The reason I suggest things that I know will not be a bit of fun for me is that I want to feel controlled. I absolutely don’t want to have to learn to hold still for long, painful spankings. I don’t find that idea a bit appealing. Similarly, I really like to come. It’s hard enough to make the scheduled wait. Adding time is a total bummer for me.

Honesty compels me to let Mrs. Lion know all this. If I don’t, then my enforced chastity is a game that I control. The other day, when I was fed up being caged, she reminded me that I will remain caged until “some time” in 2016 (actually March as we agreed). She made it clear that it made no difference if I am tired of it or not. She is in control and the next time I might get a vote is March 2016. Great work, Mrs. Lion!