i made lion's weenie very happy last night.
I made Lion’s weenie very happy last night.

Lion was certainly a horny boy last night. I hadn’t really played with him in a few days. The closest he had gotten to play was the butt plug on Monday night. I started off playing with his balls. A few love taps. Then I just massaged them and told him that they probably want to run and hide since they are always front and center.

While I was fondling his balls, good ol’ Mr. Weenie decided to spring into action. He didn’t want to be left out. Not to worry, Mr. Weenie. I stroked him for a while before I decided to edge him. Then I gave him very little time to recover before I edged him again. Poor boy. He was so hard and so ready for his orgasm. It occurred to me that I didn’t have my usual sense of urgency to give him one. I almost told him he could wait another day. I’m sure he would have been disappointed, but he would have agreed to wait. Except I told him that he would be having an orgasm last night. At any rate, I moved into position for a blow job and again noticed how hard he was. Mr. Weenie was flying at full mast and trying to get bigger. I teased him for a bit before he gave me my appetizer of precum and then I finished him off. Yum!

I did not pick another card. This time we’re playing it by ear. I will give my pet the attention he needs but I will not give him an orgasm until the mood strikes me. As you know, that may not be long at all, but last night wasn’t one of those times that I absolutely felt the need to do it. But then again, I haven’t really been playing with him lately. I think the more I tease and deny him, the more I want to make him come. I get caught up in it.

In a recent post Lion spoke about caged males who feel sexually satisfied when their keyholders have an orgasm. Maybe, since I don’t care about my own orgasms, I am living vicariously through his. Would the “cure” for that be to keep Lion from having an orgasm of his own until my sex drive returns? I think we’ll explore other avenues first. Neither one of us seems too interested in making him wait for an extended period of time.

For now, I will string poor Lion along, wondering when (oh, when) his next release will be. I’ll let him practice his best “poor me” faces and wait for the grumbling to start. And we’ll work on getting him ready for that bigger Njoy butt plug. He may even have a teenie Lion weenie dildo in his future. You never know what I’ll pull out of my bag of tricks!

njoy 2.0
The NJoy 2.0 is the largest NJoy butt plug. It measures 2 inches in diameter and weighs 3 lbs. Mrs. Lion has set accepting and holding this as a goal. When i do it, I get an orgasm as a reward.

Mrs. Lion is full of surprises. Over the last few months she mentioned anal training a few times and, in fact, had me hold the NJoy large plug for up to three hours. However, we only did this twice. Yesterday, she announced here that my next goal will be to accept the NJoy giant plug. It really is very big. The current plug, large is about 1 1/2″ in diameter at the widest point. The giant one is the NJoy Pure Plug 2.0. It’s a full 2″ in diameter and weighs three pounds. It’s a lot to take! She also wrote that when I finally accept it, I will get an orgasm as a reward. How nice!

Apparently, this is only the first act. Her goal is to fist me — insert her entire hand past her wrist in my ass. She’s tried this before. It gets too painful for me to continue at about four fingers to the second knuckle. She’s measured her hand and believes it is just under three inches across. So, it will be a full inch wider than the giant NJoy.

There may be some issues of technique as well. To her credit, Mrs. Lion likes to go in “bareback,” just her naked hand going up there. From my reading and attending workshops, I think it might be easier if she wore a glove. It offers a smoother, easier-to-lubricate surface and protects from bacterial transmission from her hand to my body. I think once she has gotten me used to her hand, she can probably take off the gloves, so to speak.

Anal play is a very interesting part of my chastity experience. For one thing, it is easy to do without taking off my cage. It is a unique combination of discomfort and erotic. Most of all, it is an unmistakable message about who is in control. Plugs are a very good way to train me to accept objects anally. They require little effort on Mrs. Lion’s part and will, over time, teach me to accept large dildos and her hand. Perhaps she will also consider pegging. I remember that in a previous post she discussed using the mini-mold of my penis and larger dildos in our collection in me. Time will tell.

My experience with anal dildos has taught me that I can generally accept one if introduced with lots of lube and inserted slowly. It is more difficult to handle the dildo being moved in and out, and most difficult when Mrs. Lion removes it entirely, allowing my asshole to close, and then quickly pushing it back in. I think that if she consistently does this with me, it will get easier for me to handle.

If you’ve never considered anal play with a man, you may wonder why he would want this. Some men can actually have an anal orgasm. There are a  lot of sensitive nerve endings back there. Many women learn to come this way. For me, it’s uncomfortable and up to now, not erotic while I am penetrated. But, like spanking, it’s a giant turn on to know that Mrs. Lion will do this to me even if I don’t like it at the time.

The bottom line in forced male chastity is control. For me, anal penetration is an uncomfortable and powerful control message. It is very exciting to think that I will present my ass for Mrs. Lion’s penetration. I guess that for me anal play is one more power exchange that I love to hate.

lion and lioness love
I want to wake up my sex drive. I know that Lion worries it is him.

I’ve had a lot of obstacles of my own making getting in the way of Lion’s happiness. I’m working on overcoming them. I’ve been trying to make decisions. I’ve been trying to get over my fear of actually hurting him. I’ve been trying to get over my distaste for being in charge. But the one that gets in the way most of all is one that I cannot seem to power through. And that is my lack of sex drive.

Lion is convinced that I was turned on by spanking him after his twelve day wait because I was wet when I rode him. I didn’t feel turned on. To me it was equal to his morning wood. If he’s hard he must be turned on. Not true. He’s never turned on in the morning. I can be turned on and not wet. And, apparently, I can be wet and not turned on. Regardless, I should know when I am turned on.

A day after I had given Lion a very nice orgasm he told me it was my turn that night. Was it? He said he wanted it to be. Well, it wasn’t. And even after I had ridden him for another orgasm a few days later he said I must be horny since I had been wet while riding him. I do admit that his cock inside me did feel especially nice that time, but I wasn’t turned on.

My sensitive Lion is afraid that it’s his fault he is not turning me on. Like it’s some failing on his part. Can’t it just be my problem? Can’t I just have a super low sex drive? There have only been a few times in my life that I can remember being tree-humping horny. It’s difficult to say what a normal amount of horniness is. I know generally it fluctuates over a woman’s life. Maybe it’s just been dormant for so long it needs a lot of fanfare to wake it up. Maybe it needs a banner across the front door saying “Welcome Home” and a parade with a big brass band.

I don’t know what it needs. But I do know I don’t want Lion thinking it’s his fault. So I’ve got to figure out how to get Lion-humping horny for him.

I think one of the reasons I hate making Lion wait is that I feel like I’ve wasted too much time already. He says he wishes we had met earlier in life and I always tell him we met when we were supposed to meet. But the truth is, we did meet late. Then I wasted time waiting for him to initiate and allowing us to have a dry spell. So why would I want to make him wait now?

Technically I know there’s a difference between the two scenarios. The first was a general ignoring of his needs. This time part of his need is to be controlled, perhaps through denial. But for me it all comes down to the same thing. I feel I’m being mean to him by making him wait. Even if it’s what he wants.

Plus, of course, I love to give him orgasms. I like to see how many different ways I can make him come. Last night’s blow job was long and slow, not much movement at all, lots of tongue, fondling his balls, and then his hips started bucking. I want it to feel good from the beginning and build up to a point that he absolutely needs to come. I want him to wonder why I don’t just go faster and do it already. To me that’s nice torture. I’m not hurting him, but I am in complete control. That’s when it’s fun for me. But any time I give him an orgasm is fun for me.

Last night was day five of his latest wait. Even though it really wasn’t a five day wait. My fault. What can I say? When I need to make him come, I need to make him come. But I didn’t give him another date. Maybe we’ll take turns, as a reader suggested. One time he’ll have a set date and the next will be more fluid. I really like having it be a surprise to him. He won’t know until I take him over the edge if he will come or not.

This is one of the difficult parts of being in charge. I can’t make up my mind. Decisions, rules and punishment. Yuck! I guess I’ve got some thinking to do.