It has been somewhat difficult lately to get Lion’s motor running. It’s partly my fault. Since I don’t want sex for myself, I guess it makes it less exciting for him. The truth is, we never really had much foreplay. I’d spank him or tie him up or whatever and once he was ready, I’d ride him or suck him. It’s very similar to the way it is now. It’s not like we ever did any role playing or rose petals on the bed. Every so often, he’d roll over and finger me or lick me instead of me playing with him. I have to say, it always bothered me that he wouldn’t let me reciprocate. For example, if I was over him and he was licking me, he didn’t want me to suck him. It never seemed fair. I wanted something to play with too.

I’m not sure what I can do to make things better. I feel bad that he’s not as turned on. I thought about “letting” him give me orgasms just to keep him interested, but I think that would annoy me. He worries about my doing things he thinks I don’t want to do but wants me to have orgasms I don’t really care about. I’d much rather play with him and give him what he needs. I just have to figure out a way to convince him he’s not taking advantage of me.

After I was done sucking him last night, he said he was sure I was going to give him an orgasm. Nope. I want him to beg for it. I know he won’t actually beg, but I want him to sweat it out. I want him to be so frustrated he can’t stand it any more. I’ve been too easy on him lately. He takes a long time to get horny and a long time to get to the edge and what do I do? I give in at the first sign of an impending orgasm. No more. He wants 4.0 around for punishment. He’s going to get her for play too. (Did you just hear him gasp?)

I think he’s definitely due for a longer wait. He needs to be super horny again before I’ll give him an orgasm. He’s gotten soft in more ways than one. 4.0 can cure that.

Did Lion react more to the fact that I “demanded” he react, or was he just horny? The other night I pulled out a rope, and he asked if we could not do anything. I let him off the hook. Then we decided he might need a visit from 4.0 to kick him in the ass. Last night, I grabbed a butt plug and told him I needed his ass. He looked at me like he wanted to ask for a reprieve again and then decided it wouldn’t be a good idea. Damn right! You can’t say you want me to take charge and then ask me not to take charge.

When the time came for me to suck him, I did ask if he thought he could move across the bed with the butt plug in. It might have been too uncomfortable, or it might have popped out if he moved. He was able to move. And he maintained his erection in the process. Yay! I told him he was a good boy for being hard. I wonder if that had any effect.

I don’t know how long it took to get him to the edge. As a guess, I’d say ten minutes. When I thought he was close, I stopped. Then it seemed like I’d stopped too late, so I quickly kept going. He had what sounded like a big orgasm, although it didn’t produce much. I think I only had a taste of Lion cream. Too bad. I love his cream filling.

I teased him about something in this morning’s email and told him it might be the only teasing I get to do today since he probably wouldn’t be in the mood. He replied, “You never know.” Hmmm…is Lion back to being his horny self? That rope might just get used after all.