It was supposed to be sunny today. At the very least, it was supposed to be dry. I was going to finish mowing the lawn or give it a good try. And then I’d move inside to straighten up. There’s still stuff laying around from the Costco run. I’d put it in the pantry but first I need to straighten up in there. And last night, Lion asked if I was going to wax him. I told him my plans and said I might not get to it this weekend. He was disappointed. He agreed he’s not that furry yet. He said he was hoping or some sex. Aha!
We haven’t done much of anything since he suggested moving sex out of bed. We tried the other night and I suggested oral, but the dog was nuts and then Lion wasn’t interested again. I assume now that it didn’t tickle his fancy. He’s hoping for more. He’s hoping for different. Is it me or is he always looking for something different? I understand that things evolve over time. Maybe something that worked when you were 30 doesn’t work when you’re 50. I can attest to that. My sex drive worked, then it didn’t. Lion’s quest for changes seems to be happening more rapidly. I haven’t even wrapped my head around not doing things in bed.
Each time he needs something different, I feel like I’m doing something wrong. I can’t help it. That’s just how I’m wired. That may have something to do with not being able to wrap my head around not doing things in bed. Another reason may be that it involves more work for me. I know Lion says I can just wheel my chair in the bedroom and we’ll be all set, but having to drag the spanking bench out every night or keep the waxing table clear all the time, is not something I look forward to.
It occurs to me that I’ve been overwhelmed for a long time. I feel like I’m drowning at work. There’s more work than one person can handle. The new computer system was supposed to make things easier and it’s not. It made no one’s job easier. There’s always something to do around here. Dinner, laundry, mowing the lawn, etc. The dog just adds to the chaos. No wonder I retreat to the “safety” of my iPad. However, I need to do better.
I’ve promised Lion pancakes for breakfast, so the first thing to do it get the kitchen cleaner. I’m wrong. The first thing to do is turn the wax on. It can be melting while I do everything else.
[Lion — I’m sorry that Mrs. Lion feels overwhelmed. I can’t comment on her work situation. I can say that I think the problem at home is brought on by her feeling overwhelmed and not knowing where to start. A lot of things need to get done. They can’t be done all at once. However, a to-do list and steady progress would go a long way. I understand how she feels. I feel that way too. I can’t be very helpful. I don’t think the situation is hopeless. An hour a day would probably clear things up in short order. At least it would help with the feeling of being overwhelmed.
The sexual situation is more difficult. It isn’t that I want new things for the sake of variety. I’ve been offering suggestions on how to cure a problem we are having. I figured that Mrs. Lion would pick what worked. I also thought that she might work out ideas of her own. I don’t dislike sex on the bed. It’s just that her current position for handjobs just doesn’t work for me. I love how we do oral sex on the bed. It seems to me that anytime I make a suggestion to improve something, Mrs. Lion assumes she is failing me. I can think of on-the-bed handjob positions that might work. She reacts to my thoughts the same way she reacts to needed chores. She feels overwhelmed and withdraws. I’ll do everything in my power to help. I can also go back to jerking off if that makes my lioness’ life easier.]