Lion has a lot on his mind. I’m not sure exactly what he’s been working on, but he’s been at it for days. Last night, he went back in his office to fix something. He didn’t come back to the bedroom until a little after 8. He didn’t seem interested in doing anything. He didn’t ask if we could snuggle. I moved over to snuggle anyway and didn’t get any encouragement. I don’t know what I was looking for. I could just as easily have told him we were going to do something, but I tried that with the clothespins the other night and it didn’t go well. So what’s the next move?
I think Lion is stuck in the spot of not wanting to ask for anything, but really wanting something. Similarly, I’ve been stuck in the spot of wanting to do something for him, but I don’t want to step on any toes. We are, in fact, the problem as I said yesterday. Of course, he could also be overthinking the MRI scheduled for Friday. I can’t blame him. I overthink things like that too. Whatever the case, I need to do something for him, even if he thinks he’s just another chore. He’s not. I want to be close to him, although I do tend to balk when it feels like what I’m doing isn’t good enough.
At some point, I have to go to get some prescriptions. If I don’t have to go tonight, I think I need to follow up with the clothespins. I suppose I should give him his “just because” spanking, but I’ll start off with the clothespins. I don’t want him to think he’s being punished for wanting, or not wanting, any activity. The most important thing to me right now is to get things back on track. Lion needs attention. I need to give it to him. End of story.
