We had another two football games Sunday. Our team lost, but our adopted team won in a strange game. Lion took his shower late while I made dinner. It was fairly late by the time we were done, and I had my shower. Although I played with my weenie, there was no nookie to be had. Lion wants to get an earlier start tonight.
We have been in a slump lately. I may have turned Lion on a bit by punishing him, but we haven’t been able to take advantage of that. Last night, when I asked Lion if he was horny, he said he didn’t know. If he doesn’t know, how should I know? The obvious answer is that I could try to arouse him. What if he doesn’t respond? He’ll say I’ll think I wasted my time. I think I’ve wasted his. The bigger problem is that if he doesn’t get aroused, I’ll wonder if it’s because he’s not horny or if I can’t turn him on. He doesn’t like initiating because he doesn’t want to be rejected. I don’t like being rejected either.
It’s true that he’s not directly rejecting me if he’s not horny or interested, but couldn’t the same thing be said if I don’t respond to his advances? Initiating and rejection can happen to both of us. I ask if he’s interested because I don’t want to bother him if he’s not. It may sound strange, but I like when he tells me if he doesn’t think, we’ll get very far. He’s the one who knows how he feels.
Obviously, it’s different if he’s horny and things don’t quite work out. I try. He tries. At least we had fun along the way. Even if he tells me he doesn’t think we’ll get very far, but it feels nice when I fondle him, I keep going. I guess it’s all about expectations. If he lets me know he’s not up for it, I won’t think I’ve disappointed him by not being able to get him there. I don’t think either one of us feels like we’re in it for ourselves. We’re both worried about disappointing each other. The bottom line is that Lion can’t disappoint me as long as he’s enjoying himself.
