I was unfair to Mrs. Lion in my post yesterday. She doesn’t bore me. I love every moment we are together. The sexual issues are almost certainly mine. Abstinence causes my ability to respond to change. When we started, I imagined that my interest in sex would grow every day I was forced to wait. It didn’t. For the first couple of weeks, I got more and more frustrated. After that, my interest varied between super horny and uninterested.
This confuses me. On day 24, Mrs. Lion tried to edge me. It was easy for her to get me hard, but even in her mouth, I couldn’t get to the edge. Two days before that, she edged me over and over with little difficulty. I don’t get it. There is something unnatural about male chastity. While it’s an exciting kink, it’s also a big change from “normal” sexual behavior. The challenge isn’t just having to wait between orgasms. It’s also being able to have one when Mrs. Lion wants.
She has been very understanding about me not ejaculating when she decides I should. If I’m not in the mood, as she calls it, Mrs. Lion doesn’t get upset or penalizes me. Is male chastity only about withholding orgasms? I’m not sure it is. It seems to me that it is about controlling orgasms. Delay is only half of the game. The other half is semen delivery. We agree that unauthorized ejaculation is a problem. If Mrs. Lion accidentally pushes me over the edge, she acknowledges that I shouldn’t be penalized. I can’t control my response at the instant of going over the edge. If I ever get off without her, that is a very serious offense.
What should she do if she expects an orgasm and I don’t deliver one? Is that a spankable offense? Perhaps it should be, maybe administered when Mrs. Lion decides she isn’t going to get me off. Will this improve my responsiveness? I don’t know. Is it disobedient to not ejaculate when required? Mrs. Lion reasons that I want to ejaculate. If I fail, it can’t be my fault. It isn’t an act of willfulness. She’s right. I want to have that orgasm, but I can’t.
The real question is whether penalizing me for failing to reach the edge or ejaculate will improve my responsiveness? It could. At the least, it would give Mrs. Lion a reason to paddle me. We know that consistent spanking will change my behavior. I don’t spill food on my shirt or eat first. Consistent spanking for failing changed me. I am much better about remembering to set up the coffee pot. I have to admit that Mrs. Lion can change me with her paddles.
This would be another painful lioness experiment. I’m proposing it because I am frustrated and upset by my lack of responsiveness. I can’t understand it. Maybe it can be corrected. At the least it’s something else that Mrs. Lion can catch me doing.