Things are piling up here. This puts a lot of pressure on Mrs. Lion. It also makes me feel very guilty. I should be doing a lot more. I know that I can’t, but that doesn’t stop me from feeling horrible about putting the extra burden on Mrs. Lion. I’m pretty sure that my libido isn’t being helped by this guilt. I am doing my best to avoid making any demands on her. I only ask for things we need for the house or my health. I’m working hard on the concept that I shouldn’t want things for myself.
The other night, I mentioned that one of the people I know on Twitter is non-binary. I asked her to explain what that meant to them. They explained that there was no strong identity as either a man or woman. This person is female and a top. I was surprised at their self-identification since I know they (she?) has sex with men and plays with them. I can’t wrap my head around this concept.
I said that Mrs. Lion was binary in more ways than gender. She asked me what I meant. I explained that she had become a binary punisher. She has learned to deliver a minimum level of pain anytime I require correction. A “just because” spanking is more than ten minutes of very painful spanking. That is the minimum. When the punishment taxi meter drops, that’s the base charge. It can only go up from there.
I’m not complaining. It’s the best approach to punishment. As we learned in the past, if the perceived seriousness of an offense tempers the severity, I will almost always get away without even yelping. When the minimum is a butt-blistering spanking, I have to take any misstep seriously. I don’t like my butt blistered. Ten minutes feels like hours when my bottom is being paddled.
Binary punishment is necessary for me. Like most guys, I’ve been known to make a cost-benefit analysis of something I want. For example, if I’m watching TV and I’ve forgotten to set up the coffee pot, I might consider the cost of a light spanking is worth it if I can stay in bed and watch TV. If I know that I will get at least ten minutes of hard paddling, the cost/benefit equation tips all the way in favor of getting that pot ready. Binary punishment keeps me obedient. I never have to wonder what will happen if I piss off my lioness. I know!