Another week has begun. I received a spanking on Sunday for forgetting to remind Mrs. Lion that Saturday was a punishment day. It’s ironic that I get punished for not remembering a punishment day. Meanwhile, I’ve been thinking that it might be fun to play Spankardy tonight. I know, I’m a glutton for punishment, but the idea turns me on. Mrs. Lion was a little disappointed at the total number of swats I earned the last time we played. So, it looks like we will be modifying the rules once again. Here’s how they will go:
- I get one swat for every question I don’t answer during the regular Jeopardy round.
- I get two swats if I answer a question incorrectly.
- During double jeopardy the swat assignment doubles: two for not answering and four for getting one wrong.
- In either round, I can bet during the daily doubles. I can bet up to the entire number of swats I’ve earned.
- I can do the same during Final Jeopardy.
This modification is certain to make the spanking I get at the end of the game considerably more painful. Remembering how reluctant a spanker Mrs. Lion was in the not-too-distant past, it’s interesting that she wanted to find a way to increase my discomfort. I want to point out that the last time we played, a week or two ago, she was hitting as hard as she does when she punishes me. I’m not complaining. It’s exactly what I expect. I’m just a little surprised that Mrs. Lion feels the same way.
Maybe I shouldn’t be so surprised. Lioness 4.0 has a decidedly less sympathetic view of paddling me. I’m not sure she’s given it any thought, but it seems to me that 4.0 has only one speed. I like that. It’s not that it’s fun to get a painful spanking, but it’s very exciting to have the stakes raised on games we play. If Spankardy is going to result in a sore, red bottom if I don’t do a good job answering questions, I am much more intensely involved. It seems to turn up the volume on the sexual excitement anticipating the game.
What about domestic discipline?
When it comes to our disciplinary relationship, we seem to have hit a bit of a wall. Mrs. Lion said she was going to be a great deal more sensitive about things I do that might annoy her. This heightened sensitivity was designed to help her build a new disciplinary habit: punishing me for upsetting her. When we first discussed it, I got a couple of spankings when I annoyed her. Since then, either I’ve been perfectly well behaved or Mrs. Lion is still having trouble making the transition.
I get it. It’s much more difficult to hold me accountable for doing things that might piss her off. This is tricky in the same way learning to punish me for getting food on my shirt or eating first was for her in the beginning. Mrs. Lion has become a vigilant observer of my behavior in that respect. I can’t get away with a thing when it comes to those initial rules. Apparently, it takes a new kind of awareness to identify behavior that needs correcting.
Unfortunately, it’s not as simple to identify specific things I might do to trigger punishment. It’s highly subjective. I think that’s true of any behavioral issue. We spent a lot of time learning how to establish our roles and consequences for me. We haven’t really developed behavioral reasons for using these tools. Since I initiated domestic discipline in our marriage, I think I have the responsibility to help nudge it along. Unfortunately, I am terrible at identifying things I do that might be annoying to Mrs. Lion. If I were more self-aware, I could confess doing things that might have upset her.
She does a very good job of hiding her feelings. I’m only aware of her being upset if I’ve done something fairly serious. When I bring that up, invariably she shrugs it off. She doesn’t seem to want to translate my offense into punishment. I’m not sure how I can help. My lack of self-awareness really gets in the way here. I guess all I can do is keep reminding Mrs. Lion what we agreed we would try. When she finally decides to take it up, I know I’m going to be very sorry I started this. Actually I won’t be. It’s just what I need and what I think will make things better for both of us.
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