I fell asleep while Mrs. Lion was playing with my penis. It felt very good. I wasn’t aware it happened. All I know is that I was enjoying the sexual attention and then Mrs. Lion wasn’t touching me. I opened my eyes, I keep them closed when I get sexual attention, and Mrs. Lion was on her side of the bed playing on her iPod. I was confused. I asked her what happened and she said that I had fallen asleep.
What the hell!
These sudden drops into unconsciousness are disturbing. It happens when I am watching TV. Chunks of time disappear. I don’t think it’s a medical problem. Maybe it’s just because I’m tired. We’ve both been having trouble sleeping lately. If this sort of thing persists, I suppose I’ll seek medical attention. These are odd times.
I’m a little surprised that since we’ve both been home, we’ve actually done less playing. Sex and BDSM activities have tapered off and have almost disappeared. I don’t understand it. That’s not entirely true. I think it’s because Mrs. Lion isn’t interested in sex and being with me 24 hours a day moves her thinking away from what she can do with me. In any case, we have drifted apart physically.
Emotionally we are just as tightly bound as ever. Our love for each other is obvious. Manifesting it physically, however, just isn’t happening.
I don’t feel deprived. At this point I’m not particularly driven by sexual need. Maybe that’s the problem. Have I been the engine driving all of our activities? If that’s true then I have no one to blame but myself.
Meanwhile, we’ll keep trying.