Active Control

Everyone who writes about alternative sexual activity gets “How could you…” comments. Until now, I delete them. No more. Unless they are filled with biblical references or inappropriate attacks on specific sexual, racial or religious groups, I decided to share the hate with you.

I’m fascinated that someone who is so clearly offended by my lifestyle would not only read posts, but comment on them. I realize that some people love to read so that they can charge themselves up reading about people clearly inferior to them. If you want to know what I am reacting to, read the comments after the No Soap post.

There are two questions that I think bear considering: Why would I want to let myself be disciplined like a child? Why would I give my wife authority over me?

They’re big topics. Generally, we all shrug them off with vague mention of “submissive” or “BDSM scene”. I think both are superficial and beg the same question. No matter how you label the activities, I have done something that is shocking to the average person. The reason is very simple: Most people spend their lives struggling to be independent. Submitting to another is the last thing on their minds. If you add in the idea that in addition to allowing someone else to have authority of you, you also consent to them painfully punishing you if they don’t like your behavior, there is no way they can even imagine any sane person doing that.

I’ve observed that every objection to our lifestyle refers to my surrender. They don’t even mention how perverted it must be to have that power over another. Weird. Isn’t it just as perverted to be the spanker as it is to allow being spanked?

[Mrs. Lion – Actually the commenter did ask if I get some sexual satisfaction out of spanking Lion. I really think he only read enough to be outraged. Had he read more he might have gotten the answers he was looking for. In fairness, I find myself shaking my head at other blogs and articles, wondering why people do what they do. Or, more accurately, do they really do the things they say they do?]

The problem people have is not so much with spanking, for example. More than a few studies have found that the vast majority of people have spanking fantasies. They find it erotic thinking about spanking or being spanked. I agree. I found it very hot to think about. Males, in particular, enjoy fantasies of being sexually dominated.

Are people who object to what we do, hypocritical? They dream of participating in the same stuff we really do. I don’t think so. The objections cover a much deeper fear.

Allowing yourself to be subject to another’s authority is frightening. That’s what’s really behind the “How could you…” questions. Mrs. Lion can control my behavior. She can forbid me from watching football. She can enforce that ban by painfully punishing me if I disobey. For the record, we are both football fans and she would never do that unless it was a punishment. She can order for me at a restaurant. She requires me to be naked at home. She is in control.

That frightens a lot of people. Men fear the childlike loss of control of their lives. Women fear that their authority will drive their men away. Or, they worry that they will hurt them. It takes a lot of courage to create a 24/7 power exchange. We have one. Yes, it is consensual. I can end it. But I won’t.

There are times I hate my loss of control. I actively hate being punished, even though I get aroused thinking about it. Many men enter a spanking with an erection. It doesn’t last long. At the end they are totally flaccid and regret the behavior that brought the paddle down on them. Some people theorize that the erotic fantasy of the spanking is a major motivator to make me expose my bare bottom for spanking. That’s odd, since I know what will happen next might drive me to tears. I guess I am an odd critter.

Punishment is the most graphic symbol of our power exchange. The real surrender is my obedience to Mrs. Lion. It’s not out of fear of punishment; though that is in my mind when I consider any rebellion. It’s out of my conscious decision to obey. More importantly, I continue because I’m happier and our bond is stronger because we have a clear agreement as to who is in charge.

I know what you are thinking, “Would it work if you were in charge, Lion” I am sure it would. But I have a very important reason why I want Mrs. Lion to remain dominant. I believe that her role allows her to think of herself as important and worthy of attention. Too much of her life was spent with people ignoring her wishes. She learned to stop telling anyone what she wanted. She still doesn’t always tell me. But I am convinced that as she takes her role to heart, she will feel free to let me know what she wants for herself.

The other day, I wrote a post about the one thing that says you are in a FLR. Mrs. Lion always reads and corrects my posts before they’re published. No, she doesn’t censor me. She copy edits. After she read that post, I asked her the question:

Me: “Do you think we are in a female led relationship?”

Mrs. Lion: “Yes, I think we are.”

I had assumed that she was role playing as a way to make me happy because she knows I truly want a FLR. I was wrong. The metamorphosis from acting as if we have a FLR to actually being the disciplinary wife in a true FLR is well along. It’s happening to me too. I admit that enforced chastity and FLR started as erotic fantasies. Because Mrs. Lion has been very hesitant to exert her authority, I’ve been able to maintain some belief our FLR fulfills that fantasy. The hard reality of submitting to her hasn’t fully hit home.

When I think about it, the progression is very understandable. It starts with my fantasies about FLR and being spanked. Mrs. Lion sets some simple rules that assures I will be frequently punished. We develop a rhythm of offense and punishment. If you will, this provides the tempo for our nascent power exchange. Over time, we both accept our disciplinary relationship as a natural part of our lives. That’s where we are. Mrs. Lion accepts that she is truly in charge.

The next step is when she seriously takes charge of an area of my life that I control now. One, that she started before my surger, was control of my weight. We had a spread sheet with weekly weigh-in’s. No weight loss resulted in a punishment. It worked. I hope we start again. However, there is a next step for that too: It’s direct control of what I eat. Our old system depended on me making all my food decisions. The next step is asserting control of what I eat and how much.

That will be difficult for both of us. Imagine going out to dinner and Mrs. Lion changing my order because it is too caloric. Julie wrote about an adventure that was triggered by her changes of what her husband ordered for dinner (You can find it here). I think the next phase of our FLR is active control.

Currently, we have reactive control. I am free to do what I want, but if I break a rule I get punished. Active control is making decisions for me that help me obey rules. The center of FLR is obedience. Active control is exercising authority that requires real-time obedience. My weigh-in may be six days away, but my mandated weight loss program requires me to make the right food decisions. Mrs. Lion can help me learn the right decisions by directly controlling what I eat when we are together. Any “mistakes” when we aren’t together will be revealed at the weigh in.

I think active control is the most advanced form of FLR. We may be ready to try some of that now. Are we, Mrs. Lion?

2 Comments

  1. Author

    First of all, I never said there is anything wrong with the bible. It just doesn’t fit in here. No, the idea of being subject to authority in the context of FLR with punishment is frightening. The fact that Mrs. Lion is female has nothing to do with it. My boss can’t spank me. He can’t even fire me without good cause. Mrs. Lion has a very different kind of authority. We have many women managers and above. I report to a woman. It’s not frightening at all.

    I allowed this comment because it does fit in our guidelines. You have your own agenda that has nothing to do with our blog. My patience is very limited for this kind of comment. For the benefit of our readers, this guy sends regular, long missives about a biblical imperative for female authority. That’s the mirror image of others who use the bible to push a male-authority agenda.

    Mrs. Lion is in charge because I asked her to take that role and I surrender to her. The bible has nothing to do with it.

    Thanks for reading our blog.

  2. Author

    FLR bloggers are very different from one another. This one finds any religious claim that one sex has divinely mandated dominance over the other a total pile of crap. The only dominant relationship I consider acceptable is one in which both parties consent. By the way, your last comment was the fifth I allowed through.

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