Once again, I thought I was being nice to Lion. I offered to let him decide when we play and when he gets an orgasm. I know he’s in pain now and will be if he has the surgery. I thought it would be better if I don’t bother him when he’s in the most pain. He doesn’t like the idea. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. He hasn’t liked it any other time when I’ve suggested he make decisions about play or sex. But it does surprise me. This is a completely different situation and I thought if he can’t control the pain, maybe he’d like to have other control. Nope. No thank you. Not necessary. Not wanted.

Okay. So I guess it’s up to me to decipher the signals. Fun! Lion doesn’t always say when he’s in pain. I don’t know if he thinks it’s a sign of weakness. He made a comment the other day about a new lion coming into the pride, there’s a battle, and the lionesses are now the property of the winner. I guess that makes them fickle. I told Lion that if anyone came into our little pride and tried to fight him, they’d have to get through me first. I’m pretty sure if the lionesses banded together, they could kill or chase off the newcomer. But I’m equally sure they don’t because the winner would be seen as the stronger one and, therefore, more worthy of having a pride. I’m glad human Lions are smarter than that. I don’t want a newcomer. Stronger or not.

Lion is still waffling about the surgery. He’s in a lot of pain now. He’ll be in a lot of pain after. He’s worried about things he can’t do right after the surgery. I’m worried about things he can’t do now. He’s worried about the length of time off of work and the long recovery period. I’m worried he’s in more pain than he’s letting on and it could get worse suddenly if the tendon tears more. He’s worried he’ll never regain full use of his arm. I know he doesn’t have full use now. And around and around we go. Only he knows how much pain he’s in at any given time. That’s why I wanted him to have the option of deciding when/if we play. He’s a stubborn man.